SUNSHINE!

2008-01-18T02:52:00.000+08:00

i wanna thank my brothers of six, esp jz kor & aylmer :)
for being here for me always, no matter what.
Ervina & kelly, thanks for those random smses, shows how much i mean to you girls
Darren ng, for showing me stupid youtube videos just to make me laugh, cheering me up on msn ,simple text msges like " hey sister,cheer up:)" or suan me like nobody's business
Benjee, for taking so good care of me whenever i'm with you, & that ear piece to keep me accompanied :)
Venie, that msn chat:), i know you care, & i'm not forgotten
Diane mei & precious, those tags on my tagboards, knowing that i'm not forgotten:)
my beloved boyfriend, who's always giving in & trying to understand me

& most imptly,
espall mei, for knocking some sense out of me.
you still mean alot to me, & i do still have trust in you,
since 2003 :)

& to darling, thou this time quarrel was a tragic to both of us,
but i've learnt to understand more about our group,
more about you, & treasure this friendship:)

i just need these pple to be here, that's all,
to make my life a meaningful one:)
gonna get a new blog,
because this blog is filled with sad memories, don't wanna bring all thes into my year 2008:D

2008-01-18T01:58:00.000+08:00

right, when i said last post for this blog. i'm sorry.
just one more last post=)

maybe i'm the one at fault, being sensitive & all.
this friendship is too true to be gone,
there's still rooms for understanding & appreciations.
maybe it was me who acted on impulse, & caused a big problem.

when i said i didn't care, swore & promised that i wouldn't care,
maybe i was just too dumb to said that.
those only lasted like 1 or 2 days?
and now, i don't think i'm able to keep that promise
i'm sorry God, for breaking this promise & making an unnecessary swear
i know He will forgive me, i'm sorry.

after talking to espall, letting out so much things, tears have been shed
but it's worth it.
because at least we got our feelings cleared, all unhappiness shared.
she's right, why care so much about appreciation?
yes, & i haven forget anything , that She means more than anything else
much more important than stupid appreciation

She is someone i've held on to for who she is, not someone i want her to be.
She is someone whom i've accepted since the day we became friends.
She is someone whom i've gone thru miles with.

She is someone whom i can shout at, & get this stupid face from her

She is someone who went thru ups & downs with me, like a roller coaster rides, even thou she fear of this kinda rides, & she's always the down.LOL!
She is someone whom i can fool around with
She is someone who can make stupid monkey faces with me, accept me no matter how ugly i am, just like how i HAVE to accept her :DShe is someone who will share her pain with me, like dirts & creams.lol
& also someone who will clean it away for me

She is someone who don't mind my dirtyness, because she's one dirty fellow too.
She is someone who is as pretty as a flower, because she's clean & green:) just simply her
She is someone i HAVE TO carry, no matter how heavy is she.
stupid elephant.No matter how long the journey takes;)She is someone whom i'll hold on to, & nvr say gdbye.
...
....
.....
......
She is someone whom i wanna walk with till the end,

She is no other than

SHAMINE WEE SHI YUN

I'm Sorry

from the bottom of my heart=)

no matter who's right or wrong, i don't care anymore
i just want to salvage this friendship, more than a friendship
you're right, i wouldn't have let you go.

you're too much for me to let go, too important to bid a gdbye
sorry for my words, you're the first person whom i actually apologised openly to.
& i had to break my promise & swear
Sorry for not being there when you cry this time,
infact, sorry for making you cry.
i understand :)

yours truly,
darling <3

2008-01-16T00:44:00.003+08:00

my final post dedicated to you
i'm letting this go
when i said i'l hold on to this love, i meant it.
& now i said i'm letting it go, i really mean it too
there's nothing worth for me to look bck & hold on,
nothing

because there's too much disappointment & lack of appreciation
how much i cared for you & did for you, is can never be compared to how much you've done for me.
I don't ask for anything for return, honestly.
All i just want is simply, appreciation.
but 9 out of 10 i just got a plainly "thank you"
everybody can say that, even my 4 years old nephew.

words can be said easily,
" you mean alot to me"
yes, you too, means everything to me, before
but what i see myself in you right now, is jut a status of " bestfriend"
just a status.

i don't think i deserve this status.
you don't too.
you're no longer the one i'll turn to whenever i meet up with challenges,
so am i.
we're just lying to ourselves saying how important we are to each other.

in the past, whenever there's disputes, i'll shed my tears & yet saying i don't care
but this time, i can say from the very depth of my heart , " i really don't care"
i won't even shed a tear, i can't too no matter how much i force myself.
cause this faith i have in you, has already died within me.
i don't have much strength to hold myself up again, what's more to hold you up right now.
I've done that for umpteen times, & this time, i will not be behind you, for real.
because this is way beyond for any arguement or quarrel

i know it's useless to tell you how i feel,
cause for the past few times, it never helps
so i shall just blog it out, you to read yourself:)

and dear fellows,
this will be my very last post.
i'm not going to use this blog anymore:)
cheers:D

2008-01-10T01:44:00.000+08:00

i'm in a melancholy mood right now.
i won't deny this, cause i'm really in the state of despondency,
the loss of courage & hope; dejection
especially after heading to Nafa to take alook,
i can say it's despairing.
i'm so stressed. right, stressed is the word.
i can't BALANCE things, everything
i hate it when darkness falls, & i'm all alone in the hall.
sunflowers & sunshine around you,
yet you're not happy.
this is how i feel right now.
i need supports, i really do.
this time, i'm defeated by sorrowness ):
badly.

friends, this is the moment.
thank you

wanna run away,

& hold nothing back,

just a smile :)

2008-01-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

let me see, it's just 6 days & it has been a bad 2008 year for me.
a really bad starting from the beginning.

why isit that all these problems have to come all in one shot,

causing me a mental anguish soon

i shall name all in one list.

snowie ):

the one that i worried the most now. Brought her to the hospital in the morning due to a really bad diarrhoea. Doctor said she had a stomach infection, & it could be worse as she's still 6months old only. It suddenly struck on me today, if i've made the wrong choice of buying snowie in the very first place. I thought i could be a good owner, but i was wrong. I can't even spend a whole day with her. Every morning she'll follow me everywhere i go, & look at me as i change to either go work or out. & just stare at me as i pat her head, bid bye & close the main door after me. When close to midnight,sometimes even later, but no matter what, she'll be the first one i see when i open the door. & she will be jumping & barking at me no matter how tired is she. I've learnt so many things after hacing snowie, she's like my child. I finally understand how much difficulties & worries my mom has gone thru. Today i fed her medicine, seeing how she struggled & whined made me just wanna break down & cry. I don't wish for anything now, just my lil sunshine dog to recover. Please God, I only had 3 months with her, please, give me another chance to do my part.i've lost some very closedd ones, but please, not this time.. I don't wanna anguish over the loss of a loved one again, it's torturous.

you're my snowie, my only sunshine.

you make me happy, when skies are grey.

you'll never know dear, how much i love you,

please, DON'T take my snowie away ):

get well soon,please ):

Studies
i've wasted a whole damn year (2007) playing & playing. Really hope can enter Nafa, & do the best that i can in every way. I have to excel, i have to. I can't see my future, i can't see what's ahead of me right now ):

money
since young, i'm being pampered & spoilt by the ones around me, especially daddy mummy & boyfriend. Always getting what i want, without fail. So i never know the importance of money & the hardship of earning money. I'm always taking money issue as for granted. Till i started working & being the owner of snowie, i know how difficult it is to earn just a single cent. I always think it's easy for a beggar to get a cent, but what can he buy with a cent? How easy isit for him to sit on the floor infront of so many passerbys, adapting to the stares & pointings. Today at mac, i saw this lady carrying 2 plastic bags & rather frayed clothings. She went around all tables to look for clean napkins. & i forgotten i left my change on the tray, she took it thou it's only a 45cents. How we always throw napkins away & how she folded them neatly placed inside her plastic bags. How she treasured a 45 cents , how much it means to her ,made me feel like a lousy person. A poor may not have everything, but will do anything to get what he/her wants. A rich may have everything granted, but what's the point when he/her doesnt even know the importance of money.

friends
few of my friends, be it good or casual friends, they are facing problems. They're as troubled as much as i am right now. I wish i could be there for them, every one of them. But i know it's impossible. I'm sorry dear fellows. I can just be here mentally, maybe a text or ring?
i always thought making new friends & more friends will bring me more joys & attention.
But i was wrong, having more friends means lesser time for each & every friend i have.
& soon, a distance between my endeared ones.

few gatherings i'm looking forward to,
just a simple meet up & chill will be a bliss.

it's not the quantity that matters, it's the quality:)

you, one & only you
you're the reason why i'm here alone. We've gone thru years, miles & tears. Shared all happiness,joy & sorrows. How much pain & hurt we've inflicted to each other, & how much happiness we've granted to each other. Our life is like a story book, full of emotions,climax & characters. We've overcome ocean of pain, excruciating torments, exultant happiness.

You mean alot to me, but that doesnt mean you can take every moves forgranted & think i'll forgive you no matter what. I may be putting on smile day & night, i may be 165 cm tall, my heart may be the size of my palm, but i'm a weak pillar. Stop crushing me with sorrow & grief, i can no longer exhibit such great and unremitting pain or wretchedness of body or mind.

sick
been sick ever since my taiwan trip(9th dec) till now, getting restless & restless each day.
i wanna recover....

i'm on the verge of breaking down soon

see me fly i'm proud to fly up high
不能一直依赖别人给我拥戴
believe me i can fly i am singing in the sky
就算风雨覆盖我也不怕重来
我已不是那个懵懂的女孩
风雨来不避开谦虚把头低下来
你曾经对我说做勇敢的女孩
我不会孤单
因为你都在

i'm a big big girl, in a big big world.
It's not a big big thing,
if you leave me.
But i do feel, that i'll miss you much,
miss youuu muchh............. granny, where you

2008

2008-01-02T09:15:00.000+08:00

happy new year,
welcome 2008

wow time flies huh? it's 2008=)a brand new year, a brand new chapter for me to carry on.
but i still have 2007 things to blog about, many =.=
2007 was a blast, totally

filled with fun,love,sorrows,happiness, regrets & definitely
friends :)
nyp cliques, venie & co,
chenty,vina & kelly whom i knew them on 2006(close to end of year).
it's gonna be our 2nd year, fast aye? :)

& 351,
since beginning of 2004, it's our 4th:)
espall mei, my very first best friend since 2003,
& till now, my dearest sister, we'll still stay this way :)

darling, you know i'll hold on to this love:D

& my brothers,
you guys are the best rockers!haha

boyfriend,
it's gonna be our 5th year knowing each other,
& years to go,

2007 was a blast? did i say that?
ironically, it wasn't the best year for me

so much to handle, love,friendships & rs
there's no studies, cause i have been slacking for one year! haha

& i know it hasn't been good for this person too,
not good at all.
He went thru' more than me, who am i to say pain?

let bygones be bygones, he said.
yes, as long as you're still walking along with me,
i know you'll not let me go, you better not.
you know i will fall without you, for sure.

& a year totally without them ,
i'm growing:)

enough of 2007, it's time to let go of this balloon of 2007
& welcome a happy 2008! =)
new year's resolutions,

be happy; everybody :D
more time with endeared ones
NAFA (fashion marketing)

; a morning dew on my windshield
Start each day fresh and new
Like rising sun on morning dew
Let the light penetrate through your heart
To purify it for a brand new start

new friends;old friends; everybody!
walk along with me ;)

2007-12-22T02:41:00.000+08:00

I wonder if,
will you stand by me, be it i'm blind.
Will you look for me if i'm lost in the busy city,
will you try your very best to locate me be it i'm lost for 1 year?
or will i be forgotten.

true never has an ending,
i must be dreaming, fallen into a deep sleep,
or watch too much love dramas.

She was lost in the snow,

praying and yearning for spring to come.

But yet again snow fell

...

& she's lost

where are you sunshine?

i miss you ):

2007-12-21T22:36:00.000+08:00

after darling left, been working more than going out.haha
but still went out with brothers,boyfriend snowie & friends;)
but was missing her lahh,SOMETIMES :D

1st Dec, darling came back
but couldnt meet up with her, cause i had to go Xiaozhu's concert.

2nd dec, OFF TO TAIWAN! :D
will blog about taiwan another day:D

back on the 8th, suppose to go Jenny's xmas party,
but didn't in the end;)
9th dec, Minghui's wedding.
at night went to meet up with CHENTY,DARLING & JZ:D:D:D:D

passed chenty her camp package before her camp trip:D
i miss them so dearly lah!!

this is for you darren! hahaha __

2007-12-21T21:04:00.000+08:00

25th nov
Ervina's Birthday"

met up with my birthday girl at amk mt
then headed to clark quay station meet beloved kelly!

we planned this outing for a long time already!
lunched at Waraku
it's super yummylicious!

birthday girl her bday present, & her favourite colour:D

& our dragon maki roll.hahah!
our cook! :D

then we went over to suntec.

bought Hippo Ridetickets, some thought we were tourists,some even thoguht we were superstar

HAHAHAHHA!

we went to buy drinks before hopping on the bus.

when we reached the place where we supposed to aboard, it ws raining cats & dogs.

Damn our luck!

that's not all, we're not sure which bus to hop on.

so we asked one driver, & eventually we hopped on!

we went to the upper deck,despit the heavy rain

other passengers went down, cause they couldnt take the wet ride

but we remained,

as the journey went on, we were laughing at each other stupidly

our hair were so wet,clothes, kelly & vina immediately took our mirror to see their make ups

HAHAHHA, its uber cute lahh!

its raining!, but we're enjoying.ahha

then it got worse
hahahaha!

look at kelly face, she's like
: whheeeee! we're wet! heh heh

i'm like,

: Rooarrr! wild & wet!

& ervina's,HAHAHHAHA!

:my God, i'm wet! i can go find PENGUIN!

HAHAHAHAHHAH!

(only we will understand)

before alighting the bus
lower deck

we alighted at Hotel Marriot there, & rushed over to Cine
cause we only had half n hour to take neoprints & catch the next hippo bus to sentosa

had our neoprint, but it was too late already.
so we walked over to Orchard's hippo & duck information counter.
& guess what?
WE BOARDED THE DAMN WRONG BUS!
we're supposed to board the red xmas decorated bus for our moonlight tour around town,
but we boarded the pink normal tour hippo ride =.=
so yeah, we can't carry on any journey, cause we've missed the last bus ):

walked over to heeren's toilet,
maked up & all.

our disapppointed faces ):

then over to cine again, for our dinner at Sakae Teppanyaki!
today we had japanese lunch & dinner, & it was Fabulous!

then then, we trained to Raffles city.
& while walking over to Boat Quay, we camwhored around Sg.hhAHAHAH!
really like tourists.

reached boat quay, but not many pubs were opened.

so we just went in one with the nicest environment.

the pple asked us to order Chivas or Martel..

but we ordered one jug, 20 bucks only.HAHAHAHHA!

we're really joke of the day, bad luck too.

played dice, kelly & vina drank the most lahh

i didn't like drinking, so i just sipped only.

i think i drank less than 1/4 of the cup.hahaha!

vina said "you think you drinking water ah"

=.= LOL

then few men came to talk to us,

asking if we're singaporeans.

we lied that we're taiwanese, & we've to act like one

it was totally hilarious.

& they actually believed lahh

still ask were we stay, bring us go tour around sg, stil gave us namecards

LOL! uncles! LAO TIKCOO

LOL!

cheers to our sisterhood!
happy birthday my prettaye!

left the pub after singing a while, then walked past one pub
One lady suddenly shouted, & approached us
asking us to go herpub, treat us drinks.
but we rejected, cause we smelt some rat, was rather suspicious.

hahahha. walked over to Mac & had a nugget meal:D
cabbed home with vina
home sweet home

thou our plan didn't work out successfully,
but we really enjoyed ourself.
In fact it was one of the best outing ever!
i love my prettayes! truly loved!

2007-12-21T20:49:00.000+08:00

15th Nov

met up with darling & jz at town.
went kbox to sing

around 7 plus, met ayl,ed & jw
then headed to cityhall meet chenty
& babe gave me a sweet lil' red monkey with colourful sweets:D
& a tissue letter.

train-ed to changi airport
why?
cause darling's leaving to china ):
aiyaaa, now she's back already, so i act sad for this post only
LOL!

dine-ed at a Hong Kong Restuarant

during our dinner, don't know why my tears just trickled down my cheeks.

Guess, i can't bear her to leave.

but can lehhh.LOL i act only

MY LAST MOMENT TO PLAY WITH HER

HAHAHHA

before she went in,

BYEBYE DARLINGG

PARTAYYYYE TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2007-12-21T13:44:00.000+08:00

i've realised,
no matter how strong one can appear,
but one can never defeat the master, 'love'
one can never hide his/her sorrowness.

I'm so tired,
overcoming the ocean of pains, & fighting with the mighty waves
坚强得太久好疲惫
想抱爱的人沉沉的睡
卷来的风暴凶猛里有种美
死了心痛就没感觉

To you,
it will take another me to trust the same old you.

To him,
guess, you're no longer the one whom i can confide everything to,
maybe both of us were wrong from the very beginning,
promises that can never be kept, that we both can't even please

To them,
we've been thru miles, & now you girls are already part of me.
A position that no one can take, a piority that no one can set,
but as times move by,
things ain't th same anymore.
sometimes, i've to squeeze thru your circle of friends to just catch a second look at you.
& sometimes, you just shut me off on msn,
& time & time i wonder, do any of you appreciate what i've done for you.
I'm not sadden by the sorrowness, yet is the lack of appreciation.
i wonder if you really listen to me, because it's either an interupption from you, or a sweetgdbye.
that's why i've given up confiding my problems to you.
sometimes, i wish the time will stop whenever i'm with you girls,
because time with you, are minimun now.
Or better still, time could turn back, when the earth just revolves around us.
honestly, i miss you girls
holding on to a lil hope that we can be like that past,
is slowly fading away.

i've realised, & learnt a lesson.
Its not the quantity of friends, but the quality.
Friends are easy to find, but true friends are one in a million.
Someone who will not believe the smile on my face,
& rather look at my sorrowness behind my masquerade.

Where's the rainbow & sunshine i used to believe in.
please give me back my soul & smile.
& why is the world so quiet.
actually the sky is grey.
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

2007-12-21T13:27:00.000+08:00

alrights, been blog hopping
& i came by one of my girls blog.

She's utterly emoo now, rather, in great depression.
i don't know how to put my words to cheer her up,
in fact i seldom meet up with her, only monthly?

but she's someone close to me, very endeared indeed.
This girl of mine, is a rather weak at heart one.
Soft hearted, & that's why she get hurt so easily.
It's love that's making her this way,
even thou how much we reject that guy, insult him,
i know she will never let him go, it will take her a million years to that.

Girl, please don't be this way.
I miss the cheerful you,
but on the other hand, i don't want to see you faking a smile infront of us.
I rather you cry to us, we want to be your shoulder, your pillar of strength.
We're always meeting up, sharing about our lives.
I want it this way, forever.
because i want to you to know that you're never alone, never.
What the guy has inflicted to you, will never be what we will do to you.
Trust us, we'll plaster your wounds.
Kelly, you must be overcome these,
you may don't want to let go, but at least hold on to those memories & move on?
what meant to be yours, will always be yours
you need time, plenty of time.
look infront of you, you've a far long journey infront of you,
you're not even sure what's infront of you, yet you chose to look backward.
trust us, hold on to us =)
we'll be there.....

yours truly,
ervina & jiaying

2007-12-20T01:25:00.000+08:00

before going sentosa, met up with boyfriend awhile

after sentosa, boyfriend came to pick me up.
then he asked me to blindfold myself again =.=

when i reached the place, its changi! a place that i really like!:D
you can see plane taking off from there,

then he asked me to come down.

here i go :D
hapi bdae, & he sat by the candles & sang me hapi bday song before it turns to 12 Nov :D
& a bouquet o flower.
& 12 NOv, it's our anniversary:D
supper at changi village :D

thank you so much to boyfriend.
for the efforts & surprises:D
loves

2007-12-19T12:28:00.000+08:00

11TH NOVEMBER

BEST DAY OF THE YEAR
okayys, miss chenty & darling's been complaining about my laziness
so here you go girls :D

met up with ed,ayl,jz,lewis,jw & jo at red circle
trained to vivo:D

here's ur acton beh deh " jay chou" HAHAH!
had lunch at Food Republic, then went to the roof garden to play:D

darling couldnt join us till 1, & espall couldn't turn up ):

so we headed to sentosa first

look at junwen's extra face.LOL!

found a spot at Palawan Beach

Played awhile of Volley & FRisbi.
Then the guys continues to play, jo & I rest under a tree.
relax only.hahah!

& don't know why, they started Spaing=.=

& lewis started gaying.hahahahah!
then, all rest under the tree, listen to music.haha!
suddenly, the speaker started to play " happy birthday" song.

i thought it was to disturb me only, but then everyone started singing.

i turned, & guess who i saw?

DARLING, CHENXIAOWEI & PERRY BROOOO!

they were holding big cake!

really big

i was really shocked, suprised, HAPPY!

darling & chenty specially baked it for me :D
see! there's a sun there! heh heh! & my big big name.
how swee of them huh?

my beloved girls;D
& my playful brothers.
i didn' know they were up to smth.

until, they all started pouring powder on me=.=
& see my face, thanks to the idiot BEHIND ME
TENG JUNWEN see how, they torture me

after that, darling put colgate on my hair & back.
cake smashed o my face.
& the war began.
wanna see the outcome of me?
.

...

....

TADAHHHH! monster invasion.HAHAHAH!

& who made me the most? AGAIN.
TENG JUN WEN

REVENGE!

heh heh, the ugliest BABE & DUDE at sentosa.HAHAHHA!
my sweet lil' chenty, was really suprised upon seeing her!
my first bday with her :D

ong jing zhi! this idiot who keep running away from me, lewis lee.haha

DIRTY GIRLS!
& MY BELOVED PERRY YEO!
he bluffed me he couldn't come for my bday lah!
everyone lied to me.
& i really believed.

so when i saw him,
i was like " OMG, PERRY?!?!?!"
i haven seen him for months cann!!

my stupid darling wh planned all these, thanks dar:D
THANK YOU ALLL!! :D
haha, after all the dirty playing, chasing, catching like small lil' kids
the girls went to bathe

but the guys are not yet done with their playing,
they not enough childhood.heheh

POOR LEWIS

CLEAN GIRLS
HAPPY GIRLS
Thank you for the cake babes:D
my cheeky lil' one.
i'll carry you two no matter how long the journey takes ,:)

trust me babe :)
because i've faith in you:D
then we started jumping,

& my clumsy darling, always fail to get her jump snapped!

enough of Palawan, we walked over to SILOSO

Then we played at the sea,

will upload the sea photos other day, i've lost them.heh

volley, & all.

then sent cheny & Dear to the Tram,hugged & bidded thm gdbye

around 7 8 plus, we all left sentosa.

I love you guys:)

espall mei, i wish you were there ):

but you're always in my heart :D dined at Carls Junior,

the burger is HUGE!hahaha

my disgusting buddy,hahaha!
girls
GAYS, HAHAHHA
HAHAHAHHA! look at edmund's face, i cnnt tahan.LOL

a very BIG THANK YOU!

you guys really made my 17th birthday a memorable one.

i'm a happy girl:D

friends

2007-12-16T02:15:00.000+08:00

i hate the fact that i'm getting busier now,
the fact that i can't spend an equal amount of time with everybody.
& i have to balance so many things in my hand now.

firstly, new staffs have quitted job,
so i've gotta work more.
secondly, i've so much fashion & piano 's homework. Furthermore exam's coming, portfolio time.
thirdly, friends schedules and mine are always crashing ):

i really do miss my endeared ones, even thou i met them like the day before?
maybe it's because time spent with them now, is getting lesser than before.
That's why even a short meet up, be it chill or play, will satisfy me enough.

Especially 351, girls i've not spend much time with you girls alone.
one day please, just the 4 of us :)
My bigbigbig family, i'm still holding to my wish, to go out together with the 10 of us.
Chenxiaowei, Prettayes Vina & kelly, i'm meeting you girls at least once a month, & i'm contended. You girls have became a part of me, & i do wish to know you girls more & better.
Daphne & Diane mei, we're not meeting up often, but rmbr our pact? birthday:)
NYP cliques, you guys better meet me soon! i miss you guys laughters!
Venie, we always wanna meet, but time just pull us away. make a lil time for both of us aye :)

these are the friendships i'm holding onto,
friends, when i said i wish i could be there for you, i really mean it.
I may be greedy, all of you
I wanna be your listening ear, shoulder, plaster, everything..
i want to do anything to make you guys smile.
sorry if i neglect anyone of you,
but please don't doubt this friendship, i'm sincere.
If i could just shove time away &stop this earth from spinning just 5 mins,
i wanna the world to revolve just among us.
Let me there for you, & walk along with you.
Trust me, i love everyone of you.

Prettayes vina & kelly,xiaowei, girls sorry i can't be there during your down periods, i'm only there whenever there's fun & outings.
But trust me, you girls have been circling my mind.
Espall mei, sister i may not know what's going on around you now, but i wanna you know that
you're still the same in my heart since sec 1. Etched in a position no one can replace, i can never forget.....

i just wanna apologise to all my friends for neglecting them, if i did
i'm really sorry...

to boyfriend,
i'm really trying hard to balance friendship &this rs.
& i'm glad you're being understanding...
thanks for trusting me & accepting my friends
i love you.

To mom & dad,
sorry that i had to work & go out with friends.
I haven been spending much time with you, especially when Dad comes home late, Mom's always asleep when i reached home.
& Both of you are out whenever i wake up.
all i wish for is a xmas dinner with just the two of you :)
i love you two still...

sorry everybody ):

a post dedicated

2007-12-14T02:32:00.000+08:00

i miss a very good friend of mine,
but sad to say, i've lost that very special friend.
a truly special one.......

reading thru all the emails since 1st of Nov,
tears just trickle down my cheeks endlessly.
The first ever mail " COURAGE"
this friend of mine, gave me courage when i was at my weakest point,
he was my courage, till now :)
then we started turning out on 9th January, yet he didn't lose grip of me
every mail of his, every words, every letter, was filled with sincerity.
he wrote in faith, he speak in faith, he believed in faith, he believe in me...

one who quitted smoking because he knew with yr presence , he's never lonely , i were his confidante . cigareetes are no longer his only company when he's am lonely and down .
one who thought of me when he's down, comfort himself by saying i'm happie now , i'm safe juz kept inside his heart , and i will be there always .
one who didn't mind getting hurt cause he knew i was worth it
one who said i saw him the way where nobody else had did
one who rather be hurt by me than to see all his closest friends disputes , his family disputes
someone who had never doubted me, & took all blames to himself.
someone who understand me sooo well,
someone who really made me believe he's willing to do anything to chase my sadness & troubles away.

But i've hurt this very special friend of mine with my very own hands,
yet he still didn't blame me, he put the faults on him.
i know he will not be reading my blog,
but i wish one day, he will know how truly sorry i am.
& how much i appreciate him.
how much i want to say a sorry,
& a big thank you for everything.
how much i want ask about you,
so much i want to know about your life now....

he's someone that taught me many things,
to be independent, to believe in myself, to understand the ones around me, to know the importance of family & friends, to appreciate, to be strong & overcome any hurdles,
& most of all, to smile :)
he's one in a million, he's someone hard to find,
he's now a soul of motivation,
i could only see his image in my mind to keep me going
he's someone that may have left me now, but still etched in a position in my heart.
not moving an inch or mile, with memories & footprints imprinted in my mind....

" life doesnt always go your way , only if you start to adapt to the way life moves."
thank you stupid :)

2007-12-14T01:10:00.000+08:00

10th nov '07

a day with my dearest heeren babes:) celebrated my bday.

trained to vivo-city with vina & met kelly there
lunched at White Dog Cafe ( i thought it's a dog shop at first.HAHA)

see the photos of our foods! it's damn nice!

& the pathetic ice cream the 3 of us shared :D
4. GLASS CABLE CAR! to Mount Faber & back

kelly & vina were screaming like nuts? haha! they were so scared!

we sang birthday song & thanks for the beautiful flower & lil cupcake, & my prezzie=)

after that, went to town.
managed to sneak into Balcony upperfloor, but was caught after a while.haha!
no choice, stayed at lowerfloor.
had a drink, & chit chat :)
but had to leave half way, cause meeting daddy for dinner.

but it was a great birthday with my two favourite girls :)
just a simply celebration with two wonderful gifts ( vina & kelly)
contended !:D

our friendship lasts & endures :)

boyfriend,daddy & mummy came to pick me from heeren.

had dinner at Hyatt International Buffet :)

Daddy's treat:D

its me with those indian flowers, ahah.

it was deepavali week!

Boyfriend ordered flower to the place & had it placed on our table ( surprise)

it even had the words " Happy Anniversary" on every petals of the roses.

while we were all busy gorging the food,
suddenly, all the staffs begun to surround my table with a hello kitty cake
& sang me birthday song!

it was boyfriend's idea once again! (surprise)
he had it all planned before the dinner

dad & mom.
daddy was really sweet,
he gave me a Gucci set birthday present:)
mom gave me a big red packer :)

& the wonderful dinner with them is the best present i'm asking for

& who else? my beloved boyfriend.
after that, went to look for jz at his house downstairs.
when i reached there, he asked me to open a big pink box infront of me.
when i opened it, " Happy Birthday " song started to come out from it.
it was a hello kitty speaker! not only that, with a bottle of 51 folded YELLOW STARS!
20 hello kitty lollipops! 1 big hello kitty marshmallow! a hello kitty photo al wit our photos! & last but not least ( THE BEST!) a beautiful handmade ring card :)

went home to put all my stuffs & left to boyfriend's house as he gotta take smth.
when we're ready to leave his house, he asked me to blind fold myself with a stupid pants he took from his house ( he claimed tht he couldn't find a cloth =.= )

but i told him i'll just shut my eyes instead ( I DIDN'T PEEP AT ALL)
while he was driving, i kept guessing where he's bringing me to.

& i was correct!
SENTOSA =) ( the private estate area)

but he asked me to stay in the car while he do something first.
around 1210, he got so pissed off!
he told me " sorry dear, the lighter spoil ): , i ca't give you the surprise"
he was so sad lahh, poor boy.
so i told him pretend i didn't know anything, HAHAHA & we went to buy lighter again.
that silly boy bought 3, LOL!

then we went back again.
when it was time to go out of the car, he asked me to open the car boot.
& i swear it was the most beautiful thing :)

two balloons ( from my son shauny! thank you ) flew up, sparkles & candles were glowing,
& right in the middle was my big present !

it's a JUICY COUTOUR BAG! the one i'e been looking for! & singapore no longer hold that bag anymore! :D
& we got chased away by security guards, cause it's a private estate. HAHAHAH!

i wanna thank these people for making my 10th a wonderful day :)
my two prettaye girls, jingzhi, mummy & daddy, boyfriend

& yes

i wanna thank yeverybody for the wishes:)

mummy
daddy
boyfriend
relatives
darling
espall
jodie
aylmer
jingzhi
jun wen
lewis
edmund
perry
daphne
diane
chenxiaowei
ervina
kelly
louis
jeremy
charmaine
shaun
bjorn
celest
auntie jasmine
samuel
yianwei
claris
samuel
venie
joleen
kyler
matt
charlene
sherlene
jerome
quiwen
anni
yanni
shenny
jenny
auntie Lisa
jessie
minghui
jhongren
tingting
joanne
darren
benjee
kahwai
stupid
tuckwah
reen
grace
ahpong
alfred
binquan
ivy
siying
jolin
ashrain
alton
valentine
joan
andy
huiping
valerie
guan
vivian
charlotte
ben
jaime
huiqi
yangyang
alex
alexis
randy
benny
charlottegeraldine
Glandor

& some from friendster comments & messages whom i don't know?
&some unknown sms
these are the names i can remember, sorry if those not mentioned
but i just wanna say, thank you to everyone of you for making my birthday a sweet one:)
thanks for making the effort to remember it, love you guys!

you guys have forgotten about my birthday ):
i can't be anymore disappointed.
its not about the wishes, but about the presence of me in your hearts.....
i miss you guys still

you'll never know ):

2007-12-11T20:43:00.000+08:00

not gonna say much, just pictures will do
start from NOVEMBER :D
HAHA!

9th dec
swmming with darling, & yuki yaki!

6th NOV

JODIE DEAR'S BIRTHDAY!

work, daph & louis came to visit me!

vivo celebrate! :D

10th NOV

2007-11-16T02:58:00.000+08:00

okays after shaun's bdaycelebration ( 5th, which is Jodie's dear bday! ),
which is 6th Nov Tuesday

guess what????
i went to work =) hahahahah!

louis friend! brought daphne to my workplace!
i was like damn bored lah! slacking!
see!
so happy to see my precious! so long nvr see her already
we chatted a while before she left for work interview
of course, we took a photo :)

thennnnnnnnnnnnnnn,

after work, went to celebrate jodie's bday at vivo with bigbig family
but sorry ! no photos yet :D

8th NOV DEEPAVALI!

went out with my dearest precious:D
boyfriend & i went to pick her up from her house.
initially wanted to wath Muay Thai, but when we were buying tickets
the manager asked " IC PLEASE"
damnnn, its M18.hahah! & we actually made louis ran all the way from Lido to cine.

hahah. in the end, we rented a room to watch DVD at cine's 9th floor
we watched DISTURBIA, great show i must say :D
& there's this stupid man so budget, stood outside our room watched the show=.=

but we still had fun :D

& guess what, precious boyfriend & i actually wore red & black.ahahha!

then precious & i kinda secretly took photos with these celebrities.haha

I LOVE HER :D

birthdays

2007-11-16T02:35:00.000+08:00

BJORNY & SHAUNY'S BIRTHDAY :)
last week happenings
sorry for the super late update ):

okays bjorn's bday.
went to Terence Chow's restuarant after work.
after dinner, boyfriend sent me home to change.haha
damn casual

then went taka to take a look,together with hongzhi & celest

we joined the competition!

15 minutes later.

.......... hahahah! just joking! we didn't join, ( join also cnnt win) LOL!

Shaun's bday celebrati0n

went to turf city with boyfriend to get his car windows tinted.

then his mom dropped shaun & his gramps at turf city too.
went to fetch bjorn from tuition, & we went to see BIG houses.
hahaha. really big houses.

then, got ready & went to cine Sakae Tepanyaki for dinner

don don & bjorn =)

the super chef with him awesome-licious PLAIN FRIED RICE for shaun ( egg & rice only) special order.hahah!
after the meal, the kids, including boyfriend & i, celest hz & his grandpa, went to the ARCADE>LOL!
then we all went to Pinese club to just cut that stpid boy's birthdya cake =x
hahahah!

see my son! he's finally 13!
buttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt =) still like a small kid.haha

okay, one post updated =)

venie! see i've updated! LOL!

but sorry, jodie's bday have to wait
no photo recieved yet =.=!

2007-11-09T22:31:00.000+08:00

ayyye people
sorry, been very lazy to update my blog

been hanging out too much outside & slacking at home :)
since last week,been rather busy
celebrating birthday for shaun,bjorn & jodie, work, out with darling swimming, met up with precious! etc
so yeah, the week was fruitful :)

*except that i didn't manage to hang out with my nyp cliques & chenty
has been changing our meet up again & again ):
hopefully there'lll be one day when everyone's free for one another aye

yeahhh..
quite a number of pple complaining don't know what to get for my bday
hohoho

if a gift, you guys know i like hello kitty
so yeah :)
hahha you know i know lahhhh..
HAHAHHAHA.bhb

easy lahh.
i WANT handmade birthday cards :)
no worry if its ugly or anything, is the thoughts that counts.
i'm serious, that's what i want.
anything will do people :)
just a simply birthday wish can make my birthday a happier one:D

i know those stupid pple like,
darling,ayl,jz,jw,darren sure say i trying to be modest only
I'M SERIOUS LAHHH =.=
LOL!
they just know me too well =x
hohoho

yepp, i'm happier now pple
anyways, troubles come, troubles go
so yes, i'm not that emo le.hahahah!
with you guys circling me, i'm more than happy! :D

cheers!
stay happy everyone!
gonna sleep now, having fever :(
adiossuckerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. hahahhh

2007-11-07T15:43:00.000+08:00

" i nvr ask anything or anything. we can't change her mind or what. so we also can't do anything"

" since she don't want say then let he be lor. i take it as nth happen"

" try.please.TRY. sometimes i feel like hating you, cause honestly the thought that you are the one that took everything away from me.So why are you hurting me this way. what's family to me?"

True feelings are said, everything is clear.
But problem left unsolved, no one care anymore.
Everyone's tired.
slowy, the once very determined me is letting go the thinking of solving everything.
The once very devoted me is letting down this faith.
i'm not going to try anymore.

.

conclusion: fullstop. end of ahhhs.
a big family:)

no trust in love,
love i've no faith in,
both i've lost in friendship.

2007-11-07T02:47:00.000+08:00

fucked up night, totally.

firstly,
it's a totally fucked up night =x
shant say more

Secondly,
i'm getting over you soon, i will.
trust me.

Thirdly,
i want to go clubbing=/
okay- ignore this =.=

forthly,
why issit always this period,this month when emo-ness strike all of us =.=
not gonna be a beautiful birthday.
mood spoilt=/

last but not least,
why can't everybody be happy?
i miss sunshine ):
-lost-

2007-11-06T00:13:00.000+08:00

i had a dream last night,
Don't know if its good or bad.
I dreamt of her.
The dream rather an unusual one,
seemed like an illusion to me yet appeared so... soo.... real.
It was a phantom, i guess

she walked me home,
suddenly she said " be happy okays, don't shed a tear if i'm gone"
i just held onto her hand quietly, & followed her foot steps.
.
..
i was only a kid then,in my kindergarden uniform.

then suddenly,i was 17
we appeared at her house.
aunties were there looking at me.
Then i had this sudden urge, i ran up to hug her.
i cried, & cried.
she hugged me so tightly, the moment i can never forget.
" happy birthday, i'm sorry"
then that image slowly faded away.
" girl! its 9am! please wake up!"
its granny again!

i felt a sudden jerk, when i opened my eyes,
its 9 am. exactly 9am.
i had to wake up at that time to go for work,
& i forget to set the alarm clock last night.
She woke me up in my dreams.
i know it sounds ridiculous,
but somehow, this is more than a dream to me.

Music full of soporific tones

Sit down and rest your tired young bones!

Ah, dear grandma, tell me

when grandpa made you so mad that you can't stand,

And tell me of your miserable childhood & how you cope,

Oh granny I do hope I see you soon

And we can eat Hans & macdonalds by the afternoons

I would love to see you, ever so much

So sit down in your lovely armchair

I will come soon and see you there.

The memory of falling leaves

The reds and browns, their golden gleams
Reflecting of your auburn hair
Igniting desires, I wish I was there
Reliving this dream I shared with you
Before this memory fades from view.
How strange to see you look like that
Your age, so gray, the dream doesn’t match.
But now the dream’s begun to fade,Stop!
Don’t go, don’t turn away!

Drifitng slowly further away
I always thought I’d have time to say
How grateful I am for all that you do
And though it seems I’ve forgotten, I’ve always loved you.

This is where my dream lies,
where i can sore above sky.
With you walking along,
this is where i belong:)

yours truly,
Lee Jia Ying

8 more days

2007-11-03T01:07:00.000+08:00

UPDATES AGAIN
i have to sleep soon man!

30thoct'07
back to nyp again :) this time with darling hehheh.
she actually thought that's a swimming poool =.=
at the entrance of the school

NO LINK**********

okays, met up with jo & espall.
351 gathering.hahaha!
as usual, espall did most of the talkings :)

half an hour ,but was fruitful =)
snack-ed at one canteen before sending espall to the mrt
walked back to meet jz & co

went to amk hub to eat roti prata,
then kpool :)

as usual, that bitch didn't play.
so camwhored=)

she went laughing away, DONT KNOW FOR WHAT.lol
THEN, she said black/white... emoooo
but stupid darling went smilign away
LOL!!

you see...
FINALLY!! HAHAHAH
playground awhile, chit chat & slacked
then i bus-ed home:)
so happy that i'm going hom earlier & earlier
hate staying outside now

31stoct'07

worked till 930pm
initially, dar & jz couldnt meet up with me after work.
so kind-hearted ayl agreed to have dinner with me:D
then plan changed.
dar & jz last minute stood outside my work place before closing shop
hahaha! so yeah, pangseh mr chen.LOL

had desserts at HongKong Cafe:)

i only love the soup, that's all
cause the glutinous rice has PEANUT IN IT* YUCKS!* & of course, mango dessert!
ITS A MUST whenever it comes to desserts

again.camwhore.LOL

YESTERDAY :)

piano at 115pm, kinda lateso cabbed down :)after piano, went to workplace
not to work,but get presents
i have 12 presents to get =.= dam, EVEN MORE BROKE
rights, decided to get accessories from my workplac for the girls,
cause its all handmade, more unique:)

yepp, stayed there till 4 plus.
then left, BUT I HAD NO WHERE TO GO
suppose to meet darling, but she still having lunch with her groupmates.
jz & co were at peninsular shopping=.= & im lazy to go there.haha
so i shopped around town myself.
called many pple. but SO COINCIDENTLY,
SO MANY PPLE AT BUGIS rather at town=.=

i was damn damn bored lahh.
saw kenneth & gang, chit chatted with them awhile
then left to cine's Esprit.
bought some clothes :D hee

then soon, the guys came Esprit to find me.
walked to taka yoshinoya & had lunch, darling joined us too.

after the lunch, TIRED!
everyone sat down awhile
then moved on to far east
window shopping, walking corpse lahh.haha

had MANGO dsserts again.hahah
then i bus-ed home whereas others went to tpy
the stupid bus trip was hella LONG LAHH!!
fucking waste my time, so tired=.=

bathed snowie, had dinner at home:)
yayness, homesweethome

okays... lame time
today while waiting for the lift & inside the cab.
i camwhored.LOL!
act cute time.hahhahahha!

MY TRADEMARK CUCKOO FACE!

alrights, quit looking lahhh

I SAID STOP LOOKING RIGHT!
i WILL BITE!

Nahhh, just kidding.
i ill just lick you.HAHHAHHA

okayss lame :D

IM IN LOVE WITH MAKI NAKASHIMA!
SHE'S A PURE PUNK ROCK MAN!
SHE'S HOT!

planner

2007-11-01T13:05:00.000+08:00

ohhh! i should learn to blog everyday,
so that i won't have piles of homework to do ( as in posts to update)
noww, my blog is like sooo lost.. LOL

anychups, life's been great
catching up with friends & all :) esp, good ones

Its first of Nov already, another month
time flies=.=
tis month will be a rather busy & sad one, thou its my BIRTHDAY!
17-.- damnn, i'm seriously turning old

anws why sad?
DARLING WILL BE AWAY FROM ME FOR 2 WEEKS LAHHH!!!
This sucks can! ):

so yeah, & i'll be working more days this month
cause its end of year, many pple will be shopping for Prom,weddings & x'mas:)
yepp, so kinda got my schedule planned

1stNov- Joleen's bday
4thNov- outing with Nyp cliques ! & boyfriend book out! ( finally)
5thNov- Jodie's Birthday! but need to organise another day to celebrate for her, all so busy =.
8thNov-celebrating bjorn's & shaun's bday
9thNov- MEETING UP WITH PRECIOUS!! FINALLY! to get her prom stuffs:) & shaun's bday
10thNov- out with kelly & vina to celebrate my birthday:) then night time dinner with parents & boyfriend.
11thNov- sweet 17th :) yayness, whole day with beloved brothers & sis!
12thNov- whole day with boyfriend,38months anniversary:)
16thNov- (best & saddest day)celebrating xw & my birthday together with darling, & also send her off to airport ):
18thNov- celebrating diane & precious birthday together with mine :)
19thNov- precious & diane's exact bday!
22ndNov- dearest chenty's birthday! but she'll be at OBS.haha
25thNov- kelly & vina, celebrate vina's bday
26thNov-Bjorn's bday
27thNov- VINA THE BITCH BDAY! haha
28thNov-dearest perry bro's bday :)
29thNov- liling mummy's bday
30thNov- DARLING'S BACK!

yay! so many birthdays! haha
but two weeks without darling kinda sucks
no more her stupid lame jokes, IS REALLY LAME
* no link*
& also no camwhoring partner ):
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

okay! i need go work already
ciaos pple!

days like this

2007-10-30T09:05:00.000+08:00

lack
okays, updates for last week :)

THURSDAY 25thOCT'06

i can't remember where i go & what i did for the whole mroning & afternoon,other than sleep. hahaha. so i shall talk about my night :)

went to Terence Chow's steamboat restaurant for dinner with celest,hz & boyfriend. too bad, terence chow wasn't there. *to celest* hahaha! i go there for the food, not for TERENCE CHOW for her, its the other way round.hahaha

okays, the steamboatbuffet wasn't that bad.

i love the char siew bao, its not like the normal kind

you have to soak it in the soup before eating, & the bao will actually melt in your mouth hmmmmm, yummy.hahahha!! after dinner, drove to Holland Village for desserts. Celest said the ice cream there will be to my liking.

yeah, Cold Rock

you can actually choose two flavours, & toppings like ( gummy bears, marshmallow) then they will mix the icecream like the pictures below :)

but the ice cream tasted like shit =x
hahaha! maybe is the flavours that i've chose.LOL.

Friday 26thOct'07

went to taka with celest early in the morning,okay lahh, its around 11 plus :)
& damn! the whole place was crowded with pple man!
more of ladies:) why?

HELLO KITTY SANRIO SALES, only for members.hahaha
just look at the members, so many aunties:x
so old already still act cute, hahahah!

really like siao lahh, so full.
i don't even have the mood to buy hello kitty, for the first time
i only bought one card holder for $5 , & its not hello kitty. its melody:)
i should give my self 2 rounds of applause man, i feel so proud .hehheh.

maybe cause i'm too tired, & not feeling well.haha

after the long tiring shopping, celest sent me to Ps for my piano lesson.
after lesson, boyfriend & mom came to pick me
went to do some stuffs for his car & bank
around 6, they dropped me at Ps again to meet darling & co
in the end i had to walk all the to Paradiz Centre to meet them=.=

played few rounds of pool, & arcades
we train-ed to serangoon, ate CHOMPCHOMP:)
we had a really good time there, just a simple outing, a simple dinner & a happy gathering

i love my family:)
after dinner, we took bus back to tpy,
went to enter's playground, slacked
\

then the guys started sparring, & doing push ups.
girls camwhore.haha!

lewis died of exhaustion.LOL!

SATURDAY

went to work from 2 to 8
then boyfriend came to pick me, wasnt feeling well & had no where to go
so went to his house, play piano.haha!
& such a coincidence, celest & hong zhi came back too
they had no where to go.LOL!

we four slacked at home a while,
boyfriend & i played piano & sing
while the other two take photos.lol!

then celest suggested to dine at Pines Chinese restuarant.

overall, the food sucks :)

went back boyfriend house.
celest & hz offered to send me home.
before that,we went to balmoral
& there's this one which worth 80 million!!!
they were holdng Halloween party i supposed, cause the house was decorated with skeletons,white clothes, dim red lights & all.It was really spooky, much more than what is shown in the picture below.

okay, then home sweet home :)

tell me again

2007-10-29T00:04:00.000+08:00

right, can't sleep again=.=
can't figure out what's wrong with me; my body & mind

i'm like physically drained out totally, yet my mind on the other hand is refraining me from entering into my dreams.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i wanna sleep lahhhh
help me, tml still have work at 1130am leh ):

alright,i've many to blog & pictures to upload
but look at the time now=.=
i'm just posting this blog to make myself more tired, as in my eyes *_*

yesterday, SUNDAY.
studied with jz,darling & ayl at braddle mac.
it's like Os level period again, except that this year we're not the one taking the stupid BIG exam.haha
in the end we crapped more we studied lahh

ratio

study: never study

10:1

yay, congradulations :)

hahaha, but it was a fruitful day thou

spending day with my great ahhh family,

i'm loving it ! yeahhh

walked to tpy central with darling's accompany, loves

met tk to get jz's birthday present, he helped me buy :)

thanks friend!

right, then went to buy snowie's food & topped up card.

ahahah! swapped my cards like twice, DECLINED DECLINED DECLINED=.=

NO MONEY LAHHH

so embarassing=.= fuck shit.

okay, nvm

around 7,ayl walked home, dar,jz & i went to darling's house there to dine,

actually not we 3 eat lahh,

is that pig=.= HAHHAHAHHA

okay lahh, must change my habit, he's no longer a pig

he slimmed down so much lehhhhhh. omg.. i'm a big meanie. sorry

i say say nia, make him happy only. hahahahahhah!! =x

okayyy, then cabbed home:)

again, maybe its better this way.
my birthday is drawing nearer & nearing.
but i just don't feel as happy as before anymore.
maybe its because of the people who's celebrating for me are decreasing.
mainly, the important ones..

i wanna spend more time like today:)
boyfriend's very very sick now, & i'm sort of neglecting him somehow.
maybe cause he's in camp & i'm busy with my friends.
i'm sorry ):
loves

a morning sleep once again

2007-10-25T03:54:00.000+08:00

supposed to be asleep, but my mind just can't shut.
at least just escape away from those haunting memories that's swimming into my mind.
why can't my mind just be in a turmoil, give me some peace.

i seriously hate those bitches who caused me to be in this dilemma,
i hate them for nuts.
i hate him more.

anychups,
life's been different ever since school starts,
everyone's so busy with their own stuffs.
I miss my friends

had a chat with two friends of mine,
they're two whom i'll turn to online, reasons being we seldom meet up.haha
& most importantly, i feel comfortable just to talk to them.

To the guy,
since sec 1, you've been walking with me.
maybe there's times you are far apart from me,
but one thing for sure, i know you haven leave me at all.
Friends come & go, but you stayed.
yes, there's period we weren't so close, due to the being in diff class & all.
but somehow, we got back to each other this year.
& i have to say, all these while you're a great companion :)
recalling the times we made our ways to each other's house downstairs, even in the middle of night.
just to talk & slack, or to be listening ear.
You're a great listening ear,
i can nvr forget the day you wiped my tears away in the bus from poly.
How you cared for me, & how you stood by me.
You're a great friend, one whom i can joke & talk to.
Thank you.
Please make your decisions wisely, i'll be there no matter what decision you make (:

To the girl;
i still rmbr how we quarrelled in sec school,
& how we became "friends" over friendster.haha
but its also after last month chat, then our friendship starts to blossom.
Rewinding back to the time we had a really long chat over Msn,
on the topic " Guys".hahaha.
& how we realised what's goodfriend in disguise (:

Please don't do anything to harm yourself mentally.
I know how you're feeling now,
i understand what you're going through.
Please don't hide your sorrows behind a masquerade.
Please don't live behind the veil.
maybe i'm wrong, i do hope that i'm wrong in this conjecture.
but i want to say : A true friend is someone who sees your pain in your eyes, while others believe the smiles on your face
i may not be a true friend to you.
but trust me, i believe in this friendship
Talk to me, cry on me, i'm willingly to be there & share,
hold on to me, this friendship,where we began to embark on it,
& allow it to bud into a beauty flower :)

Be happy the both of you,
so everyone of you (:
i love you guys, thanks to those who stood by me once before,
gratitude to those whom still standing by me now.
Loves to those whom with me now (:

# 274 a trip to malaysia

2007-10-24T13:12:00.000+08:00

19oct'07

had piano lesson at 1045, damn early lahh=.=

then boyfriend smsed me " come my house after piano, eat lunch, i cooked for you"

so sweet huh :)

cabbed straight to his house, & had lunch with bjorn & him.

Its carbonara :) damn tasty luhh

after lunch, cabbed home with boyfriend to get snowie.

drove dad's car, & sent snowie to boarding school ):

cause i'm going oversea, that's why had to put her there.

so poor thing ):

at first i was very happy

see....after leaving poor snowie there,

EMOOOOO... okayys, anyways, after that.

had lunch at a western restuarant with boyfriend before he dropped me at Bugis to find darling & co. Met up with sw,jz,ayl & jw at bugis street.

train-ed to airport

see jz face, si bei joker.LOL

reached airport, took the tram to terminal 1.

anothe joker.hahah

GAYS, after that, jw couldnt walk.HAHHAHA
went to take group photo at terminal 1 viewing mall.

then took the tram back t terminal 2, gotta catch my flight soon.

can you see jw? hahaha

right, reached terminal 2 Departure hall.

Hugged darling so tightly, she cried lahhh =.=

i miss her so bad, but snowie more.LOL

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HAHHAHAH okays lahh

everything's for show nia

we all posed one.haha!
we went airport just for fun, laughters,peace & joy.haha

my best brooo!! :D
i'm being sandwiched by two faggots.HAHAH

actually wanna eat Popeye, but jw recommended some hongkong food, don't know what name lahh. lol

so yepp, trust jw's reccommendation.LOL

NOT BAD AT ALL, hongkong food= yummy desserts!! :D

just look at the menu, its all desserts, not yet main course!

& the restuarant

camwhore in hunger, HAHHA

& the glass there are so unique!
here come our dishes! we ate quite alot lah,
especially me, two thick toats & THREE desserts :)
jw & sw one.

my toasts! :) the kaya one too sweet!

jz & ayl ate fried rice with fried chicken. its damn delicious! & their soup, the goldfish wanton looked real & damn disgusting.hahaha
& finally! MY DESSERTS!

the one at most right, is snowy mountain.

reminded me of snowie);

anyways, i thought its like snow ice & it would be sweet

but turned out to be soooooo sour =.=

yepp, after our heavy dinner, we walked to terminal 2 viewing mall.
but its too dark to see the planes):

i'll hold on to you,darling (:
just a pose only.LOL!

Leaving the Airport
after that, the guys ps us at Aljunied, cause they wanan go Geylang=.= thanks to jz.

so left darling & i, but we still have our own fun.hahha!

alighted at Newton, Mrt boyfriend came to pick me up & went to his house for dinner, AGAIn.lol

this time is pasta from pastamania, luckily not he cook one.LOL! kidding

yepp, donovan,cheryl,casandra,shaun,celest were there.

so i stayed over & watched movies with them.haha

the kids were so noisy lahhh..

next morning, boyfriend sent me home with dad's car.

& he cabbed to his camp.

20th oct'07

went back malaysia for Grandpa's birthday.

this time it isnt that grand or special, more like a normal family gathering dinner.

cause many aren't in singapore anymore ):

anychups, pictures will do the talking :)

see, how fortunate now adays the small kids are
my niece! Sazavalle (:

& my all timed best nephew, xavier tan!

made him do this face,haha.
see his stupid teeth, gonna drop
yanni & i felt like punching his teeth whenever we see it.LOL!

& then my oh-so cute Lucas tan, said he want to wear my jacket, cause he's cold.

& ended up, playing with it.LOL!

he's cute right?? :D then Xavier,being the copy cat, got another jacket from anni.haha

now they think they're supermen.

now adays small boys so zilian.LOL

& another niece of mine, Lavelle.also anther copy cat

just Look at her, she's damn hyper!

& she doent like to wear clothes.

she tends to pull out her underwear & top, run away nakedly.

even in the public, yes PUBLIC.

BAD DAY

2007-10-23T13:30:00.000+08:00

okayy.while waiting for boyfriend to reach my house,
i shall blog about yesterday

YESTERDAY WAS TOTALLY HELL MAN!
worst day of my life!=.=

OKAY LAHH, not really my life,
but yesterday was.............
hellacious-ly BAD! =.=

look, i went for work from 1130 to 6pm
bus-ed 700 to bras Basah for school.
school was okay, after school, supposed to meet aylmer chen at his house downstairs.
but i complained i was very hungry, so made him go all the way to CRC mac.hahah!

intended to take cab, but i waited for so long, REALLY SUPER LONGG!!
ULTRA LONG=.=

i walked to raffles hotel there, no cab.
crossed opps, no cab
walkd back to Bras Basah, no cab
then go back raffles hotel there again, STILL NO CAB
i repeated this cycle for 3 times??????

& some of the fucking cabs are not HIRED AT ALLL!!!
they're just waiting for on calls, or 11 when there's extra charge
& they actually have the nerves to complain no business????
YOU KNOW HOW LONG I'VE WAITED FOR A DAMN PATHETIC CAB??=.=
915 till 1030 & my stupid phone batt died on me=.=

in the end, i had no other choice.
i took 56 to tpy.
i alighted at tpy station, BUT
when i saw the bus turned & headed towards CRC there, & stopped a bus stop which was like SO DAMN NEAR TO CRC.
i felt as thou somebody hammered my head=.=
IM SUCH A LOSER MANNNNNNNNNNN

i walked all the way to CRC, carrying my heavy art file, & my leg soles were hurting like Crazy.
& IT STARTED RAINING=.=
okay lahh, drizzle heavily nia.hahah

& poor friend waited for me for like 1 hour there, playing his psp,
LONER.hahah
BUT ITS NOT MY FAULT!
bough nuggets meal, ate & complained about my day at the same time
really sibei du lan=.=

after that, sat down talked awhile
before cabbing home & shun bian gave him a lift.
home sweet home

bad mood

2007-10-23T03:53:00.001+08:00

anyways, happy birthday to Joan & J'me (:
may your wishes come true girls

& stay happy aye!
be prettaye babes :)

stop abusing my trust, taking it forgranted.
i hate this, i hate this

Tml gonna bring snowie to the vet.
Get her 3rd vaccination, & her microchip

& GUESS WHAT!!
just now when i was looking in snowie's fur,
I FOUND FLEAS!!!

FUCK!!!
FLEAS FLEAS FLEAS
DAMN DISGUSTING CANNN!!!

PLUCKED THEM OUT WITH TISSUE PAPERS.
GONNA GET SNOWIE CLEANED TML!
BY THE VET.HAHAHAHA!

DAMN!! FLEAS!!YUCK YUCK YUCK!

its so disgusting
im having goose-pimples.
damnnn, feel as thou those fleas are on me=.=
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

okays, gdnights pple!
waited for darling o finish her work, to SHARE HER PAIN
be honoured darling
loves!

still updating

2007-10-23T02:54:00.000+08:00

17oct'07
darling came to find me! :)

no lahh, she came Far east to meet her friends do project,
then SHUN BIAN come find me.ahhaha!

tried dresses, she likes the blue one i like the black one. angel & devil again.haha
after her project, she came to find me AGAIN.
BURDEN AHH.hahah!
boyfriend came to find me too, another burden.LOL!

dine-d at my favourite chicken rice stall, haha
then we cabbed to Peninular Plaza, boyfriend wanan see pen=,=
what can darling & i do?
follow, & CAMWHORE.HAHAHHA

she's my everything man, go anywhere also got entertainment.haha

loves her to bits lahh!

but then she went t find that stupid jia wei after that=.=
somemore still take free cab, hahahah!!

boyfriend & i gave her a lift to amk hub, then we headed to a pet shop.
got SNowie a dental snacks for her teeth:)
no wonder her teeth so sharp now=.=

then went home to play with snowie! that day i was damn tired man!
but awhile later, drove dad's car to Pines club find his mom & brothers.
din-ed there:)

then home sweet home.

updating

2007-10-23T01:26:00.000+08:00

OKAY PPLE! SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE(:

okay cut the crap.
14oct'07
went to celebrate kelly's birthday with vina (:
had the celebration at KBOX, couldnt get her a cake
cause it was too last minute, & we forgotten until we went to the toilet.hahah!
lied to kelly that i had to buy pads.LOL!
in the end went to buy cupcakes & a cookie

SEE!! the prettaye birthday girl making her 3 wishes!:D

thou the day was short with them, but it was fruitful & enjoyable!
These two girls may have spend only 1/3 of their time wth me,
but their love & presence are honourable.
They're like beautiful angels sent by Heaven, & a gift to me.
True friends are once in a life time, & we actually have our path crossed.(:

took neoprints again, that's what we do whenever we meet up.
thou we're distance apart, but they're circling my mind every now & then.
i love you girls (: , my two goodfriends .

after that, i don't know where i go already>LOL. i forgotten.

15oct'07
worked from 1130 til 6pm
too lazy to go for school, haha
initially supposed to go play pool with ayl& jw, but was lazy too.LOL
& gues what!
i sold one pair of earrings to a customer at $16.90, but it was suppose to be 36.90 for ONE ONLY.
NOT A PAIR=.=
fuck, i had to top up the money myself.
didn't have enough cash with me, so asked boyfriend to come down pass me money.
hahaha, eventually, he asked yianwei. & that poor guy had to come all the way to far east & pass me the money.ahhaa
boyfriend came later, waited for me end work.
went to get Snowie's stuffs, more of treats for her.
SHE'S GETTING NAUGHTIER=.=

16oct'07
today's the best day man!
went back to NYP to meet my cliques!
initially im supposed to meet andee at 845, atrium
i waited till 9 plus, he was still no where to be seen, his phone was uncontactable=.=
so i went to find the rest of them outside tutorial room.
Lunch-ed at Koufu, then andee came=.=
HE OVERSLEPT=.= =.= =.=

haha. thought of meeting benjee after the lunch,
but didn't have enough time with o7o4, so went with them to lecture hall.
CAMWHORE

snacks! as usual.hahaa

MY CAMWHORE BUDDY!! :)

MY PHOTOGRAPHER.HAHAH

THE LAMEST GIRL EVER,
awarded the self entertaining award in 2007 (:
she's my camwhore buddy too!
super enterttaining!

but sometimes highly dangerous when she craps.HAHAHA

MY NYP CLIQUES

love them! :)

then met darling at tpy, bus-ed to far east.
went for Job hunting with darling, till my leg turned jelly
finally, darling got a job! & the shop is very very very near mine :)

met up with jz, walked to paragon
jw came, then met lewis,edmund & ayl at cine.
kbox there :)

okays. let the pictures do the talking then
i'm tired =x

1,2,3,4,5,6,7.......

HAHAHA! like couple photo hor. but sorry, this guy is a faggot=.=
this one no better too.HAHAHA. joking. they're great brothers man!!! In memory of Ong Jing Zhi, HAHAHHA1

he asked me to take one.
my camwhore buddy in my wonderful family!

act dead, hahah! super funny.

didn't sing much, darling,edmund & jw sang the most.hahah,esp darling.

whereas the rest played Bluff,dice.

hahaha, or camwhore.lol

see what i mean?emooo shot.haha

& emo-ness really struck me.

got a emergency call from mom, & i had to rush home.

but no cab! walked all the way to lucky plaza, in the end called a cab.

yepp, that's all.

my love for music

2007-10-19T00:25:00.000+08:00

kay, today's quite "happening"
when i was waiting for bus, i saw a crowd at the bus stop.
being a "KPO" :), i went to take a look
and saw this old man in his mid 60s sitting down.
He was badly injured, there's wounds & cuts on his face, legs & his nose was bleeding profusely.
There's more than 3 packets of tissues.
when bus 88 arrived, other went up, except for one guy around my age & i stayed there.
The uncle couldn't understand my speaking,
he just don't seem to reply me.=.=
luckily that guy was there, he spoke to the old man in Hokkien & chinese.

That teenager was really kind hearted,
he bought tissues, missed his bus & even offered to give the old man money to take cab home.
He told me the uncle fell down while cycling, it was raining heavily then.
He must have fallen quite badly, cause his shirt was stained with blood too
& this conversation really break my heart

The teenager guy :The old man(in chinese)
" uncle, you want i give you money take cab home"
" nobdy's at home, & i sit awhile can walk back myself"
"you got your children's contact number? i help you call them"
" i don't know their contact numbers"

You should have seen the scene, it was like a drama.
I thought this kinda things only happen on tv or so,
today i finally witnessed it.
There's more pple who are less fortunate than i am now,
to be filial to your own parents, & pay them more attention.
after that, another bus 88 came.
i had to leave cause darling was waiting for me at AMK MRT quite long le,
so i left the old man with a heavy heart,
i jut couldnt bear to leave him behind bleeding.
the teenager guy aboarded the bus too,

& i asked him how.
He said he'll call the ambulance,
so i alighted the bus, feeling more relieved.
at least there's help approaching the old man.

yepp, met darling at amk mrt.
already had the feeling that we wont be going airport.haha
cause darling left school around 5 plus, & jw just ended work=.=
so we trained to tpy mrt find jw & ayl.
it was already 7 plus, & jw haven reach yet.
so in the end, we stayed at tpy.
they dined at underground foodcourt, before going to Enter mac.
guess for the first time, i'm the only one that really studied & did my work=)

*APPLAUSE* *APPLAUSE* *APPLAUSE*

i'm o proud of myself=)
maybe its because i've learn my lesson ever since Os, & poly.
i can't let this chance which is my future & my dream to slip away again
*JIA YOU JIAYING! =) *

look at what others doing,
aylmer chen, studied awhile
smsed, psp

shamine wee,
studied A WHILE, can say less than 10 mins.LOL
then played aylmer's psp with jw
then chit chatted

HOHO
the hardworking one.hahahah!!

as for teng jun wen, you should know what's he doing.taking all these photos, showing us photos=.= & disturbing us.
ya, so he's the culprit.LOL

around 930, darling went home, & we went crc for pool.
didn't have the mood to really play, got thrashed by the guys lahh=.=
BADLY =.=

right, then near to 1030, i went on seperate ways with the guys.
wanted to take bus, but was damn tired, so i decided to wait for cab.
then suddenly, aylmer chen appeared behind me.LOL!

this silly gdfriend of mine, was worried for me,so he ask jw to go back first, & he came to accompany me :)
anyways,it has been quite a long time since we both sat down & talk about our problems
these few days, both were so busy, & kinda had a tiff with each other the other day.
but of course, it didn't last for long, we're still as good as new =)

bestie accompanied me all the way home.
, i waited bus with him before walking home.
& we had a really nice heart to heart talk.

to this gdfriend of mine,
sorry for always showing you attitude & scolding you for no reasons.
you know i have a bad temper, & tends to be very demanding at times.
you know i can be loud & crazy then oh-so moody the next moment.
you know i get fustrated easily, & sentimental at times.
but you never once turn your back on me & just walk away.
instead, you apologise to me & chose to stay by my side
infact, i can say you're one of the few that can tolerate my nonsense & attitude.

yes,school has started.
it means lesser time to spend together,
& love on the other side.
i've to keep a distance from you.
But nevertheless, you're still my very gdfriend.
Of course i will never let go of this friendship,
too much for me to let go, & you're a really rare gem.
Though sometimes you really piss the shit out of me,
make me like a cry baby.
but you're stil that fucker that i want to walk with.

Your heart is always aligned with mine,
because you're more than a brother to me.
Words can't express who you are to me, feelings can't express how much you mean to me.
thank you my greatfriend:)

ps: pple, please don't misunderstand. we're just plainly pure goodfriends:) no other meaning

i wanna thank so many pple. For staying by me all these while, holding me up when i fall, teaching me what's right & wrong, & refraining me from making the same mistakes.
To dry my tears & cast a smile on my face.
They're what i call, SUNSHINE :)

thank you mom for helping me take care of snowie when i'm not home,
for the home cooked dinner, & doing the house chores, making home a sweeter home:)

thank you daddy for trying to understand my life & giving me those freedom at most of the girls will never have( staying over etc)

thank you friends for hanging out with me, cheering me up, & make me stronger person

thank you boyfriend for showering me with love & adores.

thank you snowie for giving me a chance to understand what's the feeling of having a kid.
THose shit & urine made me a mother:)
& times i have to spend on you, make me a more responsible person.

i love everyone of you, truly appreciate the time & love you guys have given me:)

jiaying's happy now :)
Happy girl in a happy world!

to them, i'm doing very well now.
i hope you guys are too:)
times & times, i think of you guys.
in fact you guys have been circling my mind endlessly.

wondering what's happening at your side,
because over my side, its doing great.
just hope you guys are here to see how i'm doing.

november is drawing near, will you guys be here to celebrate my birthday this time?

guess, the thought of you guys makes my eyes wet a lil, & my heart feel quite bitter.
we've drifted more than a hundred miles,
i wonder if our heart did too, are you guys still thinking of me?
because i am.

i really miss you guys ):

DJ SAMMY- HEAVEN

Oh, thinkin' about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothin' can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

i really wanna go airport now ):

randooommm

2007-10-18T14:33:00.000+08:00

alrights, been working these few days.
but its not full day lahhh :)

work at Atiris isn't much of a headache like my past two jobs.
like at 77th street, i've to stand from 10 to 11pm.,
& Pool fusion from 8pm to 3 am or sometimes even to 6 am =.=
yepp, so i kind of like my current job now.
& there's more things about Fashion i can learn :)
so it's such a great opportunity!

yeah, other than working,
been contacting out with kelly& vina, My wonderful family,nyp friends,chenxw, boyfriend,parents & of course snowie :)
but didn't get to meet perry,espall & jodie lately.
sort of lost contact with them
hope they're doing well now:)

will post about the outings another day.
been slacking at home today,
going out now isn't much of fun too anyways,
no places to go, & no $$$$$$$$$$
i can declare bankrupt already :(

life's been great to me.
i mean there's things to keep me occupied,
refrain my mind from brooding over stupid things.
& snowie's such a pain in the neck,
getting more naughty & definitely more AGGRESSIVE.
yes,I KNOW SHE'S LIKE ME=.=
she's gaining weight, & i'm losing weight.
her shit is totally HEAVEN man

yeahhh,other than that, God's treating me well.
with my wonderful parents,friends & dog circling around me.

msn-ing with j'me now.
she's also slacking at home, can say she's my msn buddy lor
cause like what she CLAIMED, she's ENTERTAINING ME ONLY.
LOL!

going airport later with darling.
dragged her to go with me, haha
had this sudden urge to go there,
to see the plane landing & departing.
It just bring memories back to me, beautiful ones of course :)
& the beach of course, to lie on the sands, dip my leg into the sands,
the smell of the salty air, the sound of the waves, & the beautiful bright shining stars.

ayeee, time realy flies.
in a glance, its going to novemember already.
Last year,during this period of time,
everyone's mugging hard for Os,
& me mugging a lil' & playing hard :)
hahahha.
its gonna be my birthday soon.

damn, seventeen
I'm so old lahhhh =.=
got my birthday lists ready.HAHAHAHHA!
joking lahh.
just hope to celebrate with my endeared ones,
that's what i'm anticipating the most, as well as hoping for

kays. gonna bathe miss snowie soon.
she smells like a stink bomb, after lying on her own urine =.=
as dumb as her owner, hahahah

a dose of happiness

2007-10-14T02:24:00.000+08:00

AHHHH CHOOO!!
damn!!! spider webs, & dusts!

SPRING CLEANINGGGG TIME!!!!!

FRIDAYYYYY 12sept07
had a gathering with my wonderful family, before poly starts school.
but once again, not everyone turned up.
Lewislee,Perryyeo couldn't make it ):

anws, overslept, rushed down to CRC met Ed,sw,jz & ayl.
played few rounds of pool
then to Mac, met Jodie.
For whatever reasons, we slacked there for like half an hour=.=
Psp, & camwhored.haha

then Met Espall at Red circle, Jo left with her to CJC.
so the rest of us headed to town.
Lunched at Sakae Sushi, buffett

haha! ate ALOT
when i say alot, is really, HELLL
if you just happened to be sitting beside us, you'll think its hungry ghost festival =.=
We had so much fun & laughters during the lunch time,
especially Edmund Ho.. our full time entertainer,
but his jokes is free of charge =)

OKAYYY!!!

this is the DAMN BORING part
we had absolutely NO WHERE to goo, that we've to slacked at CINE.
you see,
NO MOVIE,
NO GAMES,
NO MONEY TO SHOP,
most importantly,
NO MOOODDD!

yes, we're like ghost loitering around.

actually we've planned so much luhh,
steamboat,sentosa,mind cafe,fly kite, BLAHBLAHBLAH
but leh, so many things got cocked up,
& we ended up sucking thumbs at one corner =.=

so yeah, sat out arcade, waited for jw,espall & jo to come.
& finally, we camwhored =)

we as in , darling & I :)

then finally we made up our mind, to watch Resident Evil
bought tickets at 730pm, around 7 espall & jo came.
Played arcade.

The fun began!!
"the 3 Puck thingy"
sw & ayl Vs Jz & i

WE WON!!! :D

then its SW & I Vs Jz & Ayl
GIRLS VS BOYS
GIRLS WON LAHH! OF COURSE!!!
"girls rule, boys drool!!"
hahahah!! soo "convent girls ahhh" HAHAHHA!!

then we played Foosball.
Jz & I Vs Ayl & sw
WE WON AGAIN :D
damnnn. i must be a really good game player.haha

MOVIE TIME!!

Resident Evil Is DOPE man!

simply rocks JIAYING's socks!

no lahh, it rocks everyone's socks. so the whole theatre was like socks rocking.hahahah!!

okays, lame=.=

after movie, espall & jo went home.
the rest all dined at Wisma Food Republic=) yummy!

then the guys went to shop at Fila.
"one shirt for $10" =.=
sibei uncle pattern.hahhaha!!

hahahah!! no lahh.
they're HDB GONG GONG:D

hmmm this is what girls do when guys are shopping=.=

Later, Ed & i sent Darling to mrt station.
then we all walked to Party world, The one,Kbox.
but the charges were too expensive!
especially Kbox,

71 bucks for one person?!??!?!

who are you kidding man!!=.=
then we walked to Ps, wanted to take a bus to clark quay,
but in the walked to Paradiz centre to try our luck at Kbox.
but the Kbox there closed down=.= WAH LAOOO!

so we crossed opposite, to ALPS CAFE.
all took non-alcoholic drinks.haha!
ayl & i shared a Cabonara, while the rest had cheese fries.
The food & drinks there are YUMMY!!! SE DAB sia.HAHA!

after that supper, we walked all the way to Clark Quay.
Went ChinaOne find Benjee awhile,
then walked around Clark Quay, explored.haha!

finally we stopped at a bridge, drank some alcoholic stuffs, played finger guessing,chit chatted, & watched some youth cyclists doing stunts. :) the night was awesome-licious aye!

see how red our faces were=.=
i got laughed at by a Ang Mo Faggot

then we went to mac, slacked awhile, then decided to go home.
all had work the next day!

& nice jz & ayl sent me home first=)
heh heh, brotherhood whattt

HOMESWEETHOME<3

#266 forbidden love

2007-10-06T03:17:00.000+08:00

when the time struck 12,

its when i finally opened my eyes.

realising i'm all along in a dream, myself.

& when i count to five,

i'm just waiting,

in my very own fantasy.

still, I'm still waiting,

... quietly.

it hurts to know, when we're so near,yet so far.

so much i want to hold onto you,

so much i want to be with you.

but times & times, you've taken away my trust.

Forbidding me to love you, prohibiting me to trust you.

Me not being able to love you,

A Forbidden love.

furball little snowy!

2007-10-06T02:39:00.000+08:00

4th oct'07

first day of work:)

at Artiris

my lady boss is really nice & patient lahh.
she taught me how to dress & serve a customer,
really totally different from 77th street.
This time there's more to learn,
more responsibilies to take.
cause sometimes i have to tend the shop myself;)
yepp, but at least, it kills my time!
& also, the designers are willingly to tell me more about Fashion designs & marketing.
how cool huh?
hope i'll like this job :)
cause i'm already beginning to!

ayl came to find me after work, dined at my favourite Chicken Rice stall.

then had Mango dessert again! :D

bused 143 back to tpy, played snooker & pool at Snooker Zone.

memories flashed into my mind as we settled down at Enter's Bus stop,

at that time, it was only pancakes, a bottle of greentea, the busy road, but quiet night

& my good friend :)

for no reason, he sent me home.haha!

but we had a really great long chat in the bus, worth it! :)

from stranger,to classmate,friend,gdfriend,brother,love,enemy, to now, my bestie :)
someone who's walking along with me without any complaints, thank you.

my diary' =)

5th oct' 07

waken up by celest's call.haha

sort of had a tiff with my parents & him,

so i left the house in rage & cabbed to her house.

Poor him, had to drive all the way home & skipped his camp things.

lol! sorry =)

did blogskin for celest, & sort of slacked there.haha

till around 5 plus, boyfriend came to pick me up.

met up with parents, things went on fine=)

Dined at Thomson Prata house,ahaa

"i'm really a prata fanatic lahh=.="

i wanna marry a Ahhh Nehhh.LOL

this is only my share, haha!

& guess what!

ITS THE HAPPIEST DAY of my day! :D

really, its so unbelievable!

I"ve BOUGHT THE MALTESE!!!!!!

parents didn't object, they even fall inlove with her!

she's 3 months old :)

was considering over the name "Sunshine" & "Snowy"

but chose snowy in the end, cause she's so white, & such a fur ball :D

yepp! my new puppy!

but poor her, had to fence her up, case she's stil young ):

fed her at home, then brought her over to Boyfriend's house.

Shaun & Bjorn played with her, while i helped celest with her blogskin.

then later, boyfriend sent me home=)

till now, SNOWY'S NOT ASLEEP YET!

guess she's uncomfortable with a unfamiliar place ):

poor girl, but no worrie

i gonna make her feel home! :D

this is SNOWY!! :D
more pics of her will be up !

she's quiet & obedient :)

adios pple! i'm tired!

days has been great (:

2007-10-06T01:07:00.000+08:00

hey fellow readers:)
sorry for the late updating & those emo posts.
haha. was rather lazy to blog lahh, plus being home so late
rights, been seeing miss cheny lately, & almost everyday.haha
after that night at prata house (30th sept)
& again
1st oct '07
cabbed to her house in the morning,
passed her a spare hp, a panadol & a goodie bag=)
& she gave me one too!

its a simple yet beautiful gift<3

then slacked at aylmer's house before going to Far east.
walked around, job interview, bought ct's present
& then met up with sw & jz.
around 6 plus, left for school.
after school, my nice ahhh family came all the way to take bus home with me.
sweet right:)
went to ct's house, gave her present,& borrowed blades from her.haha
bladed at jz's house downstairs with jz & ayl.
cabbed home=)

2nd oct'07

had piano lesson at Ps till 315
had a wonderful day with cheny & jz, i spent the whole day with them!
lunched at PS food junction, BUDGET LAHH\

the lunch was awesome man! i had ice kachang & chicken rice at the same time=.=

thanks to cheny.haha!
that's not the end of our lunch kay
we went down to but British Take Away, crispy chicken. hahaha.

then we walked to Cathay, to catch "UnderDog"

camwhored all the way before the movie started,
but xw didn't send me all the photos luhh=.=
haha! & also eat at the same time.

& underdog is a good show man! Dog version of Spiderman.ahahah!
after movie, went to by Shih Lin's crispy chicken.loL!
have you realise? it's like a CHICKEN day for xw & I.LOL!

& waited for Weiming' & daxson( xw's friends) to come pick us.

desserts at CHOMP CHOMP+)

& camwhored in the car.haha!

after that, they sent us to tpy.

met up with JO & Espall awhile before xw left.

Walked to Roof garden with jz find tk,renee & edwin.

slacked there till ayl rode his bike over.

stayed with him downstairs, while jz & his friends stayed at roof garden.

awhile later, Jw & amelia came.

but they cycled to Hougang after that,

jz & i had supper at Central's Mac. haha

mac chickeeennnn. chicken again=.=

walked to Kor's house downstairs, chatted then cabbed home:)

didn't blade in the end.haha

Tuesday was great, with cheny.finally a whole awesome day with her :)

loves

3rd Oct'07

suppose to go east coast with my brothers,

but was damn tired, woke up late,& didn't really want to go.haha

slacked at home while before boyfriend came to pick me up.

went to SPCA, see some dogs:)

Ate at Sakae Sushi, & i ate alot alot! lol!

then i bought 3 hello kitty helium balloons! :D

i want a really big one!

then we went to Thomson there, look for puppies again

haha, 2 years back, we were crazy over dogs.

& we actually cabbed everywhere to SPCA, Dog farm & everything.

hahaha, can't believe we're doing this again.

anyway, stopped by Fur Kids.

& i really like one mini maltese! she's so cute luh!

left the shop reluctantly ):

boyfriend drove me Home to take charger,

& then to Queensway to meet cheny again.haha

pass her another hp before leaving there.

then he dropped me at Tpy, met up with Ahh Family :D

camwhored & slacked at usual place, Roof Garden.

my days ended with these few pple.

yes, just these few, able to count with my fingers.

but their importance & love can never be measured:D

#263 sunshine

2007-10-02T01:58:00.000+08:00

For the first time, i'm feeling so lousy.
never felt so lonely before.
just like a withering sunflower,
shine me some sunshine please.

you were the first who appreciate my drawings, the first whom shone upon me when i'm in my darkness moment.
that beam of light , is gone now.
died within me(:

you're my sunshine,
my only sunshine.
you make me happy.
when skies are grey.
you'll never know dear,
how much i love you.
please don't take my sunshine away.

~~jiaying hate emo-ness~~

Darling's birthday

2007-09-30T17:35:00.000+08:00

darling's birthday! 29sept'07

okays, his is the stupid damn day i spent so much on cab.lol
accompanied espall mei to Lucky plaza do some stuff,
then cabbed to Jodie's house.
we started baking Darling's cake(:
& i cooked maggie mee for espall.HAHAHA
its nice can!

when girls turn cheeky (:

then jz came to find me, then cabbed to ayl's house.
we all rushed to finish her presents.LOL!

then i cabbed alone to Roof Garden find dar.
she thought i was so upset, & no one's coming.haha!
we bluffed her that espall,jo& ayl had work.
then we stayed under the scorching sun for like 45 mins to an hour=.=
we're like roasted sweaty pig,

after jz & ayl came,
we walked to the lift.
& this is when our birthday cried.
espall & jo suddenly popped out from the staircase.

& this is the cake!~
but not we bake,
its jodie's mom baked one.
our cake was a total failure.LOL

Roof Garden time(: Jo & me(:

Espall & I :)

Darling & i (:

351 <3

L.O.V.E

a really candid shot, for me.HAHHA

then we accompanied darling to her house there,

we waited downstairs while she went up to put her presents & get dressed up.

& i came up with a prank :P

we all got powder in our hand, & stood waiting for her at the lift there/

when she came out,ATTACK! (:

poor darling ): Pastamania (:
espall & jodie went home,

& the rest of us train-ed to town , met up with jw

played pool at Cuppage Plaza, darling cabbed home after that.

we walked all the way to Cathay, wanted to catch mid ngiht movie.

but it was a WEDNESDAY=.=

so we all bud-ed home =.=

alrights, this is not the end. PLAY TIME/

When Girls Turn Bad =/

espall was crazy that day.
despite her damn hoarsy throat,
she still sang,screamed & played like a mad cow=.=

& now, she' sound so MAN.hahah!

):

2007-09-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

what's happening?
):

~~a crying clown inside,~~
i miss you.
this isn't what my life suppose to be, is it?
come back...

i miss you

2007-09-29T04:08:00.000+08:00

it has been days since i last met you,
i miss you
but i'm still strong(:

happy happy!

2007-09-29T02:58:00.000+08:00

28thsept'07
town-ed with venie today at far east(:
we walked around, trying to find some shops to shop
but nothing seems to attract us lahh=.=
singapore's too small * & boring.
then we came by one dessert shop,
sat down & i had mango sago(;
while she had sweet potato soup.hehheh

my mangoooo (:
then we walked to heeren, walked around
still nothing seems to interest us
we just walked aimlessly, window shopped.haha
stopped at Robinsons' taxi stand
the queue was darn long lahh=.=
waited for like half an hour? i suppose
cabbed down to Pool fusion find felicia(;
after she knocked off, accompanied her to Jeanyip to get her hair washed
she complained that her hair was not bob enough=.=
ahahhaha
& venie's crazy...

then here's the hectic part.
we wanted to eat steamboat at first, so we walked all the way to Raffles Education there.
but it was soo full
so we said Fish & co, then pizza hut, seoul garden, sakae sushi, Swensons,fish & co, Tcc,
finally, we got settled down at Aji-Tei.=.= we were all dead tired & HUNGRY. & i ordered quite o food.hahah

& the deserts are awesome man!

my mango dessert! haha

after dinner, we walked to pool fusion outside to wait for cab
but again, NO CAB=.=
got so fustrated that we called a cab.

damn, cine were so crowded with teens lahh.
bought our tickets, The dead girl. M18 ahaha!
they didn't check IC :P
saw jeremy,tony & gang.& guess what,
they watched the sme movie too, & sat right beside me.
LOL!such a coincidence

& the movie is so fucked up=.=
no link at allllllll...
we all thought it was a horror one luh=.=
but turned out to be some kinda murder, but stupid show
waste money, but i didn't fall asleep
SURPRISINGLY.

after movie, cabbed to tpy snooker zone's kopitiam.
met aylmer,jw & jz.
hahah! they came down to specially accompany me eat
more like see me eat.LOL! HAHAHAH!
i felt so bad, but thank guys! (:cabbed homesweethome

& GUESS WHAT!
its my kor birthday!! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING ZHI!
my brother bear!
a short post for you aye!
since sec 1, till now. the day i started bullying you :D heh heh heh

I love you brother! you're a great & awesom fat ass!
but now that you've slimmed down so much!
it doesnt mean i love you lesser alright! hahah
& you who feeds my mouth with vulgarities,
ALWAYS
but neither will i hate you,
i will just fuck you upside down(:
thanks kor for doing whatever you've done for me.
you're so much appreciated
& hope you like the birthday song i sang for you, while in the midst of my movie!
& somemore it was such a hardcore part luhh=.=
the girl was stripping.LOL!!
HAHAHA!
okay okay, not gonna corrupt my blog
seventeen boy! MAN AHH!

& happy birthday to william goh too!
you no longer braces boy., study hard lahh faggot!
ciaos! i gotta wake up at 10.=.=
NIGHTS!
darren's a great entertainer.hahah!

fucked up

2007-09-27T15:09:00.000+08:00

dad's scolding
plus the stupid naggings from mom,
& the deafening drillings of the stupid damn renovations that's going on persistently,
& lastly, the fucking pain due to my period.
ITS DRIVING ME NUTTTTTTS
these fucking shit are drain to my patience now!

i have so many things to do today, & it has to be today
but right now, my energy is totally drained out,
i seriously hate this fucking period of the month,
totally spoil my mood &day=.=
hate being a girl because of this damn reasonnnnn
pain,blood,faint=.=

Things that have to be done today.
first 3 things are why dad & mom's annoying me EVERYDAY.

register my intermediate course
check about the job i want
change my piano class
make jz's birthday present =.=
buy his damn present=.=

Jz, fck your birthday seriously.LOL
i know you're going to fuck me back, but i don't care.
still , __ (:

AHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
im going nuts seriously!!
who wanna go eat prata with me? LOL

birthday girl

2007-09-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DARLING (:

Girl,i hope you love the birthday song i sang for you(:
& i hope i'm the first one.hehheh
a post specially for you, again

this is the 4th year i'm celebrating with you your birthday=.=
damn. i have to tolerate you so many years,
but its ok lahh, used to it(:
heh heh

im gonna see you tmr! (:
yes, tml
think have to camwhore again=.=
fuck, so many photos with you.
my com gonna explode, hahaha
i love darling!
this friendship is more than meeting an eye!

& you're a year old! but only a cm taller =x
heh heheheheh :D
you gonna be my princess later

& to my good friend in disguise, you know who you are(:
thanks for listening to me, & sharing with me your problems
We have to be strong aye~(:

& to daphne mei, you must eat! don't starve yourself kay!
study hard, & sorry for not being able to be there for you now);
i love you precious, please take good care of yourself. please!

New test

2007-09-25T20:42:00.000+08:00

i've created a new test.
cause som said its too easy, like alvin goh
who scored 100 for the first test =.=

Create your own Friend Test here

loved

2007-09-25T19:15:00.000+08:00

23rd sept'07
far east shopping with my brother ervina.
i just love spending the day with her,
& pouring my troubles to her.
its kinda funny how we just clicked.
we walked around far east, trying to look for job
but i ended up doing all the shopping :)
spent till my damn atm has been DECLINED=.=

yes my clothes.

after that, walked her near to mrt before he came to pick me:)

went to Ps to pick his gramps & bro.

then to Novena Sqaure meet his Mom,& sis.

Dine-d at Pines, then to PS with shaun & him to get N95 for Shaun.

Such a lucky boy, when im sec 2, what kinda phone am i using=.=

24sept'07

woke up early, Dad drove me to Enter mac to have breakfast with ayl.

So early can, And i was like a walking zombie=.=

but its great, long time since i last tasted the hotcakes(:

shopped at POPULAR =.=

& also bought somethings.

spent the whole afternoon doing presents=)

heh heh, i know jz & sw's faces are smiling.

then meet up with sw at Bishan.

Bused 410 to Thomson there, dined at Espall's working place.

Korean Food.

sw & ayl complaint that the food sucks,haha

to me its alrights, i was hungry=)

The appetisers. i helped myself with them, since the other 2 didn't really like.haha
& guess what, that hungry bitch kept asking us feed her secretly.
& we're like stuffing the food into her mouth,
if others see, they must be thinking this restuarant are starving their own staffs.LOL

after settling the bill, we quickly went to Prata House.
"proper food at last" ayl & sw said.LOL
I ordered a fried chicken,white rice & ice milo
Sw ordered a ice cream prata.
& ayl orderded a hot milk tea.

YUMYUM

darling stoled my chicken, i have only plain rice.haha.jk!
ice cream prata!:D
& she's a bad photographer=.= always

after that, i ordered another plain prata with sugar & a ice milo.hahaha!

im a hungry ghost.

billed & I SAW ANDEEE!!! :D
bused back to bishan.

CAMWHORE! in the bus=D

at first we're perfectly alright(:
then Insanity strucked us!
especially me

GHOST IN THE BUS?!!?!!!

i didn't take off my shoes kay.haha

PEEK A BOO!!

Bishan interchange

we still haven recover yet!

THE BUS INTERCHANGE IS MINE(:

fuck you, don't pissed me off
i can feed you with my shit=x
bused 59 to tpy(:

after this photo, darling & ayl went emo-ing=.=

i entertained myself,

but not gonna upload those photos.LOL!

cause its all my legs & shoe.haha!

But i love this shot!
the colour!damnnn

alighted with ayl, but he went home,& i went to find jz(:
talked to him at our little roof top garden, we self declared that.haha
& realised, it has been quite long since i last chat with him privately.

but still like the past, sharing with him problems is never a burden.
we chatted till 11 plus before i cabbed home(:

homesweethome<3

STUPID

2007-09-25T18:45:00.000+08:00

Maybe its my temper & mood,
that's pissing me persistently.

but one thing for sure,
please don't take me & my actions for granted.
I'm doing everything i can,
to compromise in every little way as much as i can.
But there's always a limit to something.
& i can say, this isn't the first time.

I've been tolerating it,
& its kinda boiling within me.
yes, after a while, i will be fine,
that's my weak point.
But now that im pissed, i will just say it out.
I'm not a person to be taken advantaged of,
neither am i here to please any one of you.
Give me a life please, & give yourself too=.=

another thing. i just can't understand.
If this bond is so strong, why issit that we'll still feel awkward?
so afraid of hurting one another with each of our actions.
isn't it suppose to be freedom?
our own choice & decision?
or isit just stupidity.
why are we doing things for others' sake?
why is it that our actions & behaviours are under their control,
& not ours, not MINE
Why are we doing for you pple's happiness,
afraid of hurting you pple
& ended up inflicting pain to ourselves.
because of the stupid act we have to put infront of you pple
This is so doltish, sucha dimwit.
I'm like a fucking puppet, being controlled stupidly.
or like a bird afflicted with cretinism, being locked up in a cage.
NO FREEDOM AT ALL.
so senseless as to be laughable,
like a fucking clown.
Maybe you should just give me a cone hat, with the word "DUNCE" on it,
& me with a damn donkey face, doing some Loony actions.
do i look like im from Loony Toons? or do i look like damn monkey performing on the stage,
sticking my damn ass to you?
or i should just call myself A BLOCKHEAD IMBECILE.

midnight bliss

2007-09-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

22sept'07

stayed at home today with parents today(:

then Dad sent mom & I to Yanni's house,

before leaving to Jurong.

Gramps were there, xazevelle & the maid were there too.

\First time i play with my this cute lil' niece (:

Then, Yanni,anni.Shenny,&jenny (my cousins)

xavier,lucas & lavelle came back.

NOISYplayground time(:

that two monkeys grew so tall luhh=.=

But still as cheeky * playful

snatching for the pathetic toy=.= & lavelle.

please don't be decieved by her quiet appearance.

she's fierce man,

she can actually stopped my two nephews from fighting.

& her actions are justso hiliarious.

clown

around 930pm, shenny & terence sent Mom & i home.

was hungry, so asked Mom to go nearby for supper.

hahha, Haji Prata House

tried Nasi brayani( don't know how to spell),mom ate prata

didn't like the taste of the ginger rice=.=

but the deep fried chicken is AWESOME-LICIOUS(:

yummy, real crispy ayye(:

Mom drank ice milk tea,while i had ice milo/

& i had another plain prata with sugar(:

Midnight bliss

gonna turn in soon.
morning blading & exercise with dad.
a promise ):
ciaos people! :D

my soldier (:

2007-09-22T17:03:00.000+08:00

time & times, he's circling my mind
especially whenever i come upon that song.
& last night when im in my deepest shiat, i even have the urge of smsing you.
In the past, you're always the one there,
to put a smile on my face.
Be it some stupid jokes you cracked, or just by listening to me

Suddenly, it started to question me.
Why did we end up being like strangers?
we were so close before,
isst due to the factor cause you liked me.
I wish , you didn't treat me good, because i'm the girl in your eyes at that time.
rather, i wish you treated me well, is because you really wish to be here for me.

Maybe i was wrong all the while,
you're just here for that few months, & a second later,
you're gone now.
Yes, we've our paths crossed in that junction,
but now, we're walking towards different direction.

Things you've done for me, like entering a stupid course for me.
& stealing those decorations from a x'mas tree,
The choc',bubble tea, & mineral water.
& actions you've taught me to be strong.
Those words you said to me,
encouraged me whenever i'm down.
& honestly, i feel as thou you didn't leave me at all.
Times when i was crying out my heart,
i hear your voice, your words of consolation.
Your warmth presence that simply lightened my burden.
Those emails are still kept saved, & those testimonials
& you in my heart.
I've so much to thank you, too much to express my appreciation & gratitude.
You're a great friend, one whom i respect & look up to.
Mr Tom, You're missed(:

yours truly,
jerry

KTV (:

2007-09-21T23:28:00.001+08:00

19sept'07
a pleasant began with my dearest friends(:
aylmer,jingzhi,junwen,jodie & of course darling
bus-ed to Katong KTV again..

sang & fooled around for 4 hours.camwhored too
& guess what,
darling & i "lips tp lips"
=.= damnnn.
she got me so horny

spending time with them just brighten up my days.
love the feeling, when i can just dumb everything aside,
& just devote my time all on them.
i love you guys(;
just wish the other 4 were here too,
edmund,lewis,perry.espall.

you dont know how much all these mean to me

know me best?

2007-09-21T03:38:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

-
Tossed around my bed right & left
yawned for umpteen times,
but still can't catch my beauty sleep=.=
i'm mentally tired, but my eyes just can't shut.
so created a test.
take my test if you dare(:

if only i could hold on to you,
before you leave me alone in the midst of the forest.
but it was too late, just too late.
i was too reckless,
to lose grasp of you ):
Be that as it may, i miss you.

yes you (:

another day (:

2007-09-19T14:00:00.000+08:00

right, i actually forgotten that i've blogged at 8am this morning.lol
cartooned all the way till 11, my eyes began to shut.
& woke up around 1.15?
now, bathed & dolled up

meeting 351,ahh family & jw later! :D
for ktv session.hahaha
i'm so gonna enjoy today(:

suddenly have the urge to go fishing =.=
or maybe prawning?
i miss darren & benjee that two,
don't know why too.hahah
darren bro! please cheer up lahh faggot=.=

Jiaying's happy! (:

you're my sunshine, yes you are!

smile everybody:D

a touch of you(:

2007-09-19T08:28:00.000+08:00

early bird ayee (:
i just can't sleep,
maybe after a blog...

Time everlasting, a million forevers

What can be thought of a sliver of it; an embrace of a second ?

Wind through the reeds; both Here and Gone at once

Surrender. Thrust without reprieve into the beyond.

It doesn't matter how many leave,

i'm still staying, wholeheartly.

Not moving an inch or a mile,

neither in conceptual nor fantasy,

i'm just waiting. (:

I'm a big big girl,

its not a bigbig thing, if you leave me.

But i do feel that i will miss you(:

Foolish

2007-09-19T00:48:00.000+08:00

amk hub & bought a present (:
secret=x

& see my nephew shun!
its my cousin in law talking
what a nice daddy right
i wanna see Shun!

thanks for the chat (:
i'm all better now
you said i'm foolish,
i admit i am too.
but what to do?
I'm still love you

1. If you HAD to get a tattoo, where would you want it?

-somewhere "un-seeable"

2. If you HAD to dye your hair whichcolor would you choose ?

- black (:

3. If you HAD to get a piercing (THAT ISN'T YOUR EARS) what would you get pierced?

- navel

4. If you HAD to change yourname...what new name would you choose?

- sunshine =D

5.If you could go bungee jumping,would you?

- yes, of course!

6. Would you move somewhere else, if you could?

- yes, to her (:

7. If you were given the chance to go to Paris, would you go?

- duhh

8. if you found 10 million dollars,and it was YOURS to spend, what wouldyou do with it?

- get a ticket to aus, buy a flat for mom side's grandma, another half to parents & all my gramps, 2 million to the charity, 1 million in bank savings

The "Let's Say" Questions1. Let's say you see a big shipsink...only 3 people have a chance to survive.

9The 3 people are Your BestFriend, Your Boyfriend/Girlfriend, anda long lost friend (that you don'tknow too well)...who would you save ifyou HAD to choose ONLY 1 person?

- best friend.

10. Let's say you became President...whatis the first thing you would do?

-give money to the poor

11. Lets say you had to eat a livetarantula for $1,000..would you?

- crazy. no lahh

12. Let's say you could star in anymovie (made or in the works) whatmovie?

- ehh... why why love(:

13.favouite Color?

- secret.

14. Favourite Current song?

-you are my sunshine

15. favouriteShirt you own?

-bebe white top

16. favouriteElectronic device?

- hello kitty handphone.

17. favourite Movie?

- rush hour

18. Book?

- chinese cinderella

19.favourite Pair of shoes?

- hmmm. my converse black one?

20. favourite Sandal color?

- brown

21. favourite Hair color?

- black

22. Eye color?

- black

23.What makes your bedroom unique?

- hello kittyyy & my underwears.HAHA

24. Who do you like?

- many to mention(:

25. Do you go to parties?

- birthday parties? haha

26. What's your favorite season of theyear?

-spring!

27. Do you like cheese?

- nahh

28. What's bothering you now?

- nothing (:

2007-09-18T18:53:00.000+08:00

home day again
attacked by my favourite enemy(:
fever & headache
how nice =.=
ciaos!
joan girl, cheer up :)

谁改变了我的世界
没有方向没有日夜
我看着天这一刻在想你
是否会对我一样思念
你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你
的名才发现又另一个黎明
a song specially for you(:

Can you hear the song of sorrow?
It is whispered on the wind
That from the widow’s mouth doth borrow
Her grieving cries of suffering.
The silver moon in her shining filigree
Gazing down and shedding a diamond tear,
Lends to the song a trembling silent melody
That only the dead can hear.

~~you are here~~

IT'S

2007-09-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

Monday(:
bus-ed to town with aylmer & jw.

Far east
Lido to check movie time slot
Cine ( 2.20pm Apartment 1303)

the movie's okayyy only. the starting was quite interesting,
but to the back, it got naggy & kinda over exaggerated with the Ghosts(:
& stupid ayl, & jw's jokes, simply make the show funny, instead of scary =.=

Met up with Espall & jo after movie
Heeren
Taka & Wisma
Bus-ed 105 back to tpy with ayl,espall & jo
dined at Fork & spoon with ayl & sw
& i ate Subway's Egg mayo too(:
Slacked at Mrt's staircase while waiting for jw.
CAMWHORED(: ~

emoo aylmerthis are what friends' are for (:
nahhh. not worth it.LOL
I'm bored
Darling said act emooo =.=
how to, i don't have the hair anymore

the max spilt i could do =.=

jw's looking at girl zhao gen at escalator he's being exposed

walked to Safra
Pool-ed
jz came to join us after work
& guess what, i won the guys, only to aylmer ONE match (:

cabbed home(:
sorry guys for pulling such a long face today,
bad mood(: mood swing ba..haha

my hart's with you, forever (: loves
like what Miss J'me said,
whatever it is, we must be HAPPY girls(:

beautiful escape

2007-09-17T02:18:00.000+08:00

it was a beautiful yet heart-breaking goodbye
there's no more turning back,
just plain memories.
you're a part of me now, & ever.
i knew i loved you before i met you.

thanks to Benjee & alvin

for chatting with me thru'

you guys are always great companions at this kinda time(:

thanks alot

boredom

2007-09-16T17:36:00.000+08:00

im soooo boreddddddd=.=
& hungry
my head's aching,
spinning like a merry-go-round.

a sense of utter desolation following the emptiness of the house,
i miss my parents ):
no home cooked food, (rather, i have to order KFC delivery)
& i miss mom's endless nagginggggggs
worse still, i'm sickkkkk again
without Doctor Mummy, Im at my worst state):

& I'M SO BORED!!!
but i'm lazy to go out.....

suddenly feel like heading to the beach,
despite the fact that the weather is rather bad of course.
but i have the urge to deep my leg into the sand,
or just lying down by the sea side, admiring the sun rays (;
& cravings for fruit punch, & donuts....
\=.= damnnn i must be dreaming...

& guess what, my house's haunted
yes, Haunted
i woke up walked to the kitchen,
heard water sound, checked thru the toilets,
& finally mom's bathroom
& the tap was on! to the max!
but no one's home,except for this sleepy pig(me)

i turned off the tap,
& i heard a man's voice, mumbling
and that really freaked me out.
i ran to my living room, switched on the damn tv
& watched my cartoons.
i shouldn't sweat the details, i thought.
then again, i heard the water sound.
i went back to the toilet,
the water tap's on again........................................

but luckily thanks to Spongebob squarepants & aylmer's sms
i got over the stupid incident rather fast.
but now, its haunting me again.
i locked myself in my room :D
Jiaying's a brave girl ahhhh

come on,
we're always wanting to meet,
but most of the time, its in vain.
' finally' shouldn't be the word.
i do not have the mood too, you know.
but i'm still trying at least.

losing grip

2007-09-16T15:46:00.000+08:00

15sept'07(no photos)
alone in sg, parents went malaysia(:
bought blazer with boyfriend for wedding dinner.
then cabbed to bugis
chatted with venie,fel,judy,stella while waiting for william's arrival.haha

& stella did the most amazing thing.
she helped us read our fortune,thru our palms
& i have to admit, she's accurate,almost in everything.
its damn amazing luhhhh!

slacked at workplace for awhile.
initially, supposed to meet shamine & aylmer
but shamine went home instead.

cabbed to tpy.
short chat with edmund ho
snookerzone with aylmer, but full
played PSP instead
icecream & fries at mac
bumped into alvin,kts,william
walked to enter to watch apartment 1303
no time slot, walked back to snookerzone=.=
snooker with ayl
pool with ayl while waiting for the other 3 to finish snooker
around 12, cabbed home with william,kts & alvin.

16SEPT'07

Suppose to watch Apartment 1303 with kts & alvin.
but those two pigs slept so EARLY, so can't watch the 2 plus time slot=.=
other day.
decided to stay at home, headache

night,maybe to shamine's house with jingzhi& shamine for dinner.

i know you are sick & tired of it,
but do you know i am too?
can you see how much we're giving in?
how much we've compromised?
& what do we get in the end.
these hurtful words & actions.
How much do I have to do ,
inorder to get your appreciation?
Why vent everything on him, them, me & us?
What did we do wrong, where did we go wrong.
Do you know how tired i am?
You asked me to give a second chance, and i did
now what did i get? you backing out.
"just a part of memory" what is this?
what saddens me is not the sorrows, but the lack of appreciation.
\im losing my grasp,
but you've losened my hand.
how much more steps do we have to take forward,
when you're always taking it forgranted & moving back
i'm sorry i have to blog this,
i just can''t take it anymore
don't make me give up on this.

losing grip, total darkness

come with me (:

2007-09-15T00:04:00.000+08:00

11sept'07

had fish steamboat with boyfriend & family at Bugis.
then went to Suntec walk walk.
boyfriend suddenly bought me a Choc
this pathetic piece cost $2.60=.=
the taste sucks, but sweet at heart (:
At his house
emo by the pool side.HAHAHHAHAHAHA
12sept'07
met up with Espall,Jodie,Jz & Aylmer

Funan ITMALL to fix Jo's laptop
Peninsular Shopping centre (Guys did shopping)
Marina Square

Then boyfriend came to pick me up around 7.Its our 3rd anniversary (: suppose to be 4th
He suddenly stopped the car a soccer field, & said want to play a game=.=
i thought he wanted to play soccer =.=,
i was wearng dress
then he asked me to search the car to find my present.
i searched the boot, the engine=.=, & at last under a towel.
Its a Ipod Nano, the newer one..
Thank you(:

then he brought me to Boat Quay, IndoChine.
he purposely reserved a place there, cause he knows i love the view at Raffles Area(:

& also a big bouquet of roses on the table.

after dinner(:

12 (12/09/03) stalks of roses, with "I Love You" printed on every rose.

I love you(:

13sept'07

Boyfriend wanted to fix his car,

so went with him to Driver's Corner.

while waiting for his car, we ate seafood Steamboat around there (:

then he fetched to TPy meet ayl, while he went to meet yianwei.

went CRC for a few round of pools.

then bus-ed to braddel MRT meet jz & sw

& dined at darling's house downstairs(:

14thsept'07

again, meet my beloved friends(:

jo,espall,jz & ayl.

Ikea (shopping????)LOL
Queensway Shopping Center( guys shopping AGAIN)
Heeren ( JO & Espall's Fashion Show, HAHAHHA)
Wisma for dinner ( Hokkien Mee )
Bus-ed 143 to tpy
slacked at Red circle
wanted to play pool, but FULL =.=
slacked outside CRC with jz awhile

cabbed home(:

& we saw Mr Syed at Queensway. MY sec 2 Daddyyy.hahaha! talked to him for quite long luhhh..(:

Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it inflames the great

A touch, soft and tender.
A whisper, full of desire
A gasp of sweet surrender
As passion fuels the fire
No words spoken between them
No promises to be kept
No lies being told tonight
No looking back - no regrets
Longing to hold each other
Such precious little time
Both vowed to another
Being lonely their only crime
Tomorrow bringing sorrow
A brief moment of shame
With the memory of this one night
A release from passion's flames.

bad moood

2007-09-13T14:28:00.000+08:00

Im pissed, pissed with everything
i agree with espall..

This world is fucked up.
FUCKED UP

maybe its just me,
my mood, swinging like one fuck.
everything is so fucked up
i'm not born to please him, her, you & you
neither are you.
so if you're unhappy pleasing me,

you can jolly well just fuck off.
i don't appreciate everything,
AT ALL

Obsessed, depressed, regardless I'm restless
I'm going insane, why must it be you
Breathe into your lips I cry out your name
Endless regrets, all bets are off
I'm going down the drain
I tried to leave you
You beat me to it again.

sorry about this blog,
just damn bloody pissed off... with myself=.=

Clown :D

2007-09-10T23:42:00.000+08:00

photos on 9sept(:

boyfriend just asked me to take, he said i look like a barbie doll =.= boyfriend & I
oh yeah, other than shopping.

i saw Miss Wendee, we behaved so excited upon each other's presence lahh.HAHAH!

that cute lil' girl.

& i saw Regina too! Miss Hey Gorgeous ayee.

That pretty babe, we finally gotta meet up again! haha!

went to Pines with boyfriend,dined with his family(:

then dropped me at tpy meet Ayl & Jz.

saw miss Venie again! (:

then to CRC, pool-ed.

later, boyfriend came to pick me up(:

supper at Newton Circus

10sept'07

was up early (:

blogged & did my homeworks.

then chatted with Ayl over the phone for awhile,

& decided to meet up for snooker,

cause we're rotting at home=.=

smsed jz, decided to meet him for lunch.

while waiting for the lift.haha

Haagen Dazs open air.
(my fav hangout place at J8)

the playground , the sunshine or rain & the ice cream(:
heavenly

wanted Choc Fondue, but they said i can't choose the flavours):
had Chocolate Journey instead.
CHOCOLATEYYYYY!!

i finished it in less than 10 mins luhh =.= haha

can you see what's written?

around 330, jz went back to work.
bus-ed to enter meet ayl.
two rounds of snooker at CRC, damn funny luhh
we didn't really play with full attention, more like disturbing each other.
miss cue, didn't aim properly & all.LOL

then i realised i forgotten to do one more homework.
went to mac & tried rushing thru'
but in vain, its already 645=.=
walked over to the bus stop, waited for bus 57.
715pm, im so late for school luh..
then i pleaded Ayl to go Bishan find Sw.
"i no psp" =.= go die lahhh.
lols. in the end,after my non- stop talkings & perssuasions,
we ended up at the opposite bustop..hahadidn't turn up for school, im already soo late!& it will take me 1 hour in order to reach school., the distance & the jam.

so took 238, & guess what. the bus stopped half way thru,
due to the back door, it couldnt close.
but luckily it went fine after awhile(:
after taking PSP, walked all the way to Jz' house bus stop.
waited for bus 88, but i couldnt take it anymore
quickily hailed a cab & pulled Ayl in.HAHAHHAHAHAHHA
then library, darliinnnnggg.
she didn't study much lahh.
more like reading the book i wanna read & witnessing arguements.LOL!
but after awhile, i went to another corner, & she studied abit.
so im the culprit againnnn=.=

the study corner's really nice(:

845pm, went over to Best Denki waited for JZ to knock off.
then dined at Interchange's coffee shop.
stayed there, while darling & jz watched the tv=.= hahaha
945, ayl & sw bus-ed home together.
whereas jz & i stayed at the playground.
chatted, problems & problems
but nevertheless, he's always the one here for me.
First whom i turn to, first whom im never afraid of tearing infront of.

felt so much better after kor's advices & comforts.
gave kor a lift, then cabbed home (:
you're great, my truly 24/7brotherbear.

homesweethome, msned with andee,ping & joan.
her poly's cliques. the jokes & laughters shared in just a short msn convo,
& they do care about mejust simply cast a smile on her.love them(:

As long as there's friends.

Jiaying's never afraid of crying,
because its just pouring out all pain.
Jiaying's never afraid of tearing,
because its Sunshine after rain(:

behind every laughter, there's fears.behind every smile, there's tears.

i hate my stupid eyebags & dark rings lahh
its getting worse.LOL!

Mood:Confused