my final post dedicated to you i'm letting this go when i said i'l hold on to this love, i meant it. & now i said i'm letting it go, i really mean it too there's nothing worth for me to look bck & hold on, nothing
because there's too much disappointment & lack of appreciation how much i cared for you & did for you, is can never be compared to how much you've done for me. I don't ask for anything for return, honestly. All i just want is simply, appreciation. but 9 out of 10 i just got a plainly "thank you" everybody can say that, even my 4 years old nephew.
words can be said easily, " you mean alot to me" yes, you too, means everything to me, before but what i see myself in you right now, is jut a status of " bestfriend" just a status.
i don't think i deserve this status. you don't too. you're no longer the one i'll turn to whenever i meet up with challenges, so am i. we're just lying to ourselves saying how important we are to each other.
in the past, whenever there's disputes, i'll shed my tears & yet saying i don't care but this time, i can say from the very depth of my heart , " i really don't care" i won't even shed a tear, i can't too no matter how much i force myself. cause this faith i have in you, has already died within me. i don't have much strength to hold myself up again, what's more to hold you up right now. I've done that for umpteen times, & this time, i will not be behind you, for real. because this is way beyond for any arguement or quarrel
i know it's useless to tell you how i feel, cause for the past few times, it never helps so i shall just blog it out, you to read yourself:)
and dear fellows, this will be my very last post. i'm not going to use this blog anymore:) cheers:D
Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye; 12:44 AM
HELLOS!
A simple & happy girl who loves sunshine.
Her endeared ones are her essentials.
Loves being in a crowd, yet comfortable being alone
Loves to smile, yet tends to get emotional
Has extreme moodswings,super high & low at times
Loves friendly & cheerful people :)
loves to see everybody smiles,
yes you, SMILE!
UR NAME!
JIAYING
11 November 1990
Palin Art School Artiris
swe3thugz90@Hotmail.com
LOVES!
ENDEARED ONES
♥ God
♥ Family
♥ My bigbig Family!
♥ Boyfriend
♥ Snowie
♥ Nyp cliques
♥ Heeren Girls :)
♥ Sunshine
♥ Piano
♥ Arts & Design
♥ Sunflowers
♥ Singing
LOATHES!
NO SWEET TALKS Do not boot lick me either do not accuse me, i fucking hate that do not insult my friends & family losing my endeared ones Flowers except sunflowers :) Soft toys except hellokitty,kalm & winnie the pooh :)
i know i'm weird :)
WISH!
everybody to be happy
to be with my endeared ones forever!!!
nafa a box full of yellow stars
a box full of sweets with pink shiny wrappers black gucci bag
pink dior wallet
hello kitty x'mas tree
a day with ALL my bigbig family a beautiful sweet 17
hello kitty blanket
sunflowers!
Queen's couture top
