Friday, December 14, 2007
i miss a very good friend of mine,
but sad to say, i've lost that very special friend.
a truly special one.......
reading thru all the emails since 1st of Nov,
tears just trickle down my cheeks endlessly.
The first ever mail " COURAGE"
this friend of mine, gave me courage when i was at my weakest point,
he was my courage, till now :)
then we started turning out on 9th January, yet he didn't lose grip of me
every mail of his, every words, every letter, was filled with sincerity.
he wrote in faith, he speak in faith, he believed in faith, he believe in me...
one who quitted smoking because he knew with yr presence , he's never lonely , i were his confidante . cigareetes are no longer his only company when he's am lonely and down .
one who thought of me when he's down, comfort himself by saying i'm happie now , i'm safe juz kept inside his heart , and i will be there always .
one who didn't mind getting hurt cause he knew i was worth it
one who said i saw him the way where nobody else had did
one who rather be hurt by me than to see all his closest friends disputes , his family disputes
someone who had never doubted me, & took all blames to himself.
someone who understand me sooo well,
someone who really made me believe he's willing to do anything to chase my sadness & troubles away.
But i've hurt this very special friend of mine with my very own hands,
yet he still didn't blame me, he put the faults on him.
i know he will not be reading my blog,
but i wish one day, he will know how truly sorry i am.
& how much i appreciate him.
how much i want to say a sorry,
& a big thank you for everything.
how much i want ask about you,
so much i want to know about your life now....
he's someone that taught me many things,
to be independent, to believe in myself, to understand the ones around me, to know the importance of family & friends, to appreciate, to be strong & overcome any hurdles,
& most of all, to smile :)
he's one in a million, he's someone hard to find,
he's now a
soul of motivation,
i could only see his image in my mind to keep me going
he's someone that may have left me now, but still etched in a position in my heart.
not moving an inch or mile, with memories & footprints imprinted in my mind....
" life doesnt always go your way , only if you start to adapt to the way life moves."thank you stupid :)
Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
2:32 AM
