am i still your guardian angel or do you look at me as a devil now?
i seriously don't know what's going on;
what did i do wrong bro?
can't you just let me know
why are you walking away all of the sudden?

remember card you wrote to me?
though the words are washed away; but they're still instilled in me
you said you won't leave me alone
the last time i saw you was 15th April;
and now, you're far away from me
i didn't want this to be a public post; but you left me with no choice
you don't reply me; i want so much to talk to you.
what happen?what did i do wrong?
isit of that sms?
tell me how you feel; don't just shut the door without even looking at me.
i really need you bro, i really do
i want to share with you my problems; i want to crack lame jokes with you
i want to listen to your long winded "bible", i just don't want to lose a good brother like you
give me one chance to know what did i do wrong..
please

so wrong that i start losing them. especially him
what did i do wrong?
what have i done in the first place to make you do this
you just simply walk awa without telling me anything
why?

Sunday, April 29, 2007

im home:) yes; im late home this time
once in a blue moon:) haha; i didn't bother about the curfew given by my daddy
anyway; i did call him up & tell him;)
being an understanding Dad; he lets me;thanks daddy

right; went study with jz & ayl today near FTPSS's study corner
long time didn't have that "feel" studying there
lots of memories; laughters tears & fun
most importantly; the times i had with my sec school friends:)
we studied till around 7 i think; and walked to safra to play snooker
its just like Os period; really
study & play:) but this time round; im more serious in my studies
MUCH MORE SERIOUS; i would say; haha

had two games of snooker; then we walked over to interchange meet kts & jason
i bumped into Jay!! ohmygawd; i miss her loads!
the best maid ever; so good that i don't even see her as a maid; but as a friend of mine
she's the best friend of my dearest sister; espall kaur
and i know her since sec 2; went to espall house almost everyday during sec 2;
know so much about her; play so much with her & spent so much time with just the both of them:)
i miss the both of them

okaye; then we went ct's house to borrow blade again
and the mom's soo cute; haha always chatty & friendly:)
then we bladed to find my darling; chatted awhile at the plaground & we went back to jz's voiddeck
yepp; till around 2; i cabbed home
mom & dad were worried sick

To perry;
bro, the thought of you being angry or not is hindering me.
i sent you that message two days ago; but not even a reply from you:(
aylmer said you out of a sudden said had something urgent;
i hope nothing bad happen; if there's nothing
i also hope you wouldn't ignore me
please reply me; im worried sick

To Jingzhi;
Kor; i know you're not happy; in fact; you're troubled
i can see from your face; i can see you inside out.
these few months you're no longer that happy kor i know
though you laugh & seems happier now; but i know deep inside you're feeling bad & down
" somethings no one can help; only times can" thats what you said;
yes its true; we need time to heal the pain;
all i can do are to only accompany you; be there for you; cry & laugh with you
and that's why i sat down with you today & cried with you;that's all i can do; isn't it?
i need you to be there for me; really
you're like my real-blood brother; always there for me
honestly; you've done your part as a kor; so close to me
that even while blading; i need you to be beside me; to guide & lead me
you're my best brother; i can't afford to lose you

To Espall;
Mei arghhh; please manage your time properly kaye?
don't stress yourself lah.
cca; studies & band??
get all scheduled yeah? don't neglect your studies friends & family
and of course ME ME ME!! hahaha
remember to meet up every wednesday aye!:) for a lunch is fine with me too<3
loves loves loves!

To darling;
aye; i see you almost everyday
hahah; i still love you as much!
that's why i need to see you everyday
a dose of you is a sugar to me;
HAHAHHAHHA!!! how romantic of me eh:)

To parents;
sorry mummy & daddy; sorry for keeping you worry for me
yes i know; im the only daughter; like a gem to you
its not that i don't like to tell you my problems
you know you daughter; she doesn't like pouring out her problems
she always bottle inside her & also don't wanna worry you
you know how much i miss spending time with you?
but studies are really driving me crazy; i want soo much to do you proud
you've raised me for going 17 years; gone thru' all torments & hardworks; overcomed so many obstacles just to provide me with everything; my expenditures & everything.
i want to give them all back to you; not to repay; but to shower what you've given me back to you
you always tell me how your lives are not as good as mine.
yes; you two have gone thru' a hard childhood; living in poverty with many siblings.
but daddy; you didn't fail to work hard and fufilled gramps' dream of entering SG's university & walked out with a Degree
your determinations has inspired me; and i want to be like you
and do you proud.
the money you've spent on me are countless;
i admit im a spendthrift; now im saving & hope that i will get a job real soon
but of course; after i get my studies & all settled down
believe me; trust me; your daughter will try her very best to succeed
to bring out the best of her; & build a brighter future for her & of course you:)
thank you mom & daddy; i love yous(:
sorry for being such a spoiltbrat & rebellious daughter
im sincerely sorry for not being understanding & demanding at times

To stupid;
i know you said before " its need time to numb the pain; not heal":)
hope you're doing fine; study hard aye
sorry; take care

To grandma;
I miss you granny; i really do
so much i want to say; so much i want to see you; so much i want to hug you
loneliness without you is painful;
but im growing up now; more independent i would say
do takecare:)

To cousins;
hey! you guys are missed!
i got sooo much to say; but just can't contact you guys:(

To you;
don't feel bad if you've neglected me
because i myself did neglect you
its so hard to balance everything, friends of diff schools & groups; family; studies
and to you its worse, friends,family,studies,and also cca.
i won't blame you really; just concentrate on your studies and strive for your dream; Scholarship
i have faith in you:)
thanks for holding me soo tight when i cry;
having so many obstacles to go thru'; to overcome these ocean of pain & pursue our dreams:)
i hope we can together with jz & all
our family; 10 members:)
all so important to me; loves loves


aye; im getting all sentimental only
always get "emo" when comes to these kinda things; sad & moody
haha, getting rather pissed with my mood too
ohoh; i still have projects to do! ohmygawd!
i just rmbr shiat! presentation on monday; lalalalala*
personal developement! right; i gotta turn in now;
im dead tired:) okaye; bathe & sleep
nights my fellow readers!<3

Saturday, April 28, 2007

yesterday school ended around 4; had a long day
went to meet ayl after school; and we headed to bishan
got my lap top things done:(

then we bused to tpy library's mac
had our lunch & went to crc to have few rounds of pool;
hehheh:) i won him lahhh; duhh!! =P

around 7; we went to enter' mac
whilst waiting for my beloved darling to come; we studied
and yes; we really put all our concentration on our works;
not even any talking or playing; haha
finally that bitch came; HAHAH!
i miss calling her bitch; and im her bloodybitchy bitch;lols
right; she wasn't in the mood to study ; so she played with aylmer's com;
browse thru pics and everything; while i still vontinued to study:)
then she said didn't want to disturb us studying; so left us & went walking around tpy
as a kind & "loves her sooo much" that darling; i couldn't bear to leave her swalking around tpy alone;
so i asked ayl to pack up & go find her:)
so yes; we walked around tpy;
andand' darling & i bought this ring; princess crown with sparkling colorful crystals on it
we got so many things the same lahh:)
so the both of us wear on our index fingers:); means alot to me aye.
though that ring cost only just $2; but the friendship between the both of us are genuine;
totally priceless; in fact; it can't be bought; cause she loves me:D
hahahah!!

yesyes; though i was moody while walking around; but i love to shop with her:)
my shopping queen aye;))
thenthen' i went to buy chocolate;yumyum
and we headed home.
today i finally woke up late; at 1.11
i had such a comfy sleep; no worries of being late ;
need not to drag myself out of my bed early in the morning:)

now; i gotta prepare; and go study with jz & ayl at study corner
yes; i have to study hard!!
jiayou jiaying!:)

Friday, April 27, 2007

having oop now; learning java programming now
its rather complicating; but interesting
yeah; im not really paying much attention
school works are turning me off; shucks man

yes; im still not feeling any better
perplexity is hindering me
everything seems so dull to me;
don't even have the mood to do anything;
just being the so moody & grumpy me

however; darling managed to put a smile on me
yes she did; my dearest sister & darling
everyday during school; i will tend to sms her
because her smses seem to enlighten me inside out:)
darling; though you might be thinking what did you do;
they're all just normal smses
but thank you soo much; they mean alot to me(: really

and to you; thanks for understanding me(:
sorry for being so moody these few days

i love you<3

Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
1:28 PM

this question is stucked in my mind for quite sometime;
've been feeling gloomy these two days; just out of the sudden
" should i be happy now? "

firstly; im a state of emotional strain resulting from my majore adverse circumference
SCHOOL WORK
in another word; im stressed
yes; tutorals & lectures; projects & all
didn't expect poly life to be this way either;
plus im in the course i don't like at all; and im just forcing my way thru'
U is my parents' dream; i want to do them proud;
and im serious
but its just too tough; its merely 2 weeks & im grumpling
im gonna breakdown real soon in week 4; with long night classes & all
i really miss my secondary life):
im letting go; just putting them in the chamber of my heart(:
those who have their paths crossed with mine; are very much appreciated
because they made my life move on in every little way(:
even a passer-by;stranger or so

Things seem to be going the wrong way;
or its just my stupid thinking & i
my fears; my worries & my stupidity
all of the sudden; i just feel like walking back in that corner
but im glad i have them & him(:
they're my only remedies now i guess; all better than my "cry-stop medicine" ferrero rocher & strawberry lollipop
their laughters;companies & presences are all that i need now
THANK YOU（（:

a tinge of sadness & perplexity within me;
i'm not happy now; yes im not.
fears & darkness are overcoming me
you know i'm afraid of darkness & loneliness.
please pick me up & hold me tight

Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
1:13 AM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

YAYNESS!!*im using school wireless now
#TRALALALALA:)
no longer that bored in school anymore;D

two bloggers are in the class right no;
ones me' another one sitting just right beside me; ANDEE
"who say miss ho doesnt care/">>>> to andeE
FBFBFB; IM COMING??????

ahhh; he's a dance addict lah
from time slot can hear as "Dance Floor"?? =.=
well well; thanks to Alvin;
he has contributed alot on helping me with my lap top;
IM SUCH A COM NERD!!!=.=

right'; our dearest t'cher is teaching right now;
and im here using my lappy; how defiant of me
okaye; ciaos pple!
gonna be the study nerd me;in another word; GUAI!:D

Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
9:07 AM

Monday, April 23, 2007

You are Strength

Courage, strength, fortitude. Power not arrested in the act of judgement, but passing on to further action, sometimes obstinacy.

This is a card of courage and energy. It represents both the Lion's hot, roaring energy, and the Maiden's steadfast will. The innocent Maiden is unafraid, undaunted, and indomitable. In some cards she opens the lion's mouth, in others she shuts it. Either way, she proves that inner strength is more powerful than raw physical strength. That forces can be controlled and used to score a victory is very close to the message of the Chariot, which might be why, in some decks, it is Justice that is card 8 instead of Strength. With strength you can control not only the situation, but yourself. It is a card about anger and impulse management, about creative answers, leadership and maintaining one's personal honor. It can also stand for a steadfast friend.

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Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
7:10 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

went town with celest today
we did plenty of shopping lahh
i bought 10 tops including 2 from 2 days ago;
Purple tee from revoltage- $29.90
5 Font Tees from Cine's push cart shop- $55
one suppose to cost $14.90; but celest & i each bought 5;
so we requested for $11 per piece
hahaha; the font on the tees are real cute & humourous lahh
and i bought 2 tops from Valerie
a dark blue cotton blouse- $42.90
and a top together with a demin vest- $69.90
2 days ago; i bought one light blue top from POA- $39.90
and one blue cotton top- $35.90
yepp; i kinda in april Blues; hahah!
suppose to buy jeans; instead i bought all tops=.=
daddy is sooo gonna kill me:X
saw marky & yian wei at cine while buying the font tees
hahah! they thought we're working there
well; both of them changed quite alot; dressed in branded clothes
hahaha; burberry & gucci

i really enjoy going out with celest lahh
she's like my real sister:) her whole family is like sooo close to me once
even after the broke up of mark & i
we still contact all these like close friends
and yes; i do miss them
sometimes i will think of the times i spent together with the naughty brothers whom i always play with; cousins; their great mom who took really good care of me; celest who always treat me like her younger sister; the grandparents who care for me soo much & relatives too.
those times was great;haha
i rmbr when i first know the brothers; one is only pri 1 the other is 4
now one's already sec 1 and the other pri 5
whaoo!! the sister who was only 17 when im sec one; now she's already 21!!
omg!! LOLS!! how time flies; but i can say; i spent really alot of time with them
like my own family yeah..
but now; its different; hahaha.

ohhh; tml's school
and its form 8 to 12
sad thing is that i have to wake up DAMNN EARLY;
gonna meet benjee for breakfast
good thing is; i end at 12; only 4 hours of school:) whhheeee
tml's his audition for dance; GOOD LUCK!! and oh! my bro perry's too!! good luck bro!
loves loves!:D
then maybe gonna meet my darling tml:) yayness
thinking of going back ftpss; see my precious lil' one & my aiai!! :D:D:D:D
shall see


hmmm; i know you've read my mail
and guess you'll avoid me now
im sorry; really i am
but i know sorry is useless now
takecare & study hard:)
my once good friend, maiyatang

Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
11:28 PM

oh ya.. i still haven't update photos!
my genting trip; my ultra fun loving sentosa trip with my bros & sis; and some stupid photos with dalrings
hahahha
shall update it when i have the time to:)

well; ytd went out with jz kor;aylmer;jw & ed
aylmer jw & ed went queensway shopping
jz & i went bishan to settle my lap top stuff; and the both of us headed to town
initally we wanted to meet the other 3 at town too & go shopping with them
however; jz & i went kbox without them; cause we're too tired to walk around
hahaha; we didn't sing much lahh; did more talking;slacking; listening ot their songs & emoing
LOLS! and all these costed us 40 bucks gone;)
but im glad that im able to spend one-on one time with my best bro:)

after kbox; we went tpy to meet ayl & co
headed to CRC; the guys played pool; i just sat at one corner
but they didn't leave me alone lahh;
seeing them catching up & crapping; made me laughed & smiled
they're really a bunch of good brothers i would say

around 10 plus; jz & i went clark quay to meet kts & willliam
that was the first time i went clark quay during that time; without celest but with my own friends
i was damn scared lahh; cause its all club & pub area
i was like a small nerdy girl there can
went one pub to visit Ben; he's working there
but the pub turned out to be like a club; it was crowded with alot alot of pple
caucasians were the majority
my heart beated damn fast; i was terrified; so afraid of being touched & so
but jz kor really took good care of me; he didn't neglect me at all
we sat at one corner; kts & william went to drink waterfall
around 12; i cabbed home alone due to jz's persuassion
he said i didn't look good and he's very worried
and because im sick & don't wanna be a burden to them; i cabbed home
that shall be the first & last time im going
but anyway; i want thank aylmer;jz kor;benson;ben;kts & william for their care & concern
they really take great care of me
and yet im always causing them to be worried and all
really great friends & bros;thanks alot guys:)

and yes darling! we gonna watch NDP together this year!
WHOOO HOOO!! Sweett!!!
lets go buy 4d;haha.you know what i mean :)

espallmei; please takae good care of yourself aye!
you always falling sick:)
and you know; i always love you
rmbr our promise! once a week must meet up!
at least for a lunch! :)

jodie dear; you caught me on the day itself
LOLS.. nvm.i also don't intend to hide from you
haha; but don't jealous eh??
loves loves! meet up for lunch one day!

okaye; gonna meet celest now
wanna catch up with her;
yay! cyas!

Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
1:27 PM

Friday, April 20, 2007

darling; i've read your blog:)
yes; its rather ironic saying we have to be hurt in order to have happiness
what i meant was; if we're always happy, we won't know the true meaning of happy
Hurt inflicted into us isn't as bad as we think; its lessons to be learnt
Never be afraid of making mistakes;
but be afraid of not learning from mistakes:)

follow your heart; listen to it
if you are willingly to give it a try; just go ahead
what's more; we're all behind you even if you fall
as what you said; you've grown up
you have to think for yourself; plan & learn
of course; i won't wanna see you fall
but as i said; i would want you to fall once or twice;
so you can learn from it; and also give me a chance to do what a friend can do
getting in relationship is hindering you ; even i myself
i have to admit; im still afraid of being inside one;
but if i always tell myself im afraid & afraid; but never try stepping out of this darkness myself
i will never be able to step out of it
because my mind is controlling me
if a guy can make your fear fade away;
it means you have that tinge of liking for him;
because you've already walked out of the darkness yourself; allowing yourself to wlak into another world

just take things slow & steadily
Let nature takes its cause i would say
don't hurry yourself & your feelings; give yourself & him some time:)
well; all the best
may you find your happiness; loves!

aye; im having my OOP now
learning about java programming
SO CONFUSING!! OMG!!
right; ending soon
having CM1 at 3; okaye
ciaos pple!
darling!!! don't worry be happy! loveslovesloves

Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
2:21 PM

Thursday, April 19, 2007

i know; my every post has this phrase" totally drained out"
hahah; but its true can!
im bone-weary now; all ready to drop

had school from 8 till 2 today
didn't have COS lesson today; cancelled
so our class went sports carnival together:)

after school; went Bishan to meet up with mom
had difficulties choosing the laptop; due to the fact that IM A COM NERD; and i was DEAD TIRED!!
MY mood was allgloomy & downcasted
but the promoter and mom were really understanding;
they were soo forbearing & patient lahh

so mom bought me a vaio notebook
which cost 4398bucks
its extortionately expensive lahh;
really thank my parents for providing me with the neccessaries & unneccessaries stuffs
my daily usage; allowance; education & everything
really everything
yes; i did save about 300 a month;
but i still have to get myself a job;
i have to pay for my own school lecture notes & clothes
i mean; i want to; i can't be relying on them soo much now that im already turning17
but of course; studies first; they would rather me score better grades
so do i; to do them & myself proud; & not waste their money & our time
17 years of bringing me up; its never as easy asi thought
to just work feed & provide; its just on the outside:)
but to feel their love within; its all beyond words & actions
THANK YOU MOM & DAD loves;)

Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
10:47 PM

hohoho;
im right now in the mid of my Digital Media Design module
yepp; learning about photoshop's basis
the lecturer don't even bother about us much; he just continue teaching in his very own world
LALALALALA* how self entertaining is he
OPPS=X i hope he doesn't see this;haha!

you must be thinking im sitting at the back; that's why
BUT im sitting in the front!! LOLS!!!
its either he's blind; or he's closing one eye
i suppose he's a kind man?? LOLS!!
YEPP; HE'S THE HEAD OF DMD

im missing my friends real much;
the days we living under the same roof during secondary days
how sweet & fun loving huh?
haha
anyway; my new school isn't that bad either
my classmates are sociable & united
but these few days seem to be having some class misunderstandings
that leaded to resentment & arguements
just because one of my classmates=.=
hope everything will turn out fine:)
yeah

espall;shamine;jodie! my 351
you girls are not forgotten yet!
and of course my "ahhhh family" & others
all brothers & sisters & gfriends
do remember &amp; think of me aye?
xiiaowei; girl! when are we meeting?
lol. we always plan to meet; and ended up postponing the outings
hahah; you're msised to you know!

yanni & qiu wen & daphne
you guys are facing O's stress this year
please perservere alrights! study hard!
you girls can do it! :)

ayeayeaye; to benjee
please don't over work can!
you are dying soon!
and im serious! LOLS!

aylmer; get well soon!
you can't get any paler than usual
you'll end up scaring more people you know!

jingzhi kor; poor brother always kena disturbed by me
well; just for laugh right?:)

perry bro; YOU'RE MISSED! SERIOUSLY!
I MISS YOU BRO!!

edmund & lewis;
these two playboys;hahah!
finally settle down & NO MORE TIME FOR GIRLS EH??
HAHAHHA=p

darling!!
may you find your happiness:) hahha;you know what i mean
you're my one and only darling<3lovesloves!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

im totally drained out of energy now;
from my damn weary face now; you could see the enervate slighteness of my frail form

right; school started at 9 today
so i could wake up later than usual
met some of my classmates at YCK mrt; and went school's mac for breakfast
had Computing Maths 1 & communication skills Lectures & tutorial today
and the day ended short & fun; from 9 to 12; 3 hours of school
haha; the best was communication skills
our lecturer is full of joviality; we had excited & lighthearted chatters:)

after which; i went to find benjee
went the cca carnival with jz benjee espall & jo
signed up for Foreign Bodies; Make up artist; dance company; stages arts
tml going to sign up for piano; archery & cheer leading
haha not all lahh; just going for auditions & see which im more interested in
anyway; i needa get a part time job to earn some cash for my own expenditure;
cant be spending Dad's money right:)

afterward, we went j8 to see laptop
dont intend to buy from school; cause they dont sell sony
decided on which one; with the help of my best friend; zheng yi
but the price was exorbitant=X
haha; you're soo steady can; thank best friend;)!
then shopped around; bought a pair of skinny jeans from 77th street

finally; we left j8 and headed to tpy find sw
ate dinner chit chat awhile & i bus-ed home
talked with mom & dad for sometime & packed my stuff
& studied some of my modules
yepp; gtg to now
gonna turn in soon:) nights pple! * yawn*

Monday, April 16, 2007

whoo; im home; so early haha
today was my first day of school
i dragged myself out of that comfy bed at 6.30 lahh
all "evil thoughts" like( absenting myself), cursing about the early wake up; squeezed into my brain
hahaha
and once again; IM LATE
i have to chnage my bad little habit;haha

dad sent me to yck mrt; met up with zheng,valerie & new friend-mark
haha; then to school met up with my classmates
somehow our first lesson got our class splitted up; caus eits elective
and i gotten into Personal Development
somesort like Moral Education
haha; our lecturer looked strict at first;
but she's soo damn cute; Ms jenny chia
she asked us to self intro with names & interests; but differently this time
we had to rermeber those that intro before us
and i was quite the last few lahh=.= so i had difficulities trying to rmbr those names
but made some new friends with other classes:)

that lesson lasted for one and a half hour
afterwhich our class o7o4 went to lab for another lesson
but the lecturer gave a brief intro & so on for like half an hour?
and our lesson ended at 10.30
our break starts from 12 to 2
haha. then from 2 to 5 is selfstudy lecture; so we don't have to turn up
therefore; we ended school at 1030; which was a joy rto us
HAHHAHAHHA; especially ME!

o7o4 went to roadshow together; then went for lunch
but i had to leave them for lunch; had to meet ervina
haha; long time no catch up with her;
we had lunch together at food junction
saw diane & jodie; they had school today too
then slacked around; met jz at auditorium
and benjee joined in; HE GOT HIS PHONE CONFISCATED ON THE VERY FIRRST DAY!!
hahahha! HE WAS LIKE SOO PISSED OFF LAHH
worse still; he couldn't contact hat lecturer
around 12 50; jz went off for lesson
so vina & ben & i went food junction slacked
awhile later zheng came to find us
we sat there for till 2; we were all damn tired & bored lahh
walked with vina to her class at 1 plus
and went back food junction slacked with that two guys

awhile; met espall & her friends
chitchatted awhile; left school with benjee
his friend came to pick us; and sent me home
LOLS! FREE RIDE

well; first day of school isnt that bad:)
gotta know more friends
which is rather a good news;
so i won't be that isolated there; haha
but the campus is like; damnn confusing lahh
so alike lahh; we got lost for umpteen times
haha; climbing up & down stairs; here there & everywhere
all the other freshies including me; looked so new & "blur" haha
next year; i will be looking at the new bunch of freshies;lols!

right; gotta bathe now
gonna meet ayl & jw later at 4 plus
and sw & jz at 8 plus; they finish school so late!! omg!!
well! ciao pple!!

Saturday, April 14, 2007

SENTOSA
WHOOOO HOOOO*; IM LOVING IT:)
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY:):):)


BYEBYE!

Sunday, April 08, 2007

6th april
went out with my dearest "ahhhhhh"family :)
played pool & snooker at crc; jo joined us
then ate ice cream & fries at mac

jo;me;sw

trained to chinatown; KSTER
there was no room vacancy for fourr people
so they gave us this BIG room
its ULTRA BIGGGGGGGG
thart room cost 500 bucks actually
but we got it for only 71bucks
how lucky huh?
got four mics; just right for the four of us;haha
3 tvsand a big screen; and 3 computers
with 3 sofas; and a comfy bed right in the middle
HAHHAHA! darling & i had some censored scenes there;LOLS!


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cam whored in the toilet:)

haha; then we trained to Ps
had our dinner at the food court
and headed to the arcade:)
FINALLY! we took neoprint
the four of us :)


sweet huh?:))

thern we snapped some pics at the MRT; diodn't upload
but grabbed from darling's blog;haha


the devilish & angelic DARLINGS; opposite attracts! HAHAH!



i enjoyed myself the fullest that day:)
they made me feel so blissful;
no fear of anything:)
they're my ahhhh family; I LOVE THEM LOADS!!

tmr will be leaving to malaysia till wednesday
going Genting with parents; then to KL find my uncle:)
then thursday & friday needa go back school for maths lessons from 9am to 4pm
and buy books with my classmates together with my OGLs:)
saturday will be UBBER FUNN!!
will be going sentosa with my group
its gonna be the 11 us! :)
finally; all of us can turn up:) PRAY HARD!!
i really wish everyone of us can turn up
because it might be the last time we all would gather together; i hope not:)
we wanted to open chalet during march holiday intially;
but that plan didn't work out
so we gonna use our chalet money and spend on sentosa trip:)
gonna love that day:)
BROTHERS SISTERS! PLEASE TURN UP!!! PLEASEEEE!!
sunday would be going out with ayl
and monday; school reopen
sad & happy about; gonna miss my old friends
and HELLO! to my new friends & school:)

well; gd night fellow pple!
MISSED!

Saturday, April 07, 2007

well; my orientation was a blast on the last day:) 5th April
0704 really changed from a damnn dead class to a bonded one
when i said dead; its really DEAD
first day; all freshies werer like soo shy and UN-sociable
2nd day; i didn't turn up due to my injury's infection; they have the game revolution
3rd day; we did our cheer;with actions & of course o7o4 unity; and interclass games:)
last day; our finale performance in Audi; and phototaking
even after the finale performance; o7o4 still gather together; played games and everything
the forfeits were all damnnn funny lahh; pole dancing;chicken dance & the side-front-back dance
hahah!


THANKS TO OUR OGLs
Norvan; Kimberly; Wendy; Hajar
they really tried their very best to bring us together
and their hard work weren't to no avial
hajar- the most talkative of all; the one that's the most spontaneous; and shouted till he has sore throat;haha
kimberly & wendy- the two sweet girls that followed us throughtout the 4 days
norvan- the one that danced by side,front,back dance for umpteen times

DYNAMITEo7o4:)



and definitely my classmates; the DYNAMITEo7o4:)
still; there are some quiet ones
and those talkative & mre sociable ones
i have to say; there's this guy in my class that i see him in respect & all
he's a disabled ; had difficulty in walking
but for that four days; he didn't absent himself from any activities
we played all the games; he's there
even our cheers; he joined us with all the actions
though; he may slower down our pace; but we are all still in a class; o7o4
none of us complained about him; neither did we neglect him
we hang around as though we're all the same
in fact; we're all the same; same freshies; in same school; in same class
he's a guy with much determination; never saying die;)

oh yeah; photos are thanks to andy
haha; grabbed from his blog:)

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

yesterday was my 1st day of orientation

went amk hub met zheng & his friend jonathan
then took free cab ride to NYPs campus hall
the queues were all damn long lahh; we're suppose to queue according to our courses
after registering; we were divided into our classes
zheng and i same class 0716! :) my best friend;haha
we sit according our classes in the auditorium; took about one hour plus for everybody to settle down there
i looked around; my classmates aren't that bad :D got some emoo kiddos;hahah
then was the boring speechs & everything; and a hilarious performance by the STC

then when we're suppose to leave the auditorium; one of the OGleader called zheng & me
and told us that we changed class:( DIFFERENT class
i was posted to 0704; he's 0715 :( sad
so i went to join my class; hmmmm everybody look so shy
got to know all the girls; valerie;one year older than me; but she's damnn nice :)
feel very comfortable talking to her
the guys-.- they're all so dead lahh; so shy and quiet
hahah
played games; concentration;bigfishsmallfish & the list went on
got punishments ;and we sabotaged one of our OGleader;hajar;hahah!

TODAY; i couldn't go for rmy orientation :(
my leg injuries got infection; had fever since last night till today
headaches & everything; and today's orientation has an important lecture & sport games
i couldn't go :( what a day
valerie didn't go too; she has chalet;haha

ahhh; i don't really like my school & class :(
hope i can adapt faster to everything & and have a enjoyable poly life
pray hard bahh;
i miss my ftpss friends :(
the place where i can put my trust on them; play with them and everything
now; they said poly; we can hardly find any trustable ones; just hi-bye friends
i miss FTPSS :):):):)

Monday, April 02, 2007

right; its 1102 now;
and surprisingly im awake
i should be sleeping like a pig in my cozy sty right now
but why?
cos today's my orientation!!
ohmygawd; time flies
today's already 2nd april!
how wonderful
its gonna be four days ; hope it will be a blast
if not; i just gonna skip everything
hahaha; lets just hope everything will be fine

and damn my luck!
i fell down last night while rollerblading
straight on my knee; now its all swelling and hurting :(
curse that stupid drain
soo; im wearing a pair of jerans go; incase anybody hit my injury
i will definitely box that person; hahaha
just kidding!
i don't want my orientation be a violent one
hahaha; i just gonna be a good girl & put on a nice sweet smile
HAHHHAHAHHA :D:D:D:D:D
right right; im actually quite excited
haha; is very!
i can't wait to see my new circle of friends
but my beloved bros& sis; don't worry!
i won't pang-seh you all de;
you guys are still my first piority! the IMPORTANT ones:D

okaye; off i go now :)
ciaos pple!!

Sunday, April 01, 2007

my importants;)

these necklaces; represent the four of us;)
espall;jodie;shamine and me
mean more than anything in the world;
they're more than meets the eye :)


the ahhh family;)
ah buang(sw);ah gui(ayl);ah pui(jz);ah toot(me)
my pillars of supports
my confidantes
can't afford to lose them


and of course; my beloved darling:)
read your blog
i want to be there for you too
although you're the one who come to me when have prob;
im there to advice since last time
but im not as strong as you rthink
i depend on you as much as you depend on me too:)
you mean alot to me;
to the extend that; if we fall for the same person
i will rather give up that guy
haha; it also refers to the April Fool joke you played on jz;
it was a heart-dropped to me too;HAHAHA
i have nothing to say; to do
just a simple "i love you"; i know these 3 words are enough for you:)
this is a true existence,
One, without a lie.
Here where we smile to look up;
The stars
a display of memories.
I will never escape
The thought of leaving you,
My eyes,
forever watching with you
together,
never alone.























they'rer more than friends to me; like my family
they're like my blankets in the cold
small candlelight that glows in the dark
tissues for all the tears shedded
the smile on my face,
part of my dream.
the camera that shoot our days;
the scrapbook filled with their photos;
the diary written with our memories;
they are like the ripples in a stream.



the 10 of us; the friendship; so genuine
shamine;espall;jodie;aylmer;jingzhi;edmund;perry;lewis;junwen and me
a complete family<3
Through hard friendships, you had to experience
To gain from others what you call acceptance
Trust, honesty and true friend status,they've earned
The friendship we share will definitely bring us far

The best of friends,
Worth more than gold,
Give all the love,
A heart can hold.

these photos can't show all the times we've shared
cause there has been too much to show
photos & photos
fOUR Years & still counting
love you all:)

A simple & happy girl who loves sunshine.
Her endeared ones are her essentials.
Loves being in a crowd, yet comfortable being alone
Loves to smile, yet tends to get emotional
Has extreme moodswings,super high & low at times

Loves friendly & cheerful people :)
loves to see everybody smiles,
yes you, SMILE!


JIAYING
11 November 1990
Palin Art School
Artiris
swe3thugz90@Hotmail.com

LOVES!

ENDEARED ONES ♥ God
♥ Family
♥ My bigbig Family!
♥ Boyfriend
♥ Snowie
♥ Nyp cliques
♥ Heeren Girls :)
♥ Sunshine
♥ Piano
♥ Arts & Design
♥ Sunflowers
♥ Singing

LOATHES!

NO SWEET TALKS
Do not boot lick me either
do not accuse me, i fucking hate that
do not insult my friends & family
losing my endeared ones
Flowers except sunflowers :)
Soft toys except hellokitty,kalm & winnie the pooh :)

i know i'm weird :)

WISH!

everybody to be happy
to be with my endeared ones forever!!!
nafa
a box full of yellow stars
a box full of sweets with pink shiny wrappers
black gucci bag
pink dior wallet
hello kitty x'mas tree
a day with ALL my bigbig family
a beautiful sweet 17
hello kitty blanket
sunflowers!
Queen's couture top

MAKE A SOUND!

DARLINKS!

lazy to type down, haha

MISC!

Test one

Create your own Friend Test here Test two

Create your own Friend Test here

MUSIC!

they came by and left;
& they're footprints etched within me
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