im feeling much better now ;))
not pissed off anymore
anyway; to think about it;
it isnt his fault i suppose
nevermind; things happen for their own reason
its okaye; should not brood over it

TODAY'S MOM'S BIRTHDAY!
LOVESLOVESLOVES!
okaye; i woke up 12;30 today
without any morning call; or alarm clock to wake me up
its amazing i can wake up early :))
its okaye because i slept early last night; 1:40am
its early to me; cause i usually sleep at 4 5 plus
hahaha; perry ; aylmer kor; and mummy;
be proud of me! :D

took cab to bishan's UOB bank with mom
opened a a/c
went foodcourt eat with mom;
and did some windowshopping ;))
went home; mom cooked for me to eat
hahhal; i was hungry
and i washed my own dishes!
i did housechores!
again; mummy aylmer kor; BE PROUD OF ME! LOLS

right; now channel u showing
"HUA YANG" THAT SHOW
AHHHH!! wuu zhunnn;LOLS
my new idol :D:D:D
ELLA'S SOOOO CCUTE!!!
gotta go watch movie later with ayl;lewis
maybe ed & jz coming too
tml going swimming with darling & ayl :D:D
then go out awhile later; i will go meet my family
dad bringing us go eat to celebrate mummy's birthday:))
andand; mark's booking out! haha for quite long
friday will be going to play bball & badminton with darling & co at west cc
HAHAHHA!! exercise.LOLS
friday; shaun & family will be going KL
shaun got bowling competition there haha
GOOD LUCK SON!!
saturday will be aylmer's kor birthday :))
but ccelebrating edmund's one too together
3rd mar & 5th mar; haha

alrights; gotta go now :))
have a great day peeps!

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

i feel so silly now; fucking stupid
seriously; if you can't forget about her; then don't even think of having me as a substitude
yes; i'm that naive and gullible; and even fall into your " pitiful" trap twice
but not anymore; i finally know the truth; everything
don't come throw some "passionate" pattern infront of me now;
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN; simply just f*** care!
but anyway; THANKS TO YOU; i learnt another important lesson
even though sometimes guys might get hurt; but we girls shouldn't care
because the girls might get hurt in return for their STUPIDNESS
just because of you guys wanting our so called sympathy;
but you know what? this is pathetic!
sorry to those innoccent guys out there; sorry if my words offended you
girls can get rather nasty when they're pissed ((;

i toasted a bread and it got BURNT!!
the smell was so strong that mom woke up and thought something was on fire
haha! that's why mom never let me do cooking at home;especially at this kinda time
5:03 AM; and im still fresh awake
mom couldn't sleep; so we watched tv together in the living room
told her about the scolding i've gotten from daddy
and she said this " wahhhh; you haven learn know how to earn; you start spending le" LOLS!
hey! im 17 only; so must enjoy my life; spend and earn next time
HAHHAH! okaye; i know trhis kinda thinking will kill me
so mom decided to bring me to bank later 11 AM
to open this SAYE account; ahaha! i suppose its Save As You Earn;
okaye; this what we would do every month
because of my exploding and heart dropping handphone bill;
i have to pay 100 myself whenever it exceeds
so i have to control my smses!!!
that 100 will go inside this acc;
i have to put in 100 every month; to keep this acc going
if i CAN control my smses; mom will put in 100 herself as an encouragment.HAHAHAHA

but lets just say; HOPE THIS PLAN WILL WORK
HAHA!

okaye! i have to turn in now
its 5;14AM
perry & aylmer kor gonna kill me soon
i kept telling them i will sleep early
but sorry! i ccan't!
now will try sleeping again :D
omg; 6 hours of sleep
I GONNA BREAKDOWN ONE DAY; LOLS
.
..
...
....
NIGHTS
to those nocturnal people who aren't sleeping now
for example; kog teng sian & jian wei
HAHAHA; stop cycling!!!

oh yeah!
i miss these few peeps
ESPALL
ERVINA
KELLY
DAPHNE
catch up with you girls reaal soon
especially VINA; you stay so near me!!!!!! :D
loves!

please do take good care of yourself :))
the day when i know the truth;
i told myself its okay
just hope that you will quit one day:))
thanks for the COURAGE you've given me on 1stNov
you're not forgotten; never will
maiyatang; my friend

just got a severe scolding from dad
he saw my bank book; updated
for the whole feb; i've spent 500 plus of my own savings
plus 300 plus of what he've given me
so total of 800 plus )):
seriously; i don't know what've i spent on
exccept for that belt and that necklace that costed me 279 bucks
others i think its hello kitty, clothes and entertainment stuffs
shit; gotta stop my shopaholic disease
still thought of buying mom that Tiffany& co necklace for my mom's birthday;$349
guess i gotta drop that idea; and think of another
arghhhhh!!!

Monday, February 26, 2007

Love Me
I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,
"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
Of her, I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
i miss her dearly )):

i love this song!
simple lyrics yet with meaningful melodies
sometimes;i do envy others
having their loved ones so close to them;
not just to their heart; but with those right beside them
when they can just turn and get the warmest hugs anytime
i wish i could turn back time; to my childhood
just with her there; to look after me;play with me; and watch me grow

now even my beloved nephews are leaving to aus soon ));
the two of them; watched them grow since they're borned
forever that naughty and demanding; yet sweetest in my heart
xavier tan; the older one
the one i love sooo dearly;
the one i always play with
the one who love me as mucch;
the one who'd cry in the past whenever i go home
the one who i can't bear to scold
the one who i would feed;and carry
the one who'd hug me so tight; call me " yiyi"
the one who'd always make me smile with his cute cheeky words
power ranger; tom and jerry; spiderman are your fav shows
i just love watching with you :))
lucas tan; the younger one
the very hyper one; with that chubby cheek i always pull
the very very cute one; never fail to make me laugh
yet the very demanding one; that spoiltbrat
that greedy pig; yet the very independant one
goes to sleep and plays yourself
you're just my "kai xin guo"

i feel so blissful just having both of them around
my cutest nephews ever ((:
ah yi loves you<3


LUCAS 2004

XAVIER & LUCAS 2004

XAVIER 2oo6

Saturday, February 24, 2007

19 FEB 2007





browsed thru photos; blogs and testimonials
overwhelmed with emotions; and just plainly loss of words
i really miss those times effing much
the times we had in school;
laughters;sorrows;quarrels;arguements;craziness; and most importanly; friendship
friends come and go; but these pple are just too difficult for me to let go
at least photos of us can keep me smiling;
having them as my friends; are a gift sent from Heaven :D


23rd Febuary 2007
watched "Just Follow Law" with mom and aunt
a good movie; reccommended :))
gonna watch again with jz & ayl ; haha
went to register piano & guitar lesson; butr need few weeks of notice and everything
after movie; went to look for darling & edmund
they knocked off early today; 9pm
jz came to J8 and joined us
went to the food court; chongying treated us drinks
the stalls were all closed when darling & i wanted to buy food; damnit! haha
luckily chongying bought us some dumpling :D thanks
headed to the newly opened arcade at j8; was darn big lahh
after which; we bused to tpy
saw my beloved bro; perry yeo
and he passed me my birthday present; thou my brithday was like last year
HAHA! but the present's very beautiful
he made himself; i mean designed and everthing
its a cup with my name "JIAYING, my guardian angel" and two hello kitty printed on the cup :D:D:D
how sweet; awwwwwwww
love you bro!
then the four of us went to mac; where darling and i had our dinner there :))
played guitar; chit0chatted; sang songs
loveeelyyyyyyy :))

Friday, February 23, 2007

Melodies Of Life ( English version)
Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain
Melodies of life--love's lost refrain

Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold
In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name

* A voice from the past, joining yours and mine
Adding up the layers of harmony
And so it goes, on and on
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds--forever and beyond

So far and away, see the bird as it flies by
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?

If I should leave this lonely world behind
Your voice will still remember our melody
Now I know we'll carry on
Melodies of life
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts
As long as we remember



i'll always remember you; my friend
my that very special friend
you've crossed my path; you've been etched in my heart
for the past 6 months; you're there for me
be it; mentally or physically
during Os period; you're always there
school opposite; or that study corner; or his house
you're like everywhere; where i am; you'll always be there
only once or twice; you're not
but you never fail to come back find me;
the things you did just to make me smile
the things you did just to ensure me im not alone
forgive me for my selfishness
i can never shower the same care and concern what you've given me
you said; im the 1st one that can changed you totally
without me; days are difficult to pass; lonliness isn't nice
i doubt i have that ability; im aint that great
i'll still reminisce the times you did silly actions or said jokes just to make me laugh
to wipe away those tears of mine
you're not that clown that only perform on stage to entertain me
you're that special hand that will wipe away my tears; and make me smile
a really warm smile from my heart
you've walked with me for that past few months
when i fall; you're always there to hold me up
now; im walking into the next phase of my life
this time; without you
i know im still able to move on
because with the you who have taught me to be strong
the you who have gave me the courage
the you who have embraced and sought me out
i'll change those flowing tears into shining courage
life goes on;
continuing beyond the night
into a tomorrow which has never been doubted.
many memories have been left behind; but still following me
you're my that very special friend; so closed to me
never fail to be there; just to say a hi
just to pat my head; and never bid goodbye
you've showed me the world; the real meaning of life
that's not everybody can do; you're not nobody
thanks alot my friend; you're very much apprecciated
thank you ((:

yours truthfully;
dumbxiiaojia

Friday, February 16, 2007

don't walk away; turn around
take a closer look; yes im there; at the darkest corner;
you know im afraid of darkness; yes you do
with that exquisite breathing you smile; with satisfaction of love you can shower
be that ray of light and shine upon me; my angel

14Febuary2006
valentine day:))
went town with ayl;lewis;perry;jz in the noon
yeah; was the only girl;
people think i got 4 valentines;haha
rushed to cine to buy tickets forr " ghost rider" and "epic movie"at 5pm and 8pm
then went to have Sakae Sushi Buffet
YUMMY!! we had a sumptuous meal; hahaha
ate like some gluttons; we ate more than 30 plates; 5 bowls of udons and lots more
hahaha; but didn't have the chance to take photo of the plates;
they were out of plates so had to clear up the plates first;hahaha!
after the dinner; went for our movie
"ghost rider" is greaatttttt man!! worth to watch!
after the movie; perry left and darling joined us
and headed to watch Epic Movie;haha
damnnn lame show; too lame to laugh; totally meaningless and waste of money lahhh
after movie; i was like quite tired le.. movie marathon.lols
headed back to tpy; had supper; and sat chat awhile; and headed home
so it isnt a fun valentine day afterall; but memorable :)) with my friends <3
still miss school days; i'll go around hugging my endeared ones
and exchanging gifts with all my girlfriends; how lovely

to them;
thanks for those flowers; sweets chocs and toys; beautiful petals :))
hahaha; yianwei, your efforts are greatly appreciate.LOLS

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

to reap what i sow

hey fellow people; haven't been blogging for quite a long time
didn't have the mood for the past few days; and was rather busy
yepp; gotten my results; disappointed
i've only got 19pointers; sucks man

English- 6
Chinese- 3
science- 3
maths- 3
ART- 4

im utterly disappointed with my eng and art
really regretted for wasting so much time slacking and on my art
a 4 for art is really not something i wanted
i mean; since young; art is my passion
i started drawing at the age of 4; i simply just love drawing
till i joined rthe secondary life;
i realised art isnt as simple and carefree as i use to think
there's just so many rules and theory to follow
i seem to be deprived of drawing what i want; how i feel;it's no longer the same
soon; i lost interest in drrawings
just plainly followed the rules and everything to do my courrsework
i did last minute lahh; really last minute
suppose to hand up the papercut next day; and i haven't finish
lucckily with the help of my endeared friends; they helped me thru' the last day
really appreciated their help alot; too much to express my gratitude
without them; i don't think i would be able to get a 4
really; maybe a fail or just a 6

there's a few people i really want to thank
they accompanied me during the Os period; studied with me; and also enccouraged me when i want to give up
aylmerchen;ongjingzhi;shaminewee and bensonchan
during Os period; i did last minute studies
burnt midnight oil; you guys just acccompanied me and study together
taught me though its really too late; and having your own things to revise
i simply just don't know how to thank you guys enough
honestly; im suprised at my results
i mean how can i pass humans and poa; when i didn't even study at all
and for maths & sciences;im always weak at them; E8 orr D7; never a pass
its all thank to my tuition teacher; Ms Peng; the one who always look up at me :))
and the four people mentioned<3

now; everyone has to register the JAE thingy
which means; we'll all be going into diff schools or diff courses
all going seperate ways
friends do come and go
but im fear of losing my endeared ones
those that i met during sec; and so close to me
i can never meet any true friends in poly; i mean
its competitive over there; everybody will be busy with their own things

My first choice to 7th; its all design courses
yeah; i still love art
and i hope i can excel during poly days; 3 years
then after poly; or during poly
i will take business as an external course; to further upgrade myself :))
as i don't think im able to get into poly's business
and also; i'm not interest too
so well; pray hard; and strive for my future
i can't slack around anymore; no more regrets anymore

getting back to piano lessons again; this time with theory
not just practical anymore
and either with guitar or violin; shall see first :))

okaye; off to go
all the best to you people; my brothers;sisters;friends :))
LOVES

Thursday, February 08, 2007

7 FEB
IM SOOOOO TICCKLED PINKK TODAY ((:; in seventh heaven right now
i bought a pink hello kitty table; chair and a lamp today
simplyy loveeee it ((:
my daddy asked me did i buy any clothes with the money he gave me
and i told him this" nope! i bought something better; hello kitty!"
HAHHAHA!! he was like.... hahahh! indescribable
but he didn't scold me ((:
cause he knows that i've been liking hello kitty since young

i just can't wait to get the stuffs i reserved at Taka's Sanrio's!
the pink kitty umbrella; watter bottle; and handphone pouch!
WHHHHEEEEEEE!!
anyway; gonna pamper myself
FRIDAY GONNA BE A DOOM
LOLS!
anyway; im not gonna tear open my results slip in school
gonna keep it till home; open with my mom ((:
don't wish to spoil everybody's mood when going out after taking results too

OOHHH YAA; gonna go chinatown with mom and aunt tml
gotta wake up at 1030 tml; omg
hahha; but i know there opened a quite big hello kitty shop
WHHHEEEEE again! hahahha..

in the past; i always hated them(mom& dad)
i mean; don't bother about them; and don't appreciate what they've done for me
but now; i learn to treasure them;
the time we spend together is very short
rthe moments we have; are also very limited
so i have to ccherish whatever i have now
before losing them; like how they left me
talk about them; i do miss themalot
hope they'll be back for chinese new year :))
well; will be looking forward to seeing them too :D:D:D

i gonna find a job
getting real sick of my life; always spending
gonna earn a little living of my own; and not spend my parents money :D
i want to work in hello kitty shop!!!!!!!
ohhh mannn; how demoralising.. ));
hahah! oh well; itss alrights; hope to get some job at children department :))

gotta turn in soon; if not i can't wake up that early later
im always waking up late; like 3 4 pm lahh
omg; hope i ccan wake up at 1030.LOLS
nights pple!

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

im damn shagged now; devastated :((
[#1] i got rejected by the KITTY SHOP; because they wanted permanent worker
benjee helped me call; luckily i didnt call
cause i screamed so loud outside TAKA; when he hanged up the phone
urghhh!! how could this happen to me?!

[#2] i just got to know a shocking secret; it really gave me a big impact lahh
OMG!!

[#3] im at high rrisk of having acute bronchitis
my breathing is getting worse and worse
everynight; i feel tightness in my chest; really can'tr sleep well not breathe properly
i hate this stupid shit; gotta go hospital for check-up

[#4] O's is really killing me;

everybody's busy with their stuffs now; all have new friends;work and studies
its like so difficcult to catch up
either some say busy; ccan't go out; have work; homework; tired or any other reasons
i just miss school days; when everyone gets to see one another and hangs out together
that were the olden days at secondary school; hahaha;
yes; im' turning old. 17 already lehs! omggg

im mentally drained now; restless
gotta sleep; nights pple!<3
hope he's doing well at field camp

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

POEPLE!!! results is out on the Firiday 9th Feb; 2:30pm
GOOD LUCK!!
ooooohhh; i just hate this feeling
knowing that im not gonna make it; yet having no idea what to do
just plainly; emotionless

PRIVATE SCHOOL is a definite solution for me
my parents are not against this; in fact
they encouraged me to go private design school to just learn what i like
instead of retaining back in school; stuying those subjects that i don't like
and end up wasting another year
so just 2 years in the private school towards my goal; and get a degree
BUT I WANT AN O'S CERT!
ITS IMPORTANT! isn't it???

oohhhhh; imagine chinese new yearr
go house visiting; and everyone will be asking " how much did you get?"
arghhh!! i will break down man; definitely!
i don't understand why did they release the results before VALENTINE'S DAY & NEW YEAR
for those people who pass with fyling colours; will be going WHAOWHAOWHAO with their valentines
HAHA! imagine this;
one couple going out on valentine's day
The girl pass with flying colours; the guy flunk his
i wonder they should be happy; or sad
ohh; back to the subject
and as for those people LIKE ME; who will not fare well;
might be crying at home; strolling along the street alone; or jumping down buildings; *touch wood*
well; to those who didn't fare well; don't be discouraged yeah?
it isn't the end of the world :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

AND FOR THOSE POEPLE WHO WANTS TO KNOW MY RESULTS;
see my face that day; i won't be crying; be it pass or fail
but don't ccome asking me how mucch i get;
i might break down infront of you!
sooo; please! KIND HEARTED PEOPLE; DON'T LET ME CCRY IN SCHOOL
for those that hate me;dislike me
please don't purposely!!LET ME OFF THAT DAY!!

well; SO LONG PEEPS!
see you guys around on the 9TH FEBUARY TWO THOUSAND SEVEN
OOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHH............

went out with jz;ayl;lewis;perry & darling ytd
not that fun; cause everybody was damn tired lahh
all because of workkkk
went bugis; did window shopping; hahaha
had lunch at the Teenage Cafe; the food there was good and affordable :D
then headed to town; bought tickets at cine; white lady
had one hour before the movie; so we waked to far east to see lewis' stuff
then rushed all the way back to cine; all of our legs were breaking lahh
my advice to everyone; DO NOT watch white lady; it sucks!
dont ask why; its more of like a love story than horror; it just plainly sucks
thou the sound effects still frightened me lahh; haha
after movie; we went HongKong Cafe to have dinner
ordered quite alot lahh; and we enjoyed our dinner!
trained back to tpy; went snooker zone met junwen
had a few rounds of pool with them
ARGHH!! I LOST TO AYLMER CHEN!!! SHIT MAN!!
anyway; surprisingly; i DID NOT spend my money on clothes or any unneccessary stuff today:D
just on food;movie;pool and transport :D:D:D yay yay!!


HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY STUPID :))
be honoured hors! :D
exactly at 12AM; you had a very warm handshake by ME!
one and only ME ME ME!!
hahaha! yes; i must announce to the whole world :D YAY!

Monday, February 05, 2007

Lifelove, it's ever so strange
it's so full of change
Think that you've worked it out
then BANG
Right out of the blue
Something happens to you
To throw you off course
and then you

Breakdown
Yeah you breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because

It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
it's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared
don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget it's just a ride

hahha; yesterday was looovelyyyyy :D:D
stayed at home the whole afternoon with mom
watched cartoon and ate with her
then headed to town met benjee
that idiot kidnapped my hello kitty keychain the day before;
so i went there to get it back from him.hahha
and also to wait for jz finish work at 9:30; to pass him his shaver
soo; kind-hearted benjee Goh; accompanied me :D
went to Taka's Sanrio;D:D:D:D stayed there for an hour plus
the sales guy even showed me all the monthly catalogs
hahah! i reserved 4 items; the shop doesnt have
and bought 3 items today $68.95
wasn'thappy with what i've spent lahh; not really to my liking
so headed to Scotts ISetan's SANRIO
and Ohh Myy Goooooosshhhh!
3 items really caught my eyes!!
A hello kitty chair- $149
a really really big hello kitty cushion- $199
a black and stylish hello kitty coffee maker; with two hellokitty cups and princess word engraved on the coffee maker- $149
firstly; i need to buy a transformer for the coffee maker
secondly; i can'tr really hug furry stuffs; the cushion
thirdly; others all said that they rather get cushion than the chair
so; finally; i walked away empty-handed :((
anyway; i didn't like the Isetan's salesman attitude too; so nooot frriendly
so; we went Far East to find diane; chat with her awhile :D
then went back to taka find jz
trained to bishan mew sw and had dinner at Mos
after that; cabbed home:))
updated my wishlist :))
andand, benjee gonna help me ask if there's any sales assistant needed at the taka's Sanrio
ooohhh God; i hope i can get the Job
i will be more than happy :D:D::D:D::D:D::D
ahhhhhh!! pray hard

going out tml with my ahhh family once again :D:D:D
so happy
at least all these people are cheering me up
hope he's fine in field camp; hope he doesn't fall sick :D take care!

Sunday, February 04, 2007

well; heer to post about my day
same as any other day lahh; boring
on the 2nd Feb; went out with jz and xiaowei
first time going out with that girl; was fun!
hahha; we met at 830 so went to catch a movie at cine
the both of us were like so blur lahh; didn't even see the time before buying the tickets
luckily the show started at 9;25pm; "Unseeable
thai horror movie; kinda scary
before going into the theatre; we took some photos with the poster
hahah! initially we were crunching the popcorns and zipping drink like nobody's businessthen when the movie got rather tension and sound effects got louder and creepier;
we crouched closer to each other! hahah! even jz! LOLS
then she will hide behind her scarf; and i will cover my eyes
you know; for every horror movie; sound effect will come first to scare us b4 the image ccomes out
so when the sound effect got scarier; xiaowei will like hide behind her scarf and LOOK AT ME
LOLS; and i will cover my ears
and the funniest part was; she missed every scary part
and there's one part she screamed and scared me and jz.LOLS
i mean; if i were an outsider; and see two girls acting so weird in the theatre; i would laugh too
she screamed and hid behind her scarf and asked me " what's that? what's that? what happen?!"
there's one part when we were both scared
she daren't see that part; so she asked me " what's that what's that??!?!?"
and i answered her back" THE RAT THE RAT! " tensionly
HAHAHA! was damn funny lahh



see how empty the theatre was; creeeeeeepy

Saturday, February 03, 2007

she left a letter on my table; handwritten from her
yes; i've to admit
i see her for less than 15 mins a day; sometimes i don't even get to see her
when i wake up; she's never at home
when i'm home; either sleeping; or there to open door for me
i've neglected her presence
now that there's something she's hiding from me; and i've totally no idea
but i know her sickness is getting worse
" if anything happen; please take good care of yourself"
she's worried about my safety; and my health
because of my weak body; there's many things i have to be careful of
yet; the rebellious me always never have the heart to forgive her; and not to take her words of concern seriously
work & work took her away from me when i was young
till PSLE; she quitted her job just to control me as i was really out of hand
sec 1; i've gotten myself into a relationship till sec 4
all these times; when i quarrelled with him over my house
worries and tensions were all over her; whenever i cried in my room
she will hug me sooo tightly; comfort me
how the days were; when i was only in primary school
i would spent at least some of my time eating dinner; shopping and talking to her
now; i never have a chance to talk to her
i mean; whenever i talk to her; i would use that stupid attitude
yes; she will be annoyed & pissed off
there's many times when i would like to apologise to her for being rude
yet; those simple 3 words just stuck right in my mouth
times and times; i told myself & even friends that she doesn't care about me at all
now i finally realise she do care; after that simple piece of letter; she did care
im really sorry for being such a lousy daughter; pampered spoiltbrat
sorry mom; im sorry

Friday, February 02, 2007

today was darnnn boring lahh; but meaningful :))
supposed to meet celest at town at 1230
but i overslept!
it was around 1; she called me
and i picked up my phone
" you overslept huh?"
"huh?? ooooooohhhhhhhhh shit!! i overslept!"
hahha! sorry girl; really very sorry
then didn't meet up; ccause she gotta go home do work too
so i slacked at home; thinking that i will be staying at home
then espall msged me; met jo& her at 3 at tpy
headed to town :))
looked for ben; chatted with him outside take for about half an hour
then went to cine yoshinoya and had luncch with jz kor
after luncch; jz went back to work
left the 3 of us; strolled along the orchard road
not that crowded lahh; didn't do any shopping too
walked to far east; at around 6; jo& espall took 105 home
ccause they have school the next day; gotta do their homework

so; the lonely me went to Heeren; my work place ;))
got my pay; whooo hooo!! im surprised with my pay lahh :P:P:P:P
it was only 6 then; and benjee only knock off at 8.30
so i went to kelly's shop; and we actually chit chat till 9 lahh!
omg; hahah; we're sooooo alike man
our love lives; our families; our characters; everything; just sooo same!
we took turns pouring out our stories; listened to each other
and our usual line was " ya!! me too!"
hahahha!! we talked continuously
even at 9; i didn't wanted to leave; there's just too many to share

but i have to; went back to taka find benjee
jz also knoccked off at that time :))
so the 3 of us went Shaw House's isertan to find valerie
she's working there
said a Hi and then Bidded good-bye to both of them as Jz& i had to rush back to tpy find darling
reached tpy; ate Mac till 1130
then took bus home

this isnt the end.
when i was walking home; along that dark pathway
a group of skate boarders; was skating towards my direction
my eyesight isn't good lahh; futhermore; i have night blindness
so i didn't see clearly
then when they really come close to me; in a rather high speed
i was stunned; didn't know how to move away; afraid of being bang
they too; had diffculties stopping; as that pathway is a slope
then we CRASHED; KAHHHH BIISHHHHHHHHHH
i fainted;;; birds flew above me; i saw stars went BLINGBLINGBLING
HAHAHHA!! no lahh; just kidding
i fell; and hurt my piercing
damn pain lahh; one guy shoulder hit against mine;
really felt like crying; cause its damn pain!
that scenerio was dfamn funny; but scary lahh.lols
then they asked if im alright; helped me up and apologised to me umpteen times
one guy was damn joke lahh; he actually tell his friends
" ehh; i think she gonna cry lors; eh eh call ambulance lehs" (in chinese)
HAHHAHAH!! what does ambulance gotta do with crying?
after saying nvmnvm for a few times; i walked back home :))

now; i have phobia of skateboards.LOLS

A simple & happy girl who loves sunshine.
Her endeared ones are her essentials.
Loves being in a crowd, yet comfortable being alone
Loves to smile, yet tends to get emotional
Has extreme moodswings,super high & low at times

Loves friendly & cheerful people :)
loves to see everybody smiles,
yes you, SMILE!


JIAYING
11 November 1990
Palin Art School
Artiris
swe3thugz90@Hotmail.com

LOVES!

ENDEARED ONES ♥ God
♥ Family
♥ My bigbig Family!
♥ Boyfriend
♥ Snowie
♥ Nyp cliques
♥ Heeren Girls :)
♥ Sunshine
♥ Piano
♥ Arts & Design
♥ Sunflowers
♥ Singing

LOATHES!

NO SWEET TALKS
Do not boot lick me either
do not accuse me, i fucking hate that
do not insult my friends & family
losing my endeared ones
Flowers except sunflowers :)
Soft toys except hellokitty,kalm & winnie the pooh :)

i know i'm weird :)

WISH!

everybody to be happy
to be with my endeared ones forever!!!
nafa
a box full of yellow stars
a box full of sweets with pink shiny wrappers
black gucci bag
pink dior wallet
hello kitty x'mas tree
a day with ALL my bigbig family
a beautiful sweet 17
hello kitty blanket
sunflowers!
Queen's couture top

MAKE A SOUND!

DARLINKS!

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MUSIC!

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