when i was down at that time;
you asked me this question
" if i'm lost in a forest; would i turn back; move forward;turn left; turn right; or stand at my spot"
that time my answer was to stand at my spot; and wait for miracle to happen
how stupid huh? wait for miracle to happen
but yes; it did happen
you came into my life; brightened up my days and nights
brought laughters and tears; threw away my troubles and heartaches
there was even times when you took them away from me; and suffer the pain for me
you're not that clown that stand on the stage to perform for me; just to entertain me
you're that sun; that one and only sun that i can see; and feel
thanks for being with me this crucial period; teaching me many things that im not capable of
teaching me to be more sensible; doing stupid things just to put a smile on my face; teaching me that smiling exercise;
drying my tears when i cried; knowing what happen to me even when i don't say anything at all; just by looking at my eyes you knew what im thinking
that's the way you look at me
no one ever saw me like you do

i always don't want to see you sad; moody or hurt
so you always put up that brave image to ensure me that everything's alright
yes; alright to me; but not you
it hurt so bad to see you do things just to protect me;
yet; what did i give you in return?
im that heartless one that hurt you the most
not that star or moon that will shine on you upon your darkest moment
sorry for breaking promises

now; im asking you back that question
which way will you turn to?

Thursday, December 28, 2006

i want to be an air-stewardess;a special one :D
i want to travel around the world; see the other sidesof the world
the fortunate ones and the suffering ones
first place- i want to fly to a beautiful beach:D
2nd-place- africa; i wanna help those unfortunate kids and elders
give them clothes; food and build them beautiful houses
3rd place- hello kitty


gonna work for one month and then quit
MAIN REASON- to enjoy my that few more months with my friends& family
wanna go for my interests
will take up piano lessons; fashion and designs courses maybe
check out the schools i want to head after Os results is released
improve my skills after knowing what my course requires
definitely learn more about com; photoshop everything
and also photography
im depending all on myself; my future is in my own hand

as what my kor said; secondary life is where we meet best friends in our lives
primary school; we're too immature
always argue and stuffs; say what" i dont friend you already" haha
polytechnics; we start to be very competitive; projects and everything
people there are more crafty; so as to get good results and moreover; a better job
working life is worse; people there can't be trusted
everybody may appear nice; but inside they're up to smth
they can stab you at the back anytime just to get you out of the company; less competitors
and definitely higher chances of getting promoted
adult life; we all get married; no time for each other
work and families; that's when we friends drift away

i've to admit; its very true
i ever said i regret for coming into FTPSS; that's the school
but i've never regret knowing the people there
some drifted away from me; some have been standing just beside me for these four years and still counting
some i knew not long ago; some just 2 or 3 years
some just a hi-bye friends
these are the wonderful people that has made my secondary beautiful
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why do people have to leave?
no matter what promise they made; how hard they tried just to stand beside you; how much they don't want to leave you
they'll still go; whether happily or reluctantly
im also one of them
once said "i wont leave you" "you're not alone" and stuffs like that
they're really not sweet talkings; but really what i wanna do at that very moment
but everytime i says that; i will say i can't foresee the future; i won't know if i will leave you in the future; but i won't now
in the end; i really leave in the future
how much i want to apologise; how sorry i was
how much i want to torture myself back for hurting others
i really hate myself now; i swear
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im really very very sorry
sorry:((

Nobody likes to hurt another person, especially somebody they have been close to, and it is often very easy to guilt trip somebody into staying with you when they are trying to end things.
When you use guilt as a way to stop a break up you not only cheat yourself out of having a good and true relationship, you foster resentment in the other person which could lead to greater pain and heart ache in the future

darling; take care of your middle finger rights?lols
im really very angry when i heard about his attitude; sad too
i bet the cut wasn't as painful as how he had hurt you; am i right?
put all these stupid problems aside first kkaye?
the "ahhh" family will always be there for you; especially me! :D:D:D
LOVES! <3


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right now i don't wish to think about any other thing
shall take things step by step; slow and steady
i suppose?
just hope won't hurt anyone anymore
maybe by keeping a distance might help; i hope so
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my leg hurts badly now; kept limping
guess stand too long during work hours le bahh; haha
ciao! :D

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

im really not in the mood now people
sorry that i showed attitude; and didn't reply msg
im just so so lost
thought work can occcupy myself; it did; but not today
i was so damn restless today; my eyes hurt badly; my legs ached; my mood was bad
even met a damn nasty customer today; biatch

her words were harsh; but true and enough to wake me up
she said i will continue hurt them even deeper if i continue to ignore
i'll hurt them; maybe
sorry if my words are harsh or anything; but i just have to say
i always thought i could and avoid everything; pretend to put on a smile thinking its just a joke
but no matter what; things have to come to an end; even life
so; i can't run away anymore; i could no longer put on that pathetic smile
or even hide behind that masquerade
i will not accept anybody;
i thought i could; but i really can't force myself to
i feel so guilty; saying those that were just instant feelings
i don't want to hurt myself; or even actually hurt you guys more
i may not be living happily now; may not be the happiest girl
but i wish i am; so if you guys wish i can be
please let me be; by just being friends
there are things i definitely can't let go; i wont
they're beautiful sweet bitter memories that keep me learning
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at this point of time; i really wish they're here by my side
guiding me
what i do now might be a wrong choice fo the future; i might regret
but i rather let go now; rather than causing more hurt till future
i can't foresee the future; i don't wish to too
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sorry; will read your mail tml =))
nights nights

so fast; xmas is over
its 26th today; whao
i really can't imagine how fast everything seems

yesterday i got off; supervisor gave me
i wasn't happy at all at first; cause darling & bros were all working till 10!
i thought im gonna spend a lonely xmas; haha
but i went to watch movie with jz & alvin's group
the Night at the Museum; nice show!
then met up with stupid; went to take photos
until 5 plus; leigh& co came too; then cabbed home
slept will 1 plus; slacked aroung; watched The Incredibles
then went to bishan to find darling ang jz
haha; they are working at Best as sale promoters
mark came to find me; accompanied shop for darling's and jz's xmas presents
i bought darling a purple handphone pacifier; its really sweet
when there's a call or sms; the pacifier will change colour=))
i got myself a pink one; so we got the same=))
got jz kor a back massager;ahaha with a pig head
its cute! kor always complain backpain mahh
hahah; then gave each them a paper card=))
afterwhich; mark and i walked around j8
really a long time since we went shopping together; haha
then headed to novena; there's a new shopping centre called Vilo city
hahah; not vivo city
connected to Novena shopping centre
saw Flash and slash; went in to have a look
hahah! saw Emily The Strange stuffs
i picked a few clothes and tried
hahah! wanted to buy all the clothes i've tried; cause they're all so nice!
the red top- $45
black jeans- $99
black skirt- $75
black and white checked skirt- $79
but mark kept casking me not to buy; save money
hahah; so i only bought at red top and black skirt
gonna get a cheaper yet nicer black jeans :D:D
then went to meet celest & family
had dinner with them at Magic Wok; Thai food
hahha; chat with the Mom and auntie about my job all these
after dinner went Ntuc with her mom and brothers& cousins
really had so much fun; Shaun's really a joker lahh;hahah

around 945; mark sent me to mrt and i trained to Bishan
met Jz and darling
afterwhich we trained to tpy to meet perry
then went mac to eat and meet Ayl and Ed
hahah; sat down talked
was very tired and had no mood to go anywhere
they sent me off at 88 bus stop and i went home

tml gotta work le; hahah
kinda happy; cos can keep myself and my mind occupied
assure my mind won't go astray
haha; but kinda sad; cos can't go out again
i really miss my friends=((
16 more days; its gonna be very fast
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sleeping time=))
nighty nights!

Sunday, December 24, 2006

im rather sad now; don't know what's the reason behind
but just feeling down :))
maybe is the song im listening right now
Sad love story and it's songs still stuck in my mind
my heart drops whenever i think of the story or listen to the song
ohmygosh; im so emotional.haha

today i've sold so many bags! haha
they actually called me the "bag girl"
and i've served this pretty cute couple
hahaha;they wanted to buy bags for their children; what a sweet parents huh?
they bought one bag that cost 159 another 95
i taught them the "trendy" way of carrying a crumpler and a sling bag
and the daddy was damn cute lahh; said he also want to et one for himself
to make him look more stylo; and the wife gave him this weird face and said" please lahh; you're an uncle"
hahahha!! arent they just so cute??

then celest bjorn and mark came to find me today
mark bought me this high cut emily shoe that i wanted; and insisted that to be one of my xmas present too
but i demanded to repay him back; he has already given me a Bebe shirt ytd!
so he said 2 years later then i repay him back; promised! =))
bjorn came to get a billabong belt as his pants was so loose! hahah!
then celest bought a stylish black crystal hat; and nail-art
saw joshua and one of my st nick-pri school friend too
then leigh came; haha
i knew he was up to something; he asked me to follow him
then i saw stupid; he was carrying a really big hello kitty!
hahah! i was like..damn damn paiseh lahh
my collegues all looked at me; and whao! hahah

when i walked to somerset mrt that time; i was damn tired
the things were all so heavy! haha
and when i aboard mrt and Bus *88 that time; everybody was starring at me
oh..and i did a good deed today!=))
in the mrt; i think somebody dropped a glass bottle of soya sauce previously
and the glass bottle was left on the floor in a plastic bag; and the sauce has spilled
and the bottle was just right at the door
so people came in who didn't realise the bottle; will kicked the bottle or tripped over it
everybody just stared at it and see it rolling on the floor;
without doing anything
i thought of picking up the bottle; at first i felt it was rather stupid and pai seh
but when the train stopped at tpy; i actually picked it up
hahah; but i avoided the eyes of the passengers
met jz and sw for dinner at mac
discussed and chitchat about our workplace
miss my brothers and sisters really very much;hais
maybe gonna stop work after Chinese New year=))
tomorrow is xmas eve!; anyone going anywhere around 10pm plus? haha
im only gonna meet my pals on 25th;xmas day itself
hahaha..nvm.maybe will be dead tired by tml=))
we shall see
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nights world! im sleepy now=))

Saturday, December 23, 2006

finally! i did some shopping at last
hahaha; at my own work place..LOLS
didn't shoop for a really long time;so decided to pamper myself today:D:D
bought a white jacket;
black jumper;
a demin- skirt;
a pair of pink crystal earrings;
a beautiful pink cross necklace;
these cost me 180 bucks altogether=))

oh.. my beloved espall mei and jodie dear came to visit me!
its was like only 11.30 am lahh..hahha! i just started work only
then; surprisingly! my precious everything came to find me! yayness!
miss her so much! she came with alvin kor
and that sweet lil' girl bought me a box of hello kitty biscuits and a packet of own-picked candies
love you sooo much my loved ones x))
stupid and william came too;
as usual; stupid is always full of tricks
he stole a really beautiful pink x'mas ball from heeren's x'mas tree
hahahah! thanks :D:D
mark and yianwei came too;
these two guys started their "gay" session again
tried hats and tops; wasted my time! hahha
and mark actually wanted to complain to my manager! haha!
my collegue ganged up with me.,bleah!
he bought me a cup of choc bubble tea; and a Bebe black crystal top for x'mas present
thanks!! and thanks for the bicycle ride to Dhoby Ghaut..hahha!

omg! 2 more days to x'mas eve! and 3 more days to x'mas!
its like... so fast??
time really flies; too fast
i gotta get all my x'mas presents for my beloved ones
but i got no time!
so all my loved peeps; forgive me for the belated x'mas presents
will get them all as soon as possible! =))
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i wonder if this world is really fair
why some people lead such a good life; while others live in poverty
like sad love story; the guy did so much; yet everytime he get hurts; and eventually died at such a young age
he didn't even do anything bad; not even a sin
yet the bad;get to be alive and even escaped from his crime
what on earth is this?
okaye fine..hahha
its just a show please jiaying :D:D
but it isnt fair!! korean directors are always that evil
hahaha. they have to make their dramas that heart aching and torturing
hey! my tears are very precious kaye! lols
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getting late soon; shall turn in soon
nights world! =))
oh yeah; jz kor and stupid get well soon! <3

Thursday, December 21, 2006

is there really true love in this world?
im starting not to believe it anymore
i always believe there's love at first sight; first love and forever love
how naive i was
love always begin so sweet and loving
no quarrels and all just giving in; hugs
soon true colours will be shown; possessiveness;over protective;jealousy
all these are the obstacles that can really break a fragile heart or even two
promises will always turn into empty promises
" actions speaks louder than words"

just finished watching a korean drama "Sad Love Story"
true; korean dramas are always crying and sobbing; and really long winded
but this story really touched me deeply
tears; manymany tears has been shed; almost every disc
the guy did so much to be with his childhood sweetheart
he did so much for his goodfriend
im emotionally weak now; very weak.haha!

the guy got beaten up just to save that girl; he worked so hard just to fly over to States to find her
he promised to let her stand on a beautiful big stage and sing the song he composed for her; he did
he promised to let her be the most fortunate girl in the whole wide world; she was
he promised to find her after the 100th letter; he did
he promised to sit at the front and watch her sing his song on the stage; he didn't break that promise though he's dying soon
he got shot at his chest; had to be hospitalised; but he begged his goodfriend to bring him to the performance
when she sang the last word; his eyes were filled with tears; he want to say so much; but can't
he tried so hard to keep his eyes open; saying his final words in his heart; looking at her
" you look so beautiful on the stage
Hae-na; the most beautiful girl in my whole wide worldl; Park Hae-Na
promise me you must smile beautifully
even without me; you must live fortunately
sarang heyo(i love you) "
how deep his love for her is;
its too deep to be measured =))
how strong their love is;
its too strong to be broken too

how sad this story is;
but its definitely not real; no guy will be that noble
its just another fairytale; but a sad ending

didn't go work today; sick agaaiiinnn
yesterday was great=))
business was rather good at 77th street
sold quite a number of bags and ladies tops
angie offered me merci chocs again.haha
celest came to buy from me a suspender; psycho-ed her buy other stuffs
haha.stupid & co, william came to visit me too =))
saw jerome,jason and randy.haha!
jerome got so many piercings and complained that he just got fired.LOLS
its like..duh!!
he and his friends came here to do nose piercing; scary lahh omg.
jodie and lewis came too! x))
but that stupid lewis came to disturb me; asked me teach him to tie a tie.LOLS

after work went to meet jz ayl and ed; darling went to meet her stead=))
kinda feel sad for her; she really really did so much just to have one glance at him
how sweeeet love can be huh?x))
i ate 8 sushi and 1 chicken burger.HAHHA!
went to snooker zone
the guys each took turns to play 2 rounds
then i played loser punch with ayl.HAHAH!
first round- i hit in the black ball accidently; so paid 40cents for the game
2nd round- ayl hit in the black ball too; but he paid 1.40 buck! HAHAH!
and he actually laughed at me for the 1st round.
3rd round- we got a fair competition.hahah.i WON!
but can say yesterday wasn't any of our best lahh
though it was fun.LOLS

its really nice; yet tiring
to meet my pals after work; but how loving it is
i misss them sooo much; really
really wish to hang out more with my bros and sis
we discussed around febuary or march quit our job and enjoy holiday till april
gonna open another chalet
sad thing is; we all gotta work on x'mas=((
but it okayye; i guess
we can always hang out after work =))

sometimes i really don't understand;
one says this and yet do that
does actions really speaks louder than words?

A fragile heart was broken before; i don't think it could endure another pain
don't break this fragile heart

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

TUESDAY 20dec2006
whao; just showered =))
today work was kinda relaxing; i was day dreaming most of the time
didn't pay much attention to the customers; too tired i think
slept kinda late last night =))
anyway; today was boring
not many customers too; so got nobody to serve
new 77th streeter has join us=))
her name is ervina; nice girl
ate chicken rice for lunch today; haha
my collegues all know that i don't have good appetite; but still ask me to eat
how caring are they=))
angie offered us merci chocolate; sweet!
was raining damn heavily again; wanted to walk under rain like ytd
luckily ervina had an umbrella; and i was damn lucky that i met her outside heeren
so the both of us walked under one umbrella all the way to somerset mrt
i alighted at tpy; met sw and jz
they started working today at j8 Best=))
went Mos to eat; met some idiotic moroons there
made sarcastic laughters and teases; cold stares
we just ignore them and definitely did not spoil our day
they aren't that powerful to spoil our day; we ain't that stupid
got to the bus stop; saw them again
ahhhh.. rubbish; what a SMALL world huh.
was kinda angry with them; but what for?
my friends cheered me up=))
at least i still able to catch up with sw and jz
we made a deal to meet up everynight at tpy after work whenever we're free
will ask ayl and ed along another time=))
today perry and azu came to visit me :D
since the day i started working; different people came to visit me
bought me drinks and food
how nice x)) love you guys

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone who means alot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you have to let go

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

don't be sorry for coming into my world;
don't feel bad that you'are adding on to my troubles and worries
i want none of these
i more than happy and glad that we got to know each other
you're my sun=))
sometimes you might be covered by dark and thich clouds; followed by loud thunderstorm
that's when darkness falls on me
but that isn't the end; you still go through miles just to fight away all these clouds, obstacles
again; its sunshine after rain=))
you've taught me alot; really alot
i don't wanna say goodbye; neither i want to leave
its a different story; i just can't simply just wave a goodbye and say good night
and to be gone forever=))

Never say goodbye when you still want to try
Never give when you still feel you can take it
Never say you don't love that person anymore when you can't let go

my brothers and sisters too; you're all my remedies
my loved ones that i can't let go anytime; anywhere
my sisters that respect me as a jie and love me for who i am for almost 4 years
my brothers that treat me like their meimei though sometimes like a bro instead; always there to take care of me; play with me
these people who showered that endless love upon me; that's all i need
you guys by my side=))

Monday, December 18, 2006

whao.. it has been quite a long time since my last entry
not so tired today nor busy; so shall update the things that happened recently
good news; i've got a job! since thursday till now! x))
at heeren 77th street
first day was damn damn tired! have to stand the whole 10 hours
oh my goodness; haha.. but getting used to it now x))
tooka day off on sunday 18dec; went to the zoo to celebrate jo's belated bday
ayl jz ed lewis sw espall jo and i; we got 8 free tickets
haha! thanks to jz's daddy; thanks uncle!

enjoyed ourselves to the fullest
half way rain;but it definitely didn't spoil our day
the penguin part was the cutest;hahah!
we moved umbrella up and down; and the penguins moved their head up and down too!
hahah! was damn cute lahh!
we fought chased one another; teased and made fools out of ourselves
especially that edmund; joker king
hahah!
came out names like maomao gongzhu; xiaolongzhu; fangpiwang;
hahah! and edmund came out with this>> 787.. (chimpanzee)
HAHAHHA!! he's damn lame lah
got drenched and stuff like that; many things happenedx))

working isn't easy; tiring
but it's fun! a great experience too
test my patience and to meet different types of people
most of the customers i've met were understanding and kind one toox))
i've learn many things there
i like my collegues=)) they're very nice and caring
all treat me like a small sister; teach me new stuff too

however; kinda miss my carefree life
most importantly; i miss my friends
miss hanging out with them=((


Love starts with a smile, developes with a kiss nd ends with a tear
the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

i've got a job!; hopefully.haha!
met jz and perry today at 1pm ; took 159 to serangoon north ave 5
the Ban Teck Han Building to have interview at 77th street
the office was damn stylish lahh; saw elim Chew inside her office
haha; but stupid thing was; they said the interview was at Heeren -.-
so trained to somerset and headed to Heeren
quite a few girls there; only one guy
filled up a form and joined the queue
one after one; its finally myy turn to get interviewed
haha! the interviewers were 2 ladies
very friendly and polite
questioned me awhile then said i got the job! whoohoo!
but said will call me tml to tell me where im posted to
so hopefully; they didn't fool me.. yeah
after that went taka Mos to have lunch; saw benjamin there
so he joined us for lunch; haha; he dressed up sooo smart!
then went to in Ct's mom and zhixuan at the female department
awhile later; went to kpool played 2 rounds then headed home
was home so early; haha x))
ate dinner and watched tv with mom; home sweet home



It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but
what is the most painful is love someone and never finding
the courage to let the person know how you feel.

So giving someone all your love is necver an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts but if it doesnt, be content it grew in yours.

jz kor will be flying tml 5 am; how sad
gonna miss him;))
bon voyage kor!
jodie is coming back tml! yayness!! :))

went vivo city and town with jz and perry today
bought 4 hello kitty stuffs :D:D
wanted to buy a dispenser; that white cabinet; the pink one too
but perry and jz stopped me; :'( they don't allow me anyhow spend money
hahah.. went home quite early too;
as usual; nobody's at home =))

Did "spring cleaning" in my room
and to realise that im really that spendthrift
hahaha; so many stuff toys; candies and stuff in my room
arranged my display cabinet
three are occupied with my winnie the pooh stuffs;
the other three are my hello kitty stuffs
one with all my flowers; dried and artificials one
the last one with my "Me to You" bears =))
some are presents from my beloved ones
from kindergarden to secondary; so many precious little things they have made or bought for me
i can even remember every gift is given by who; and memories just flashed through my mind
how beautiful =)) i miss everything
especially the days before my secondary life

found this small box; covered with dust
saw a letter written by her; this is what it reads

Everyone Needs Someone


People need people and friends need friends
And we all need love for a full life depends
Not on vast riches or great acclaim
Not on success or on worldly fame
But just in knowing that someone cares
And hold us close in their thoughts and prayers
For only the knowledge that we're understood
Makes everyday living feel WONDERFULLY GOOD
And we rob ourselves of life's greatest need
When we 'lock up our hearts' and fail to head
The outstretched hand reaching to find
A kindred spirit whose heeart and mind
Are lonely and longing to somehow share
Our joys and sorrows and to make us aware
That life's completeness and richness depends
On the things we share with our loved ones and friends


i used to depend on her; so much
now she's so far away from me; so near yet so far
but i still depend on her; mentally
she's the one that keep me moving; she's the sunshine that blossom me from a seedling to a tree
her smile always warmth my heart; though i couldn't see her now
but i still hold her picture close to my heart; so close
i miss you dearly

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

The pictures at chalet; 1dec to 3dec
ENJOY! :))

Monday, December 11, 2006

went out with ayl jz and sw today; the ahhhh family :D:D
went long john to eat then to CRC play pool and snooker

POOL
first round- jz and i =(( jz won
second round- sw and ayl ; ayl won
third round- jz and sw; jz won again!
forth round- ayl and i; I WON!

haha! actually forth round wasnt a fair game; jz accidently pushed one ball in for ayl
hahaha. so it was a foul for ayl; and i just hit the black ball in
ayl wasn't happy; kept complaining -.-
so i challenged him loser punch; he was on
haha! in the end i still won!
kor ah kor; i better than you lahh..admit please x))
hahah! :P

SNOOKER
hahaha; we didn't really play this game seriously
everyone hit at least one red ball in; i hit the least
haha; yet i scored the highest
cause others kept foul; they played quite serious
i was playing there;instead
hahaha..

after that went J8 with jz; was damn moody
angry and upset over myself
oh and ayl jz sw got a job le
they can start next week; that means lesser time with them =((
gonna be lonely soul again; hais
stupid trip lahh..arghh!
now i really wanna go aus; i miss them so much


I NEED A JOB URGENTLY!
okaye; be more realistic
I NEED CASSHHH!!! MONEYMONEYMONEY!!

i really miss the old days
i don't want be alone anymore; enough
i can't take it anymore
i always deny the fact; ending up avoiding everything
i miss all of you...
i don't want be the strong grown-up jiaying anymore
i rather be the small and naive girl that always depend on you guys

Saturday, December 09, 2006

15 days to x'mas
dearest santa claus MR St Nicholas; please grant me :D

**_______// C h r i s t m a s w i i s h e s_______\\**
- pink sony vaio laptopC-13
- japan; taiwan; korea; paris
- that white hello kitty cabinet
- hello kitty cellphone
- hello kitty table
- a new handphone
- more cash
- a delicious meal
- a/x belt
- birkenstock papillo footwear
- adidas jacket
- hello kitty jacket
- that pair of miss sixty jeans
- more time with friends and family
- ngee ann poly; lasalle
- daddy's career improve
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its never ending...
im never contented =))
but i'll be happy just enough to have my friends around me
*CHEERX#

back home early today x)); enjoyed myself
went jz's house; initially planned with sw jz to blade there
was there at 130; jz was at swimming complex with ayl & co; darling havent reach yet
when daarling finally arrived; she asked me to go to the playground
when i walked there; i was damn touched when i saw a birthday cake on the table
i was more suprisedc when sw shouted" eh come out lahh"
i thought it was jz they all; but it was a much special person
my sister; espall x))
she was hiding behind a pillar; and pop out infront of me out of the blue
i was so dammnn happy; that i cried
she called me silly for crying; haha; they were the silly ones
but much appreciated
though the cake was small; but it was beautiful; so beautiful
darling and espall sang me "happy birthday" song
opened presents
espall gave me a super big and long letter; the biggest and longest letter i ever recieved
a bar of big chocolate; a puzzle which she has fixed when she's 5; a birthday card; and a forever friends photo album
how meaningful; the puzzle she gave me which belongs to her since young
now she gave it to me
darling gave me a nice pencil holder;with a small little bear in the middle and 375 hello kitty stickers
though she's in financial difficulty; she still spend every single cent she got just to throw me a celebration
that time at chalet; darling& co gave me a surprise too
thanks my bros and sisters =)) love you guys lots
i can say im the luckiest girl in the worldwide world; able to have friends like you guys
i had so many birthday suprises; much thanks to all of you
to espall mei; i was damn damn happy today
i knew you wouldn't break your promise to celebrate my birthday with me; no matter how belated it is
but i really didn't expect it to be today; after you lied to me you had ballet today
you don't know how happy i was when i saw you
after today; i couldn't imagine how am i gonna let go of you guys
before Os; im always anticipating for the holidays
but now; im regretting; hoping that time will turn back and stop
i miss the days we had in school; though there were lessons and exams
yet i could spend more time together with you all
be it during recess; in class or even assembly

how fun it was when we always sneak into one another's classrooms
how we'd bend over or pass by one another's calssrooms just to have a peep
how we'd laugh at one another when one get punished
how we'd tease when one act like a fool
how we'd run into one another's classrooms just to wish good luck for exams or tests
how we'd cheat during class tests together
how we'd talk about the people in our class
how we'd complain and gossip about the teachers we used to dislike
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so many...
the stories we had in schoold; the pictures and images we captured
everything...... formed into a fixed puzzle; how beautiful
its a whole new world now; holidays and holidays
seeing one another's faces lesser each day
some are working; some in holidays
i miss school days!<3

sat down at jz's house downstairs; roller blade and chit chat with espall;darling
then went dinner with jz's parents and darling
went kovan there to eat chicken rice
then jz's parents brought us to bendemeer to see hello kitty stuffs; his mom knows i like hello kitty
haha! how nice of her
then so many things caught my eyes!
i bought a kitty cordless phone; a floor mat; a kitty alarm clock; a kitty watch; a kitty hanger
gonna go there again another day
the kitty table; cabinet from big size to small; the white and transparent kitty cupboard
ahhh!! all so attractive!
omg!

right now; i don't want anything
just want her to get well soon; and to ameline; please make the right choice
im always here for you; mentally
take care; misses<3

Thursday, December 07, 2006

ahh! my nose is really killing me big time
what's the time now?
5:41AM!! AM!! omg!!
i was sleeping so soundly for the past 2 hours; before my nose kept running and sneezing
arghhh!!
being sick isn't that great
during school days are priviledges; able to skip the boring lessons
but sick during holidays???
its a hell no-no..
ohmygosh. argh
watching some stupid show right now; no nice cartoon show right now

tml's ms Lim wedding; yayness!
my science teacher is getting married! x))
gotta get her something by today; i can't be going to her house empty handed right?
aye; so what should i get her? hahahha..no idea yet

oh and i rejected a job again today..hahaha
Recruit Express called and asked if im in favour of being a newspaper girl
haha. to distribute newspaper in the morning at mrt station
it starts at 7.30 AM!
and the work is only 2 hours aday with just $5/hour
jz aylmer and i rejected that
hahaha..if we carry on being this kinda spoiltbrat; we aint gonna get any job
im in need of cash!! hahaha
i can't sleep! tell me how to sleep?

went out with espall and jodie ytd; jo's going taiwan today
met at enter mac; had my lunch x))
then headed to orchard
watched happy feet; great show
worth it man; the penguins were so cute!
its about penguins; they all have this singing ability once they're born
however; if one drops a penguin egg; something wrong will happen to the baby
so this penguin called "mambo" 's daddy dropped him when he's still an egg
when the egg hatched; mambo's leg kept dancing; tap dancing
and all the baby penguins went for singing lessons; all can sing so beautifully except mambo
eversince the fish supply at the penguins' area has decrease rapily; the elders assumed that mambo was an omen
however; mambo claimed that it was the aliens which refer to we humans; were the one that's catching all the fishes
obviously; the elders all did not believe his words; there's no such thing as aliens
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im lazy to write about the rest.hahah
hurry catch this marvelous cartoon if you haven x))
after the movie; we went to meet lynn
then went to have our dinner and back to home
all of us are growing; and definitely moving on our own paths
so more catch ups needed before we all go on seperate ways x))
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gonna meet daphne; my precious tml!
it has been a really long time since i last saw her
it was during my Os.omg
how long is that??
can't wait!
nights world!





*_______//hold me tight//_______*

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

fuck lahh.. now telling me not sure going hongkong anot
its like playing with my holidays lahh
because of this stupid hongkong trip; it caused me some diffculties in finding jobs
now parents said not sure???
arghhh!!
if i've knew earlier; i'd have chose not to go and would be working; earning some money instead!
what the hell??
what kinda holiday is this man???????
stupid weddings and everything; caused so many problems
fuck lah!!ARGHHHH!!

mixed feelings now; depressed, inflamed, confused and sick
arghh!!
my nose is running like a stupid water tap....
my head hurts like one kind; the back of my head hurts real bad
my throat is sooo dry my eyes can hardly open.. omg
why am i always falling sick; this time rather bad

came back from celest house
don't wish to mention anything
flared temper at mom; irritated
no food at home too! wth??
arghhh!! angry!!

nvm.. relax!
chill jiaying
omg! i miss chalet days!
shall update about chalet stuff when i've the mood
right now; just want to sleep!
no proper sleep for a very long period
always sleeping late or didn't even sleep
and end up waking early. -.-
gotta make my hair tml; for cousin's wedding on the 10th
need to do few days in advance
arhhhh;
adios world! goodnight

A simple & happy girl who loves sunshine.
Her endeared ones are her essentials.
Loves being in a crowd, yet comfortable being alone
Loves to smile, yet tends to get emotional
Has extreme moodswings,super high & low at times

Loves friendly & cheerful people :)
loves to see everybody smiles,
yes you, SMILE!


JIAYING
11 November 1990
Palin Art School
Artiris
swe3thugz90@Hotmail.com

LOVES!

ENDEARED ONES ♥ God
♥ Family
♥ My bigbig Family!
♥ Boyfriend
♥ Snowie
♥ Nyp cliques
♥ Heeren Girls :)
♥ Sunshine
♥ Piano
♥ Arts & Design
♥ Sunflowers
♥ Singing

LOATHES!

NO SWEET TALKS
Do not boot lick me either
do not accuse me, i fucking hate that
do not insult my friends & family
losing my endeared ones
Flowers except sunflowers :)
Soft toys except hellokitty,kalm & winnie the pooh :)

i know i'm weird :)

WISH!

everybody to be happy
to be with my endeared ones forever!!!
nafa
a box full of yellow stars
a box full of sweets with pink shiny wrappers
black gucci bag
pink dior wallet
hello kitty x'mas tree
a day with ALL my bigbig family
a beautiful sweet 17
hello kitty blanket
sunflowers!
Queen's couture top

MAKE A SOUND!

DARLINKS!

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