Saturday, October 28, 2006
DARLING, i blog everyday to update you with my daily life mahh
nowdays can only see you once or twicel; so i want you to know what's
revolving around me! lols!
you know how much i missed you? omg; im not lesbian please; but she's my bestie darling=))
didn't blog about 26october2006; was too tired
i went school studied awhile and celest came to pick me from school
wanted to go orchard to get herself a suitable dress for friend's wedding; or go music clinic
but we went enter and ate sakae sushi instead; not enough time that's why
although its only a 1 hour or 2 of meeting up; but we sure chat about quite alot of stuff
after sakae; she sent me back to school for night study
then went south cc with jz kor and co
awhile later, celest; hongzhi; mark came to pick me from school opp
went to airport to send mark to mongolia=))
ate burgerking and off he go! hahaha
8 hours of flight.OMG
today 27october2006; i went study with jz kor ayl kor and perry in library
but it was only awhile; cause school has to be closed by 6; its a public holiday; no more night study too
supposed to meet celest to watch some performance; but rejected her.sorry girl!
jz's parents came to pick us; sent ayl kor home then us to braddel mac to meet darling
but darling called and said she couldn't make it; quarreled with her mom=((
so me and jz went to his house downstairs study ; mac was too cold
later darling called said she could come again for supper with her bro
me and jz walked back to braddel mac to meet her; but she had to go le!=((
omg! but i still get to see her
darling sorry i shouted at you and di siao you!.hahah. was urgent and phone no batt!
sorry okaye?=))
walked back to jz house downstairs; chatted until 11 plus
talked about our chalet; prom night and others
now; i'm having a war with him ; a misunderstanding
again i shall say
when can we stop quarreling or arguing?
why must you always assume things?
its just merely a talk on the phone; you know i can't concentrate well when im on the phone right?
i didn't like talking on the phone; yeah its true
but it doesnt mean i can't talk on the phone; i did conference with you guys too right?
i said sorry you scolded me back; i admit its my fault for being harsh
but sometimes i really couldn't understand; why are you doubting me?
i really did study; i did maybe not to the extend; but at least i've tried
you guys can play cards talk joke all these; why can't i?
once i pick up my phone to sms or what; you say me; what about you?
i really appreciate the way you guys care for me; but its just too unfair; isnt it?
i have my own freedom too; doesn't mean i have to study when i've free time
you think i don't wanna be as smart as you guys? i wish i am; i hope i can
i have my own reasons for not being able to sleep well; not cause of the talk; but is the loneliness i felt
you'll never understand; because i've said sorry for upteen times but to no avail
you said this
i don't quarrel for one sorry, for fuck sial, is uselessremember that sentence; don't say i didn't give in; it was your choice
leave or stay; i care no more; stop saying useless things like saying you're a failure or whatever to make us feel guilty
we've tried our best; or lets say i've did; i know you've too;))
i really don't wanna break this friendship bond between us; the four of us
one of us already wanna get out; im not allowing this
Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
12:39 AM
