Friday, January 18, 2008
i wanna thank my
brothers of six, esp
jz kor &
aylmer :)
for being here for me always, no matter what.
Ervina & kelly, thanks for those random smses, shows how much i mean to you girls
Darren ng, for showing me stupid youtube videos just to make me laugh, cheering me up on msn ,simple text msges like " hey sister,cheer up:)" or
suan me like nobody's businessBenjee, for taking so good care of me whenever i'm with you, & that ear piece to keep me accompanied :)
Venie, that msn chat:), i know
you care, & i'm not forgotten
Diane mei & precious, those tags on my tagboards, knowing that i'm not forgotten:)
my beloved
boyfriend, who's always giving in & trying to understand me
& most imptly,
espall mei, for knocking some sense out of me.
you still mean alot to me, & i do still have trust in you,
since 2003 :)
& to
darling, thou this time quarrel was a tragic to both of us,
but i've learnt to understand more about our group,
more about you, & treasure this friendship:)
i just need these pple to be here, that's all,
to make my life a meaningful one:)
gonna get a new blog,
because this blog is filled with sad memories, don't wanna bring all thes into my year 2008:D
Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
2:52 AM
right, when i said last post for this blog. i'm sorry.
just one more last post=)
maybe i'm the one at fault, being sensitive & all.
this friendship is too true to be gone,
there's still rooms for understanding & appreciations.
maybe it was me who acted on impulse, & caused a big problem.
when i said i didn't care, swore & promised that i wouldn't care,
maybe i was just too dumb to said that.
those only lasted like 1 or 2 days?
and now, i don't think i'm able to keep that promise
i'm sorry God, for breaking this promise & making an unnecessary swear
i know He will forgive me, i'm sorry.
after talking to espall, letting out so much things, tears have been shed
but it's worth it.
because at least we got our feelings cleared, all unhappiness shared.
she's right, why care so much about appreciation?
yes, & i haven forget anything , that
She means more than anything else
much more important than stupid appreciation
She is someone i've held on to for who she is, not someone i want her to be.
She is someone whom i've accepted since the day we became friends.
She is someone whom i've gone thru miles with.
She is someone whom i can shout at, & get this stupid face from her
She is someone who went thru ups & downs with me, like a roller coaster rides, even thou she fear of this kinda rides, & she's always the down.LOL!
She is someone whom i can fool around with
She is someone who can make stupid monkey faces with me, accept me no matter how ugly i am, just like how i HAVE to accept her :D
She is someone who will share her pain with me, like dirts & creams.lol
& also someone who will clean it away for me
She is someone who don't mind my dirtyness, because she's one dirty fellow too.
She is someone who is as pretty as a flower, because she's clean & green:) just simply her
She is someone i HAVE TO carry, no matter how heavy is she.
stupid elephant.No matter how long the journey takes;)
She is someone whom i'll hold on to, & nvr say gdbye
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She is someone whom i wanna walk with till the end,
She is no other than
SHAMINE WEE SHI YUN
I'm Sorry
from the bottom of my heart=)
no matter who's right or wrong, i don't care anymore
i just want to salvage this friendship, more than a friendship
you're right, i wouldn't have let you go.
you're too much for me to let go, too important to bid a gdbye
sorry for my words, you're the first person whom i actually apologised openly to.
& i had to break my promise & swear
Sorry for not being there when you cry this time,
infact, sorry for making you cry.
i understand :)
yours truly,
darling <3
Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
1:58 AM
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
my final post dedicated to youi'm letting this go
when i said i'l hold on to this love, i meant it.
& now i said i'm letting it go, i really mean it too
there's nothing worth for me to look bck & hold on,
nothingbecause there's too much disappointment & lack of appreciation
how much i cared for you & did for you, is can never be compared to how much you've done for me.
I don't ask for anything for return, honestly.
All i just want is simply, appreciation.
but 9 out of 10 i just got a plainly "thank you"
everybody can say that, even my 4 years old nephew.
words can be said easily,
" you mean alot to me"
yes, you too, means everything to me,
beforebut what i see myself in you right now, is jut a status of " bestfriend"
just a status.
i don't think i deserve this status.
you don't too.
you're no longer the one i'll turn to whenever i meet up with challenges,
so am i.
we're just lying to ourselves saying how important we are to each other.
in the past, whenever there's disputes, i'll shed my tears & yet saying i don't care
but this time, i can say from the very depth of my heart , " i really don't care"
i won't even shed a tear, i can't too no matter how much i force myself.
cause this faith i have in you, has already died within me.
i don't have much strength to hold myself up again, what's more to hold you up right now.
I've done that for umpteen times, & this time, i will not be behind you, for real.
because this is way beyond for any arguement or quarrel
i know it's useless to tell you how i feel,
cause for the past few times, it never helps
so i shall just blog it out, you to read yourself:)
and dear fellows,
this will be my very last post.
i'm not going to use this blog anymore:)
cheers:D
Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
12:44 AM
Thursday, January 10, 2008
i'm in a melancholy mood right now.
i won't deny this, cause i'm really in the state of despondency,
the loss of courage & hope; dejection
especially after heading to Nafa to take alook,
i can say it's despairing.
i'm so
stressed. right, stressed is the word.i can't
BALANCE things, everythingi hate it when darkness falls, & i'm all alone in the hall.
sunflowers & sunshine around you,
yet you're not happy.
this is how i feel right now.
i need supports, i really do.
this time, i'm defeated by sorrowness ):
badly.friends, this is the moment.
thank you
wanna run away,& hold nothing back,
just a smile :)
Yrays of light shine and i bade goodbye;
1:44 AM
She is someone who went thru ups & downs with me, like a roller coaster rides, even thou she fear of this kinda rides, & she's always the down.LOL!
She is someone whom i can fool around with
She is someone who don't mind my dirtyness, because she's one dirty fellow too.
She is someone who is as pretty as a flower, because she's clean & green:) just simply her
She is someone i HAVE TO carry, no matter how heavy is she.
